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Leaping Into Darkness: Standing Steady

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LeapingSometimes I feel like I’m leaping into darkness. I can’t see what’s ahead and my shadow side is doing it’s best to hold me back. That’s when I have to make the biggest effort to stay on track.

For most of this year I have been navigating my life blind. My usual sense of knowing exactly what I’m doing and where I’m going has been off line. That’s because it’s a year of big shifts, personally, globally and energetically. I’m not the only person confused, waiting and wondering ‘what next?’. As the year has gone on I’ve found myself shifting in all aspects of my life as the changes work their way through. But I’ve also noticed that whenever I’ve been leaping into the unknown my uncertainty has almost stopped me moving ahead. It’s really important for me to understand that habit. If I let it carry on into my future choices I could end up leaping – but not far enough or well enough.

That’s why I’m working hard to understand my fears. The parts of me that quake my way through change rather than striding confidently forward. I know I’m a bit of a control freak still. Change is something I’m only slowly getting comfortable with. But I have to help myself enjoy change when it happens because then I’m much more likely to make the best choices for me. And that’s the problem with my shadow side. When it gets in the way I don’t do the best for myself. Leaping forward turns into a jump backwards. As I acknowledge my fears it doesn’t remove them completely. But it makes it easier for me to ignore that ego prompt to stay in the same habits. Standing steady is my answer. I remind myself that I’m in charge, not the fear. And I remind myself of the many times I’ve leapt and succeeded.

That’s the point. Knowing that the leap will be over at some point. That I will be back on solid ground. And that everything will turn out well. Is it time to trust yourself enough to take a leap out of your comfort zone too?

Day 664 of my blogging challenge 

Energy Builds Up: Being True To You

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Wave buildsThere has been plenty of healing needed today. Energy builds up in all of us. Just like it does on the planet. Then it needs to be released.

But there is another reason to pay attention to my energy at the moment. The next energy shift has already started to build. It’s on it’s way in and will wash over us on 17th September. I know it’s going to be a big blast. Because I also notice what is happening to Mother Earth. This year’s hurricane season is wilder than any other. Yet at the same time wildfires are affecting large parts of the world. And flooding is hitting harder and in more places. Like the way the energy builds in us it also gets more intense for the planet. All this energy brings with it challenges. Survival issues become the focus. And, I also know, the need to be authentic.

When my survival is challenged in any way I have two choices. I can become fearful and panic. Or I can make plans and get through it the best I can. So it’s important that I do what builds my resilience. I have to acknowledge my fear energy and how it might be trying to rush me into panic. Instead of letting it increase I have to focus on the things I can control. Not the things that are outside of my abilities. And I can prepare for as many outcomes as possible whilst remembering I might have to deal with unexpected outcomes too. Making sure I am true to my feelings but not letting them get in my way is the key. Also making sure I let the fear energy out. Release it so it can’t get in my way.  And accept that there will still be a residue of fear left.

So as the next energy wave builds up I am letting myself feel the fear of change. Because it’s then less energy to carry when the wave hits me.

I’m also focusing on the power of positive. I believe I have everything within me that can help me make the best of the changes that are coming. Even if I can’t see or sense exactly what will happen I am emotionally and mentally preparing to survive. And to thrive. That will give me the best chance, as the energy shifts and builds, to deal with whatever arises on a daily basis. I’m also keeping my attention on healing energy. For me, for all the people I connect with, for all the people in the world, the animal kingdom and the planet itself. I can’t be Wonder Woman rushing in to save every one. But I can use the power of my intuitive abilities to focus on positive outcomes for every one and everything.

It’s a bit like waiting for that giant wave with a surf board, life jacket and motor boat. Downloading the healing energy from the Universe is a triple back up. I can’t cheat death but I can give him a run for his money. Because when my energy builds up if I can link in with others who are accessing the Universal healing then we might shift much easier. That’s what a community of Spirit can do. And I know that we are all Spirits in human form. So I’m going to be kind to me over the next ten days as I await the energy surge. I’m also going to be as compassionate as possible to everyone around me as they feel the energy build up too. Not like a perfect, plaster saint. But embracing the fear, anxiety and frustration of waiting. Knowing what matters is that I do this to the best of my ability.

As the energy builds up across the world ask for help to deal with it. Be patient with yourself as you feel it sweep in. And keep that healing channel open so you receive all of the help and support you need. Change is finally here. And it will be good.

Day 654 of my blogging challenge 

Happy Third Birthday D2E!

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Today is the third birthday of my Down 2 Earth Centre. It’s been an interesting journey. Not always easy but certainly enlightening.

I work a lot on threes and nines. My life has been full of their influence. Over time I’ve got used to being a third of the way through something and finding I’m having to change things once again. House moves, work occupations, sometimes a lot of the people in my life. For a person who doesn’t do change too well that’s a lot of change. When I decided to set up the Down 2 Earth Centre I had a very clear vision of what I wanted. And how it would work. With all of the ways it would be successful. Yet as I approached this third birthday I had to step back and see how much of that vision had happened. Because if need be I would have to change what I was doing.

Certainly stepping back has brought me an interesting couple of months. Not least because change always makes me (and most of us) wobble. The certainty I once had seemed lacking in March. As did some of my motivation. Not helped by being energetically ‘under the weather’. But recognising my patterns around change energy I accepted the step back that I was required to take. And I took a good long look at what I was doing with my life. Then I was able to match that with what my vision had been. The gaps were obvious. Rolling my sleeves up and tackling those gaps should have been my next step. But it wasn’t. I needed to think a bit more.

Getting a third of the way through anything means it’s still early enough to walk away without feeling like something has been a waste of energy. It’s a kind of first quitting point.

For me three years is an acceptable time to have tried something for but also to turn around and say it’s not for me. Longer than three years and I start to build up an attachment to the outcome. Quitting is less of an option because I want things to work out the way I thought they should. Even if those outcomes no longer fit for or matter to me. Seeing the gaps between my dream and my actual position added an extra layer of reflection. Was my dream still what I wanted? Could those gaps be narrowed or disappear altogether? How much energy and effort would it require from me? And was I hanging onto a dream that has passed?

Lots of discussing, thinking, checking my feelings later I’m glad to say my vision for my future is still the one I want. I have to do some more work on how to flow with the changes I’m making. Perhaps I wanted step ten when I was only needing to be on step one. I’m constantly dealing with my impatience. As well as my need to try to control outcomes. Plus my general dislike of change. Yet as I sat in the peace and quiet of the Centre today I realised I’m getting better at change. At pausing a third of the way through and checking if I’m going in the direction I want. That my numbers are sliding into elevens and twelves. And instead of walking away I am delighted to keep going with the extra new ideas that will help me navigate this time of change energy.

Step back whenever you can. It’s well worth it when dealing with change.

Day 504 of my blogging challenge