On a Go Slow: Feeling Out of Sorts

It’s been a slow day. I woke up feeling out of sorts. Nothing I could put my finger on. But heavy energy.

Sometimes it’s not clear to me why I feel that the energy is heavier. I know all sorts of things might be going on in the energy ocean that surrounds me. But I can’t quite get to the heart of what is shifting around. At this kind of time I have to be kind to myself and acknowledge that I’m not feeling just quite right. It doesn’t happen often. Because usually the waves of energy are very clear. And I know that everyone around me is feeling those same waves. Yet today it felt like some of the waves were definitely flowing in the opposite direction. So were many of the things I planned to do.

When this happens I know that things might appear to be going in reverse. So I feel like I’m not moving forward but back. Given that it’s also the start of a new moon with some interesting impacts from both Mercury and Saturn yet in the outspoken Leo it’s no surprise that everything I’ve been doing has come back under review. I have been busy manifesting my desire but now I also have to check if they are really what I want. Then I have to do the work of making sure they come into being. And that might be the challenge. Taking the right action when there are all sorts of things I can choose to do. I’m being asked to be decisive. Not a good thing if, like me, you tend to procrastinate quite a bit.

However, the time for thinking is almost past. I have one more go round in this heavy energy before I start to put my creative talents into bringing in my dreams. September is launch time. In this heavy energy I need to rest, review and refocus all sorts of intentions. How about you? What will you do?

Day 609 of my blogging challenge 

A Total Eclipse of the Human?

The incoming energy today has been amazing. It’s solar eclipse time again as well as the run up to the new moon in Pisces. What a spiritual energy combination. No wonder I’ve been dishing out healing energy from ArchAngel Parashiel.

Whenever I tune into the energy I get a taste of what is on the way in. That’s why I like to get people to open to their intuition. When I ‘read’ the energy I am able to keep myself in balance as ups and downs occur. I know that at the end of the Zodiac cycle we embrace the spiritual completion of Pisces. My journey of the last twelve months is over. I need to reflect on what I’ve learned about myself in that time. To think about what changes are required and consider my new direction. What are my next steps? How do I continue to evolve. What will I be asking the Universe for in the next twelve Zodiac months? So lots of soul searching. All being conducted with eclipse energy and a bit of Mercury & Mars for good measure.

So it’s time to communicate with myself. Probably forcefully. Whilst the energy of the eclipse disrupts the normal influx of New Moon’s new beginnings energy. The Moon will be blocking out the light from the Sun potentially making us experience darkness during the daytime. What that means is I’m like to be very confused, energised and stuck. Again. Because what these forces are doing is about getting me to recognise the truth of myself and my life situation. As a spiritual being I respond in a different way than as a human being. Where I might want to charge into something, perhaps laying down the law or being demanding, my inner self is seeking peace, harmony and using compassion. The mix of eclipse and moon energy stirs up that cocktail of impulses to show me where I might be rushing in where angels fear to tread.

So what can I do about the eclipse distortions? How to I maximise the new beginnings energy of the Moon?

That’s where I have been with the healing energy today. Taking things very gently. Looking after myself as well as being compassionate to others. Keeping my feet on the ground. And avoiding making any earth shattering decisions about my life. Until I can see more clearly once again I’m letting the energy wash over me. I’m not only talking to myself but I’m listening to myself too. It’s been a very demanding year with lots of experiences to grow through. One or two I admit I’ve backed away from. I’m sure they will be back around some time soon. But I feel that I’ve met most of my challenges head on. By doing so I believe I’ve arrived at a very positive place. I’m ready to push myself on again and grow some more.

Letting myself recognise the best time to make decisions is a big step too. Learning not to dive into action when the sea of energy is turbulent has been a big gain. I’ve begun to let the energy storms pass by or, if I can’t, to be in the eye of the storm. Calm and centred. Grounded to Mother Earth. Taking each moment for what it is. It is a time for all of us to come to a true understanding of ourselves and our current reality. I’m letting the energy ocean do the work for me. Staying positive whilst I wait for more truths to emerge. Recognising that ‘truth’ isn’t necessarily the hard fact I was taught it was.

There is truth behind the ‘truth’ and the current energies highlight that. Which means that I am healing too. Healing from the conditioning I’ve experienced whilst being human. Allowing more of my Spirit within to shine out. That can only be a positive improvement in my world.

Day 459 of my blogging challenge.