Trustworthy? Testing The Spirit Information

trustworthyI spent my day at a Mind, Body, Spirit Fair. It was a warm and positive occasion. I was there because I have learned the meaning of trustworthy. My Guides can be relied on because they are honest.

This came up in a couple of conversations as I talked about my book. I attended the Fair taking my book and CDs with the request from my Guide Team that I focus only on my writing. It made me very aware of the start of my public life as a medium. A reluctant medium to be sure. At best I stepped into my own spotlight because I was curious. Not at all because I thought I could be a medium. But I took what my Guides said on a sort of half trust and tried my best to do what they asked. However I do remember turning them down on several things I really was scared to do. They parked those requests and came back to them when they had ‘proved’ they were more trustworthy. And, of course, when I had proved that they could trust me too.

Although I wasn’t really aware that I was being tested to see if I was trustworthy. I felt I was  honestly doing my best to deliver on what they wanted. Although I did learn along the way that the honesty required meant a journey into finding my authentic self. Plus learning not to think about what others felt, thought or said about me. Then finding myself letting go of control so the Guide Team could steer my progress. To the point where I have stopped doing things they wanted me to stop. And started doing things they have asked me to focus on now. Like my writing and painting. I have tested, and they have confirmed, every request they have ever made of me. So that we trust one another enough to work the energy in the best possible way. Together.

I realised today that I look for others to be trustworthy now. Not in the sense of a blind trust in one another. But in a much more positive way. I look for the actions that people do. As well as trying to live as authentically as I can. When we all share a bond of trust – of honesty – the magic can really happen. Exactly as it did for me today.

Day 934 of my blogging challenge

Older Post Brings Clarity: Medium or Psychic?

olderI was looking back today through some older posts I had shared on social media. It took me back in a wander down memory lane. And it also reminded me that some questions crop up time and again. So in my blog I would like to share one of those older posts. For anyone thinking about having a reading. To inform. For clarity.

There are always a lot of questions about what psychics, mediums and clairvoyants do. It’s one of the older answers I had to be ready with when I started out as a reader. Some people think that they can only get Spirit messages from clairvoyants, some that psychics can tune into Spirit and many who just get confused by all the names floating around. This is my explanation – you don’t have to accept it. We are ‘thinking beings’. I would be delighted if you use my explanation to think about what you understand or believe psychic & Spirit contact is. 

Put at it’s simplest: a Psychic has the ability to read the aura (or energy system) that we all have around us as a physical individual. Because we can’t see it or touch it most of us are unaware of it’s existence. But it is there. And someone who has opened up to the information coming to them through their psychic senses can ‘read’ the energy and tell you what is most probably going to happen. They can also tell you what has happened, what is happening at the moment and the things your energy is trying to draw in for you in the future. This is not fortune-telling.

Fortune telling is how it might have been described in older versions of books and articles. When people were unclear about energy and the aura.

In present times more and more people are beginning to understand about intuition. So they recognise that an experienced Psychic can also link through you to the energy of all those who are connected to you or around you e.g. lovers, family, friends, workmates, neighbours. By ‘reading’ the energy of the people around you the Psychic can also see where their interests can be the same or different to yours and so how ‘probable’ your wishes and hopes are since your life choices are directly affected by the people who are around you.

Psychic readings pick up on your agenda – what you would like to have happen in your life. The reader checks this against the agendas of the other people around you and then gives you the best ‘probable’ outcome. We all have free will so we can choose what we do. That is why no-one can tell you your future. If you don’t like the sound of what you have been told you will do something completely different. That’s why many people say their reading was incorrect. They have heard what is on the way in and decided to exercise a free will choice another way. The reading is still valid. But in prompting change rather than forecasting solid facts.

So what about a reading from a Medium? How is that different?

A Medium is someone who has opened up to the auras of the people physically present in this world. And to the auras of people who have died. People who have died are in the ‘Spirit World’ and can come into the aura of a Medium to communicate. Mediums get this communication by seeing (Clairvoyance), hearing (Clairaudience), sensing (Clairsentience), knowing (Claircognizance), tasting (Clairgustance) or smelling (Clairalience). So someone who is a Clairvoyant gets messages more strongly through seeing pictures/figures/words/symbols etc. But all forms of ‘Clair’ can be used by an experienced Medium at one time or another.

Spirit readings through a Medium pick up on Spirit’s agenda – what else may be happening in your life that you have ignored, failed to notice or have lost sight of. Spirit readings should always contain evidence that is personal to you about the Spirit who has come forward or about yourself. The Medium should be comfortable with you only giving Yes and No responses as Spirit should be able to explain in more detail anything you don’t understand. In my experience Spirit always want to give a message so that you can understand issues or aspects of your life better. They do not tell you to do anything in particular and they cannot make decisions for you.

Remember we have free will and therefore do exactly what we choose to do. That is why Spirit do not tell you your future. As I explained above if you don’t like what you have been told you will do something completely different. Our loved ones know that. They also know us. Enjoy the messages. Take what you can from them. Older heads are wiser than us. Mediums and Psychics are trying to help us move forward as best they can.

Day 902 of my blogging challenge

Cobwebs: Strands Of Memory, Patterns And Choices

CobwebsI went for a walk at the harbour today. It was windy and fresh. Perfect for blowing the cobwebs away. And, as ever, I was inspired to think about a few things.

I love looking at cobwebs. They are so detailed, intricate and delicate. Each thread criss-crosses with others to make a wonderful pattern. And when I started developing my mediumship cobwebs took on another significance. As a claresentient medium I feel Spirit connections in my physical body. At the beginning that usually meant feeling like I had walked into cobwebs and they were on my face. The threads of that contact linked me ever onwards to stronger and stronger physical sensations. Of course I ended up being able to translate these feelings very accurately. Which, in turn, led me to more and more work and development with my mediumship. Until my life became a new pattern. Something very different from where I had started.

In the last few months I have been exploring the patterns I’ve built up over the last eleven years. All patterns involve choices. But I’ve been checking if I need to change any of those choices. Fresh decisions mean a change in my patterns. And that is something that has emerged as well. To help me I have been letting the cobwebs blow away. The thoughts and feelings behind my past decisions have sometimes become unnecessary or incompatible with where I am now. I’ve been releasing them, along with the memories they are attached to, so I can enter 2018 ready to work up new patterns. Free to make new connections within the strands of my life. Creating a space where I have new options to choose from. Today it felt really good to gift the old energy to the wind. Ready to tap into fresh energy.

Letting the cobwebs flow away, dissolving the strands, I feel empowered to move in new directions. The air flowed around me. Reminding me that I have the space, time and creativity to revision my web of connections. And that, in the end, since everything is connected, my web can be as vast as I wish it to be. All I have to do is be open to seeing it. Meanwhile, is it time you cleared out your cobwebs?

Day 767 of my blogging challenge 

Habits, Past Lives And Future Choices

pattern & habitsI’ve returned to old habits again. Out and about at a Mind, Body, Spirit fayre I got talking to someone about past lives. Again. It’s my passion for past lives that brought me to mediumship and the event today.

For the past forty years my life has been entangled with the subject of past lives. I’ve done workshops, both as a student and teacher, meditations, read books and both given and received messages about my own past lives. Each experience has helped me too understand that old habits are hard to break. And every time I thought I had got rid of one, back it has come to challenge me again. These habits are designed to get me to pay attention to my choices. So that, in future, I can make decisions that handle things differently. But sometimes I really wish I’d left my past lives well behind me. Especially as I know I have had many tries at balancing off my karma. Over many, many lives.

Chatting to the lovely people who were also running stalls I couldn’t help thinking about habits. My patterns and ways of doing things. I was also wondering why my Guides had got me back to MBS events. Apparently it was for my book promotion. But I soon realised that I was really there to meet people and chat. I often find I pass on messages, dressed up as casual conversations, in this rather random fashion. Especially when people might find it more difficult to get to my work base. Today it seemed the subject was past lives. I found myself explaining about how understanding them made it easier to know what we had already tried. So it would be quicker to try a different way to deal with a situation. Rather than retreat into a well worn response.

And, of course, I explained that this is the way we grown in wisdom. So habits are there to be broken. Finding a way to do something differently is a way to increase my options. Or generate new possibilities for the future. I enjoyed reflecting on this particular pattern and doing things slightly differently. I am grateful for my past lives today. They helped me explain something to someone else. That’s a good thing to get from an old habit!

Day 747 of my blogging challenge

Speak of I, Me Not You, Us, Them or We

speakWhen I speak it’s very tempting to drift into using ‘you’, ‘us’ or ‘we’ when I really mean ‘I’. It’s one of the things I really noticed when I started giving people Spirit messages.

You or we has become a habit for me. It developed a long time ago so it has been hard to break out from it. Especially in my speaking work. I hear myself using ‘we’ to say what the Spirit people are saying or when I’m trying to describe how mediumship works. These collective pronouns leap to the front. It’s as if I my experiences only have validity if they apply to more than me. So ‘all people’ … Or ‘we all know’ … Even ‘those of us’ … And ‘you all say’ … The pronouns trip off my tongue so easily as I speak, readily giving me the sense of belonging. They link me to a shared identity, opinion or value. They also trap me because my own identity, opinion or values are hidden underneath a collective idea of belonging.

I lose my own voice. Even my own sense of self. I am not speaking from my position as an ‘I’ meaning individual. I have become merged, lumped in, invisible. This became much more apparent to me when I had to find my writing voice. I have a handy free little widget on my web site called Yoast SEO. It’s there to help me climb the Google ranking by letting search engines find my web pages. It tells me when I’m using a passive voice in my writing. Especially when I do too much you, us, them, we. Of course I’ve had to think about my sentence construction. Reminding myself that I speak to others exactly like I would talk. So I have to come from an ‘I’ perspective.

Though that does make explaining things slightly more tricky. Because I have to own what I am saying. I can’t bounce it off to others. I have to speak for myself and my ideas.

It all boils down to saying what I believe instead of generalising. The more I’ve written the stronger my writing voice has become. All due to owning my ‘I’ ness when I’m speaking in my blog or anywhere else. When I read back what I have written I’m checking to see that I own my views. Looking to connect with the authenticity of me. And being clear that I speak as an individual from my heart. I guess what I’m saying is that I am finally owning myself. This goes further too. In my speaking voice I am clear that I speak for the Spirit World but the way I do so is my own. They can ask me to pass a message across but how it actually arrives will be filtered through my words.

My Guides like me owning my share of the message. I have always been encouraged by them to speak as I find, to give what I get or say what I see. They recognise the ‘I’ in our humanity even as we work hard to hide in a collective language. My Guides have also pushed me to find my true self. I’ve been supported by my experiences to really find and say all that I believe to be right for me. I feel that is the ultimate beauty and reward of speaking with my ‘I’ voice. Because I have something unique to contribute. Although it might be similar to what others say it will always have an energy of me attached. My Guides remind me that knowing my ‘I’ as absolutely as possible will bring me the greater blending with we, us and them.

You see … I have to exist before I can become we and then us. Collectively we all exist together to speak and listen in equal measure. Because the Spirit World is the loving surrender of I to we, where giving and receiving finally balance out. Own yourself when you speak so that all of us can own our community.

Day 711 of my blogging challenge

Comparing Brings Competition: Collaboration Anyone?

comparingAbout half way through something I used to find myself comparing where I was headed to where I had been. It often brought on a wobble!

Then it would take me ages to refocus on where I was headed. Plus the wobble could be quite uncomfortable as all my fears came out to haunt me. I began to notice my habit of comparing myself or my life with others. Finally I recognised that the only comparisons that were worthwhile centred around how I was doing. I stopped thinking about others and began measuring myself. This technique came back to me more recently when I started a regular exercise routine, I was glad too see that my comparisons where useful for helping me compete with myself. I compete to do something to the best of my ability.

Today was an exercise class. I love using my physical body because it’s the one I chose to have when I was working out my life plan in Spirit. Mostly it has served me well. Now and again it’s had to remind me very strongly that I haven’t been looking after it. But I wouldn’t swap it. It suits me and I’m learning to suit it. Comparing my body to the images that float around me is pointless. All that will happen is that I will start to judge this lovely vehicle. Or become dissatisfied with what I have chosen. I don’t want to do that. I’m sure most people don’t. Yet we are encouraged to compete with one another for a ‘perfect’ body. As if there is only one shape that will do. I though about that again later this afternoon.

When I was a full time counsellor there was a lot of talk about comparing one therapist with another. The idea that some were better than others.

I recall it seemed to bring with it the insidious energy of competition. Listening to debates amongst my colleagues about other people’s abilities it seemed that everyone was ready to judge. Because someone may not have been proficient according to the person doing the judging there was even a quite dismissive attitude. I hated it. Really hated it. All of us have to start somewhere. I had to begin being a therapist, make my share of mistakes and improve as fast as I could. The point was to get better. Not for me to start out a perfect therapist. What was the point of that? And I knew that everyone else was following the same process.

Comparing seemed to lead to people stating their credentials too. A sort of ‘my course is better than your course’ approach. For a long time I wouldn’t use my Masters degree in any of my paperwork. I had obtained it for me. To stretch me. To help me explore and open my mind more. In a qualifications competition I always stood back. Because what mattered was the work I was able to do. Not the level of my qualification. There was an endless rumble of complaint that people were entering counselling and thinking they knew it all after only a few courses. The organisation I belonged to wanted to tighten accreditation. To make my profession a closed shop where only those who conformed could work.

Comparing eventually moved me out of counselling. I didn’t want to compete. I wanted to work with the people I could help.

So I started to see people using my mediumship instead. That was an interesting experience. Stepping out of the competition led me to appreciate how much my work is actually a collaboration. Any of my work. In the end, I can’t do anything if the Spirit people don’t step forward. And I can’t pass on messages if there is no one for the Spirit person to talk to. Of course, that is exactly like life. No matter what I’m doing it will end up a collaboration somewhere along the line. Yet it’s still up to me to make sure I am doing my best in the moment. That’s where I’m happy to compete with myself.

Can I make a better connection? Am I able to give more detailed evidence? Do I need to reflect on the way someone received the message? And a whole load of other questions. Unfortunately I find that there are still judgements being made. Just like in my counselling profession there are people practicing mediumship who have fixed ideas about who else can do so. Fixed ideas about where they should have trained. Opinions about the work of others who have to start somewhere. I’m sure the Guides are encouraging and helping everyone to develop to the best of their ability. But not everyone is there yet. Mediumship is still a misunderstood ability.

There is a great opportunity here. Not to introduce restrictive practises. Or assume that connecting with Energy Beings is only the right of those in certain parts of the Spiritualist Movement. The opportunity is to support, assist and inspire those who are currently at the beginning of the process. Keeping people out will only lead to competition. Comparing is only useful when collaboration is the goal. It’s time to be inclusive instead!

Day 707 of my blogging challenge

Free Will Does Come First

There are days when I can’t tune in. Even with Tarot, pendulum or divining rods. Fortunately not too many. But it often boils down to free will.

When I set out on my journey into Awareness and Mediumship I though that my Guides would never be away from my door. I thought they would be trying to control my every move, thought and choice. First I had a bit of a rant at them. I told them I wouldn’t take kindly to being told what to do. It’s that rebel in my head. She sounds off at any chance. Sometimes attacking first without waiting for the bigger picture to emerge. Or at least she used to. My Guides seemed to find my rants rather amusing. They laughed quite a bit at the idea that they could make me do anything.

My Mum’s policy was to ask me to do the opposite of what she wanted. She knew I would always do what I thought ran counter to her wishes. So I ended up pretty much doing what she wanted until I finally figured it out. When my Guides reacted with amusement it made me stop and think. Were they using a tactic on me. At first trust is hard to build up with Spirits who you think are strangers. Even when your intuition is telling you that you know their energy signal. That it’s not the first time you have met. So I was cautious. I wanted to know why they found my resistance funny.

I now know that they were trying to teach me a very important first principle. The idea of free will.

Of course I had heard of free will. I also thought I had it until I stepped back and looked more closely at my life. Then I realised that a lot of my choices were influenced by the needs of other people. Perhaps I wasn’t doing what I chose after all. Yet free will doesn’t mean doing exactly what you like when you like. My Guides were quick to point out that what you give out you get back. My choice had to be filtered through an understanding of my intention. What would be achieved for me and others if I chose any particular option.

I know that my Guides were asking me to embrace a kind of thinking that meshes with my inner spiritual being. Hauling off and shouting angrily at someone might be my first free will choice. But that energy would be returned to me. Did I really want that? I guess the selfish bit of me certainly didn’t want a tide of anger coming back at me. Considering my free will more carefully from a self interested point of view in the beginning moved me into more questions about the nature of free will. Like why do we have it? If we really do have it.

That was another cause of gentle amusement for my Guides. They asked me to check how much free will I actually had.

I am a product of my personality as expressed through a particular time period. My experiences have shaped my beliefs and outlook. It’s impossible to divorce me from my nature and nurture. The amount of free will I express is restricted by that. Of course I can make choices to change my personality and background. Some of these efforts will succeed. My application of my free will alters too. However, it is certainly the work of a lifetime to match up free will and spirituality in action.

So I asked the obvious question. Why do I have the power to choose where I take my life but sometimes refuse, forget or decide not to use it? My Guides responded so lovingly when I asked this. They told me that my first purpose in exsisting was to be able to experience love and it’s absence. So that I could do that I had to be able to choose. My choices had to draw in or drive away the loving energy all around me. And I had to have an inner and outer world that my choices acted on. All actions have consequences. It is up to me whether I experience life as a blessing or a curse. Whether I search high and low for the love that is under my nose.

Very soon the new year will be here. I’ve been asking for guidance for myself. But it’s been very slow in coming. My Guides have reminded me that I have to choose. 2017 will be whatever kind of year I choose to make it. If it’s my choice then I know it;s going to be a good year. No matter what happens I will look at my free will choices very carefully to make sure I’m picking the best things I can for myself ?

Day 404 of my blogging challenge.

Balance the Energy by Boosting your Vibration

imageOne of the things I do as a teacher is to hold the energy of my group. By that I mean that I keep an eye on what energy everyone is radiating so that I can make sure we all blend together. I make it all balance.

The reason for making a balance happen is so that we can all learn together in a positive way. When I started teaching about intuition I didn’t have any particular vision of how it would go. My Guides had asked me to start doing workshops for other people so that’s what happened. As I ran my first few I know I was learning as much as the people attending them. Not particularly about the subject, but certainly about working in energy. Energy that I can’t see, touch or sense with my physical senses.

I’ve been fascinated by the ideas of quantum physics and string theory for a long time. Perhaps it’s because of all those science fiction books I read, lol. Understanding consciousness, what reality is and how I experience the world have been a life-long passion. So when I began my journey into mediumship looking at the world as energy rather than as a fixed state was easier than I expected. The idea that we are all really energy did still tie me up in knots from time to time. How could something so solid be a wave form instead! My Guides helped a lot. They gave me pictures, stories and models that made the energy world a lot more meaningful.

They needed to help me balance the solid with the fluid of our human experiences. I had to understand the impact of willpower on what is manifested into existence. I admit it took me some time.

The reason I had to understand was so that I could move beyond what I could observe about people into what I could sense about people. I’m sure I, like everyone else, settle a lot of the time for what I can see. So anyone who can keep a poker face can be hard to ‘read’. Someone who is smiling at me may actually be very unhappy with me. Not all smiles are genuine. After all we pay people vast sums of money to make movies that are full of false smiles. So if someone is good at making their face a mask I may take them at face value. I could actually be very wrong to do so.

I’ve also found that people smile when they are feeling really fed up, angry, fearful or upset. We call it putting a brave face on. But it’s actually a false face. I know there have been many times when I felt uncomfortable with someone but didn’t know why until afterwards. I realised eventually that their energy was telling me one thing but their appearance was suggesting the opposite. How to deal with this? It became a much bigger issue when I was leading groups. Then I found I could have a real mixed up muddle of energy but lots of smiley, happy people. As I explored how to recognise and sort this energy out I learned one of my best lessons. If someone’s energy was out of balance it pulled the energy of the whole group out too.

Once again I looked to my Guides for help. Thankfully they were ready to help me sort it out.

They showed me how to ‘feel’ the different energy strands, follow the ‘colour’ of each flow and notice where it was blocked or out of shape. I found it was a bit like untangling a ball of wool that a kitten has been playing with. It I concentrated I could decode each strand of energy – each person’s signal – so I knew if they were in a positive flow or not. As the energy flows out and between each of us I could also see where there was too much emphasis on low vibrational energy. I could then apply more positive energy to that point and ‘free’ the participants to work in a better blend with each other. The balance achieved generally took the group from slower connections to improved connections.

Of course not everyone responded to the positive energy. Some people carry too much low vibration with them at all times. Yet to connect successfully it really is important to be in the most positive energy you can find. I know that anyone opening up their intuition will have to clear out old, stuck feelings that are low vibration. However, connecting isn’t the only positive thing to happen if you do get rid of fear, anger, hate etc. etc. etc. When you pay attention to the energy you give off and make sure it is positive life gets a whole lot better. I know this for certain. It’s something I’ve learned by my own experiences. As I struggled to bring a balance of feelings into my own life I noticed that staying positive works.

Even more exciting, that positive feeling generates more positive feelings in me. And if I share my positive energy then others start to share the positivity back. We come into balance with each other.

That is a really great outcome. It means that even if I’m surrounded by people who are in their lower emotions, full of anxious, worrisome or distressing thoughts, I can alter that if they are willing to accept a blast of positive energy from me. I call it my sunbeam moments. A short blast of the light, bright, loving energy, that comes from the Universe and is free to all, is all it takes. Why not join me in some sunbeam moments?

Day 289 of my blogging challenge.

Lightwork isn’t easy but you can make it so

Lightworker1One of the titles my kind of work is often called is ‘Lightworker’. What is Lightwork? It’s different from medium or psychic. Those descriptions have come to represent working only with Spirit people or predictions based on aura energy. Being a Lightworker means to work with energy, transformation and healing so that the inner journey results in a greater transfer of Light into the outer world (my definition). You can find other definitions around the Web but the main point is that the use of this title widens the scope of what people understand I do. I prefer to talk about working with Energy Beings. My sensitivity to energy has been the result of an inner spiritual journey. The direct result of that journey has been that I and others are in the process of receiving healing energy.

One of the most helpful books to cross my path as I was developing was ‘Manual of the Warrior of Light’ by Paulo Coelho. You see, I was finding all this Lightwork stuff difficult. It was bad enough to be a skeptic and find that there were Spirits. To find that there were lots of other energy types who introduced themselves to me was rather mind-blowing. I was way outside my comfort zone. I admit I had read and heard of lots of them. Reading about the Dragons, Elementals, Angels, Pleiadians, Arcturians and many, many more is one thing. But getting to sense them, up close and personal, is much harder to deal with. Across my path came this wonderful book. I was mesmerised by these lines

What is a warrior of light?

You already know that, she replied with a smile. He is someone capable of understanding the miracle of life, of fighting to the last for something he believes in – and of hearing the bells that the waves sets ringing on the seabed.

He had never thought of himself as a warrior of light. The woman seemed to read his thoughts. Everyone is capable of these things. And, though no one thinks of themselves as a warrior of light, we all are.

As I dived into the book – a series of statements about the warrior of light and how one goes about Lightwork – I understood that I had to put my faith in my experiences. Understanding what those experiences meant was an exercise for later. Trusting that what I felt, sensed, heard or saw would take me further on the spiritual path I seemed to have stumbled onto. The pages of the book were signposts on my way. I have returned to the book again and again. When I am struggling to accept I’m a Lightwkrker. When I have lost my faith or trust. When I am disappointed in myself or others. When I have failed. The comfort of the statements lifts my chin back up. I hold my head higher. I endure and persevere.

People enter into their mediumship development full of hope (possibly), intrigued (certainly), frustrated (sometimes), scared (often) and with a need to understand (always). They haven’t realised the effort, patience and determination required to make sense of the communications they receive. There is much uncertainty. Moving from incompetent to competent is a life long journey. We are trying to rediscover the natural connections we enjoyed as small children. Removing the conditioning, that has been around us ever since we were told that the friend only we could see was imaginary, is a challenge. Yet we can make it much easier on ourselves.

Letting the experiences happen is the start. Being open to the fact that our beliefs and world view will be challenged. reserving judgement. Going in search of more experiences to see if the same thing happens again. Letting our intuitive ability surface. Trusting that there is a bigger picture we can’t see yet. All of these will make the shift into acknowledging your Lightworker status much easier. Then you can get on with the Lightwork you agreed to do before you came into being human. Finally, you can enjoy having a purpose in life, a reason d’être, an adventure. I wish you good fortune in your journey!

Day 68 of my blogging challenge.

Step into the unknown

imageI’m often asked how I make decisions in my business. Or sometimes whether I should be running a business at all if I’m spiritual and want to help people. These are two really interesting questions for me. I’ve considered them over & over since I started to give messages and channellings in public.

I’ve actually been self-employed since 1998. At that time I made a career change and started to work as a counsellor whilst I was studying hard to get my qualifications. Most of what I did in the first two years was on a voluntary basis. I felt I needed to be experienced before I could charge for my services. I was also recovering from an illness that had worn me out completely. A small amount of voluntary work let me gain confidence in my skills until I could begin building up a full time business. By 2000 I had developed my work into a source of full time income with some voluntary counselling in projects that I felt were important to me.

By 2006 my connections with the Spirit World were developing fast. I was still counselling but there were elements of the sessions where it seemed I had more than intuition guiding me. As I learned more about my natural skills, especially with my clairesentience, I found that the information I was getting was stronger, more detailed, more clear. I felt that introducing Spirit people into the counselling sessions was inappropriate. So I took a step in another direction. I stepped off a cliff into fresh air. I began to give people Spirit messages. Soon after that I found I was standing up in Spiritualist churches and Centres giving those messages in public.

At that time I had to revisit what I felt about giving my communications. It was clear that putting people in contact with their loved ones in the Spirit World was a wonderful priveledge. The people who got the messages seemed to be helped so much by the connection still being a ‘live’ link. I spent a lot of time giving the messages for free. I felt that once again I was learning so perhaps a charge wouldn’t be right somehow. I was going here, there and everywhere. I was in demand in one way, but also meeting people who wouldn’t have a message unless they gave me some money. My donations tin came out – exactly like it had when I was a counselling student.

One day a good friend of mine asked me to have a coffee with her. She asked me if I was enjoying my mediumship. I said yes. The leap of faith I’d taken was very rewarding. Then she asked me who was paying for my travel & the costs of the car. I was a bit puzzled & said it was me of course. She said to me that if Spirit wanted me to do their work wouldn’t they provide an energy exchange. I hadn’t thought about it like that so I said I guessed they would. So where are you getting the ‘energy’ of money from to pay for your travel she asked. Of course I wasn’t getting anything like what I was spending by taking only donations.

That conversation prompted a conversation with my Guides. They had been trying to get my attention for weeks to discuss this with me. Giving is wonderful. To be able to share something and choose to make it a gift is positive energy. What my Guides needed me to understand was that I had to give to myself as well as others. All the voluntary work has to be balanced by accepting what is given to me in return. And sometimes I have to ask up front for an exchange of energy. I have to let people give to me in the form of money as a return for the ‘energy’ I give to them.

Anyone who begins a spiritual business (one that is aimed at helping people evolve & grow) faces that set of questions no matter how big or small the business actually is. Becoming a full time medium brought me to that set of questions from my friend. When I started the Down 2 Earth Heart Centre I came back again to the same set of questions. I faced a step into the unknown where I had to trust that there would be firm ground beneath my feet throughout. I’ve become better at accepting payment for my services – it’s an exchange of energy. Having a Centre means doing it in a bigger way.

One of the key things about the Centre is that I have supported it from my income so that we can keep offering free sessions for people to come in and find a warm welcome. The lovely practitioners who work in the Drop In do so with no expectation of being paid by anyone. They offer their time to be a listening ear, a comforting presence and a source of support. A number of practitioners of all sorts have volunteered to be around for the Drop In sessions. Quite a few of them haven’t quite understood my ethos. They have expected that the sessions will be run in order to get them customers. They have worked from the standard business model where competition for clients is a built in requirement. The Centre’s energy is entirely different. We work as a collaborative team with no expectation of the people who come through the door. We all have other sources of income having learned that the best way to build a business is to focus the energy on relationships not on money.

Those practitioners who stepped into the unknown with me two years ago and have remained have learned a new way of being in a spiritual business. They understand the value of relationships in building a community. That is what we have grown – a community of support, compassion and acceptance. I’m delighted that our success is measured by those people who came into the Centre when lost in their lives & selves and who are now so very different. The money I have put into the Centre has been my gift to them. I’m certainly ready to ask for and accept the return of that money energy.

So how do I make my decisions? I make my choices by listening to my heart, to my Guides and to the people who use the Centre. Soon we will be starting in on our third year of offering ‘something for nothing’ in the Drop Ins. Although it isn’t really something for nothing. I am happy to keep giving to people. What they give me back is their own personal growth. And if they can afford it at any time some money energy. It’s been a new idea for our visitors too. The donation tin has had to be out there on the table in case someone is not yet ready to accept unless there is an immediate return. There is a whole other blog required to discuss obligation & our tangled up way of holding onto barriers that prevent us from receiving, lol.

There is one final aspect to this blog this evening. We want to offer more to our visitors. I have actually joined a crowdfunding collaboration to improve the equipment of the Centre. A big step into the unknown again! You see, I am determined to offer as much as I can to the people who want to use our services but at the moment I’m working flat out & still can’t raise enough money for the extras I’d like. It’s time to send out a message to the Universe, my Guides and everyone who will listen. The Centre will happily benefit from the positive flow of abundance your donations represent. If you can donate money energy please email me for more details as the crowdfunding link isn’t  live at the moment. Thank you for reading to the end of this piece & thank you also if you decide to give ?

Day 59 of my blogging challenge.