One of the things I’ve learned is about keeping a distance between me and any drama. It’s taken some years for me to step out of getting involved. To remind myself that the energy of negativity creates emotional chaos.
And to remove myself from any emotional involvement that disturbs my balance. I can’t say I’m completely there with this discipline yet. But I’m much better than I used to be. I feel it’s easy, especially as I am intuitively aware, to get involved in the negativity of other people. Especially if I over-sense their energy. The healer and nurturer in me switches on. I want to save the day by rescuing everyone and making it all come out well. Learning to operate at an emotional distance has been hard. I seem to have come in hard wired to gather everyone under my wings.
Add to that a healthy dollop of responsibility that goes with being the eldest child and it’s no wonder I played the peacemaker so often. Unfortunately it took me a long time to work out that diplomats also get the blame for outcomes too. Because you can’t please all of the people all of the time. A hard lesson for me to learn. One that often ended up with me being judged by all sides. And found wanting by all sides. So imagine how complicated it makes it when I know how everyone is really feeling. They might smile and talk positively. But I know the truth underneath. And there is nothing I can do about that.
Mainly because most people are still operating behind polite masks. They distance themselves from their true feelings. And have to make all sorts of complicated manoeuvres to feel comfortable creating drama.
At times that has frustrated or bored me. Or annoyed and upset me. Stepping out of the drama was hard when I felt I was supposed to justify myself. Yet another thing I’ve learned though is no matter what I say I’m talking to closed ears. People drive things on the way they feel they should go. Or try to manipulate the outcomes to fit their own agendas. So over the past few years I have stood back from situations as much as possible. I like to observe what people do rather than listen to what they say. I also step aside from as much negative energy as I can. A toxic environment is no good for anyone who is on a positive journey.
That’s the real reason to distance myself from drama. I prefer to flow in positive energy. It makes my connections to Energy Beings much stronger. It also means I can share positive energy and beam it out to anyone who might need a boost. The recipients don’t need to know I’m doing that. Hopefully they will feel a little bit better about their life or situation. And want to do something positive to change their outlook too. I’ve also tried to stop,creating my own drama too. I’ve stopped hanging on to things that need to be let go. Walking away from people and situations that create negative feelings in me. Knowing that I choose not to have those feelings.
Drama and turmoil is a life choice. I’ve learned that no one creates my drama for me. Putting the distance between me and my drama as well as the drama created by others has created a peaceful flow to my life. Since I want to keep my life this way I will be carrying on stepping into the distance.
Day 435 of my blogging challenge.
We are coming to the end of five years where the energy has been all about facing our fears. Bit by bit we have been asked to look at what we worry about most in our lives. It’s been an inner journey so that we can eventually produce an outer change.