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Seeing the Big Picture

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I’m always grateful for a chance to step back and see the big picture. Today has been a long conversation with myself to bring to the surface all of the things I’ve been ignoring.

I know that there are two more energy shifts on the way in. It’s time to choose what I want for the next ten years. I also know that some of the options will hold me to old patterns. Getting a chance to look at the big issues, the fears and the opportunities is the only way to make sure I move forward in the best way. Helping me work through the information I have inside me has been a good friend and also my Spirit Team. Taking time out with an intuitive friend has always helped me to make sense of things. So I’m glad of the chance to meet up with her today.

Of course my Spirit Team are always around but do I always listen? Cue big sighs, laughter and a general feeling of never from my Guides. They must get fed up with me at times. That’s because I get dragged into the detail instead of staying with the overview. They ask me to trust that everything is working out perfectly as it should. Then I go ahead and try to manage the detail. But not for the rest of this year. Worrying about details is a pointless exercise right now. It’s time for me to set my intentions for the new energy in January. So I need to be thinking in wider ways.

That’s why I have been looking at the trends of the last nine years. Working out the numerology of my Nine life. Counting up what I’ve achieved as well as what is still left to be done.

I know that before I got here I set up my blueprint. My plan of what I wanted my Spirit to achieve from this life. Sometimes I’ve gone off plan. Occasionally I’ve dumped the plan altogether. Every now and then I’ve flowed with what I designed for myself. I can feel those times. Looking back over the last nine years there were great leaps forward. And a few steps back too. Or even stopping altogether. Yet here I am. With so much more still to progress.

I can’t move forward if I don’t look at it all. If I fail to consider the different interpretations of my experiences. Getting an outside view, with the help of my Earthly and Spirit friends, puts the big picture into context. I can measure up the options open to me by whether they are old habits or new ways to progress. I can choose a different direction, or intention, or lifestyle. There are so many ways I can go to grow myself more. Looking at the new year I can remind myself that I want to shine more of my Light. The Spirit in all of us can radiate through the human body and share more love into the world. My choices have to be based on that.

I believe it’s time to be all that I am. To share as much of the highest vibrations that I can. And I hope that as many people as possible will join me in choosing the Light over Shadow. Love instead of fear.

Day 387 of my blogging challenge.

Choosing the Energy of the Next Nine Years

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img_2381This has definitely been a Nine year. Full of upset, endings, parting of the ways and closure. Also full of refelction, truth and searching. As a Nine person I can find a Nine year more of a challenge than most.

That’s why today I needed a bit of help with making sense of it all. So much has happened to me on an inner, personal level this year. A lot has gone by in a blur. Often I’ve felt like I’ve bounced from one situation to the next, steering myself purely by what it felt right to do at the time. Thinking about ending this year and how I want my December to be I realise I want it to be very different than all those other Decembers of the last nine years. And the ones before it back to when my Mother died. That changed December in a very big way for all of my family.

As I write this blog I recognise that an important anchor went with my Mother. Yet she came back to me as a Guide. I had to become independent in my human life whilst we shuffled the relationship around. Then we could work together without compromising my free will choices. She has been very much around in the past couple of weeks. Along with my Nanna, her mother, my Dad and other family members. They have been standing strong for me while I worked out what I learned about myself this year. And then began working out what I want 2017 to be for me.

As the energy of new beginning approaches I know that the Universe is offering me anything I want. I have so many options. But there is the trap. Do I revert to old habits, my comfort zone, which means I stay restricted. Or do I seize the new?

It’s an important decision. I know that I will be setting up the energy for the next nine years by the choices I make. In fact that’s true for all of us. Even if I get a huge blast of new energy, if I’m not careful, I am going to be containing it in my old patterns. Of course that won’t work. The new energy will fade away due to my old choices. New energy will carry me forward over the next nine years only if I invest it in new beginnings. Not the trick of seeing the old as new. But the clear sightedness of recognising something as genuinely being new. So back to thinking about what I’ve learned about my patterns in the last nine years.

Sometimes I need a prompt. This afternoon I got out my tarot cards. An old, familiar friend when I’m stuck. My thoughts were all over the place. I asked in my mind for help. What could the cards tell me, and everyone else, about this new year? Of course, I ended up pulling card number one in the Major Arcana. In my pack it is called Awareness (the Magician in other interpretations). As I read the information these two sections stood out: “This card is one of the key reminders that you already possess all of the tools to guide and direct you in your life.” ‘This card represents your ability to create your own reality – to set ideas into motion and watch them grow.”

I was smiling to myself as I reached for the next card. It’s true. I know so much more about myself, my abilities and skills than I did at the start of this nine year cycle. And I’m ready to use my wisdom to create my dreams.

The second card I got was also in the Major Arcana. It was Fertility (the Empress in other packs). Once again I looked to the information in the book. I read “Through this card, the manifestation of growth is on the horizon. You’re the creator, and the seeds that have been planted in the past … are now ready to give birth into your world. Be patient as you watch your seeds take root and grow. Nurture them as they become strong and healthy.”  I have certainly had a lot of new dreams this year.

When I’ve been coping with the challenges of bringing my Spirit being more fully through into my human being I’ve imagined as much positive as I could. I’ve known I needed more than me to get my dreams into reality. The people and Energy Beings around me have been a key part of my choices. Their support, actions and reactions have informed what I’ve done. And what I have chosen for my future. Feeling like I am grounded back in to a clear vision I know that I will be stepping as far out of my comfort zone as I can reach. I’m saying yes to the scary new. The safe new is a trap I want to avoid.

Sometimes my inner intuition is scrambled. Like today. How wonderful to see my way by using the gift of the Tarot. In two days it’s the birthday of Margaret. She was the Earth Guide who introduced me to reading cards 24 years ago. I like to think that from her place in the Afterlife she approves of the way I still call on her lessons to help me see the way forward. Thank you my dear friend ❤️️

Day 384 of my blogging challenge. 

Nine by Nine by Nine – Triple Endings

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imageI like to do my Oracle Cards most days. I feel that I am turning in to the general every of my day. Today I got a card about lightening.

In a traditional reading using playing cards the Jokers stay in the pack. If one comes out in your spread the interpretation is said to be a bolt of lightening. Depending on which way up the card is pulled suggested whether the lightening is on it’s way in or on it’s way out. The good thing about lightening is that it shakes things up. But not exactly in the way you might want. As I thought about the lightening card I’d pulled I wondered what my day would be like. Could I ride out the energy storm and embrace the lesson of the lightening? How could I use the energy of nine alongside the lightening?

I’m a nine person. In a nine year on a day that is a nine as well. Going through the ninth month. Would this lightening leave me feeling foolish or wise? Could the trickster energy of the Joker give me a way through whatever I needed to experience. Or was I just fooling myself? To guide myself I thought about the key energy of this number – the ending of cycles. I’ve certainly felt the energy of endings all year. Things in me and therefore outside of me have been changing rapidly. This is my third time off grid, so to speak, and I’m finding myself, once again,  reading interesting, soul searching books on my kindle. As with the previous times, I’m also with a companion who is kindly allowing me the space to be off grid too.

So what about 9 being divisible by 3. Three is the number of creation and my retreats are certainly turning out to be creative in one way or another.

As I moved through the day it was time to go out and eat. Yet in the restaurant the pain of neuralgia in my gum and jaw took over. I felt physically ill, emotionally vulnerable and all my efforts to retreat or release the pain failed. Stepping outside I went to a bench and sat down. Had I been struck by lightening? Colours flooded into my clairvoyant vision. The land felt like it was in pain. There was some sort of ancient energy calling for release. Within me I also felt surges of painful energy. It was hard to hold on to what they represented because the waves of pain were flooding over me.

Because I am used to working with challenging energy I let the pain increase and flow. My feet were glued to the ground as I asked for the energy to be released. I called on my Guides and the ArchAngels because I had become pure feeling. My mind had slipped into the pain too. It felt as if I was drowning in pain. I know that I was receiving encouragement to let this cycle of energies end. Yet I also felt like I needed to retreat. Which I did. Back at the apartment I lay on my bed repeating a positive mantra in my mind. I knew that I was in the grip of lightening and the only way to come through it was to ride out the storm.

I work a lot with colour. So I put my pink (unconditional love) scarf over my head and focused on my breathing. Relax and release I told myself. The pain will pass I repeated.

Gradually I sensed the three pains I was feeling. I realised that I had connected to a deep ancestral pain of the land burning from the volcanic eruptions. Death and destruction are powerful ways for rebirth and new growth. But they are not pain free, easy events to experience. I also realised that I had connected to the pain I felt in my mother’s womb. At the end of pregnancy, prior to birth, the baby is in a restricted space. The confined feel of the womb, whilst sometimes comforting, is also the energy push needed for the child to begin being born. It can be painful to leave a safe space for somewhere unknown. The third block of painful energy was connected to all that has been left unsaid in this current cycle.

I know that I have a tendency to let things pass. To stay quiet about my truth or even feel reluctant to give my view of emotional events. This has resulted in all sorts of fall out. And it seems that today I was collecting the physical pain associated with holding back the words. So I started to make sounds. Any kind of sounds. Letting noises emerge from my throat to move the stuck energy on. I also switched on my channel for the energy healing to flow through me. Letting the healing go out to the past and the present. Reminding myself that I could stay foolishly stuck in the pain or choose to use my wisdom and let it leave me. Tears finally came. Like a wash of rain after the electricity of the the lightening.

It’s never easy to end something. To release yourself for the next phase. The Earth, me, everyone else, the Universe. All going round and round in cycles that are, hopefully, spirals upward.

Waves of pain left me to be replaced by waves of calm. I fell asleep. It seems a hard way to do it. I know that the lightening shook me up. But I woke feeling at peace. There are some slight after-twinges still being released. However, those powerful, yet hidden, energies are gone. I have space to embrace my new challenges. I’m also sure the land breathes a bit easier underneath my feet. I know that we are encouraged to persevere. To push the feelings aside and keep going. Yet to move onto the next go round the circle of life we also have to embrace the emotions we have experienced. This is so that we can be cleared and refreshed ready for new adventures. Not to do so only stores up physical pain in the future. Then the letting go may be much tougher.

Today has helped me to remember that acknowledging feelings as they arise and releasing them as quickly as possible is the most positive cycle of energy. Holding on is like keeping karma at bay. It has to be experienced at some point, regardless of whether we want to or not. So why carry stuck energy with us endlessly. Is it time you released your stuck thoughts, feelings, situations and embraced change? Don’t wait for a nine times nine times nine moment. The lightening might not be so easy to handle!

Day 308 of my blogging challenge.