Sometimes I’m definitely lost and confused. It seems like the story of my life at times. Those times when clarity pops up like a ray of sunshine in a very black day. Then winks out just as fast as it arrived.
Today has been a busy day to end a very busy week. All the things I promised myself I’d do got set aside with stuff that turned out to be higher priority. Even though I tried to keep to a plan or a structure too many more important things happened. One of the key themes I’ve noticed this week is how many other people are busy juggling the plans they made. Change is coming thick and fast. When we are in that state of flux it is so easy to get lost. And to double that up by adding in confusion.
Yet the week has also ended with one of the most wonderful days of healing energy I’ve ever had. It was a Reiki day full on. I have been in that Universal flow most of the day. Tomorrow I’m back once again in the healing flow because Earth’s ArchAngel Dareshiel will be channelling through me to send out an energy wave. I believe that wave is to help us with the emotional fall out from change. Two days of rays of sunshine to bring an end to confusion.
What I’m learning at the moment is to ease myself through change energy. I’m busy acknowledging my feelings so that they can be released. Even the feeling of being lost. It’s a natural enough feeling when my world seems to have reversed, turned upside down or tumbled apart.
In my moments of confusion or doubt I’m giving myself permission to feel that way. Uncertainty is a hard thing for my ego to cope with. After all the ego mind tries to keep me safe by controlling everything and resisting change. How disappointed or even scared the ego mind must feel when change happens anyway. Keeping busy is one distraction technique I’ve used a lot. But I know it doesn’t work. It’s like I’ve stuck my head in the sand so I can’t experience the change in energy. So the more I ‘go with the flow’ about confusion and being lost the faster I will be able to accept the necessary changes that are happening in my life.
I do want to mention a different kind of keeping busy though. Like this week. There is a wonderful feeling when being busy is a way through the confusion. When the tasks I’m doing are bit by bit helping me to find myself again. If I stay flexible I can swap one thing I’m going to do for another. I’m responsive to change – the ebb and flow of doing exactly what needs to be done in any given moment. Mindful in the moment to moment waves of change.
If you find yourself lost and confused bring yourself into the here and now. Acknowledging how it feels to you. Letting the emotions surface and drift away. Then find something to do. Make it a purposeful task. Enjoy doing it. Be ready for the next energy wave, emotion or task. Eventually confusion will disappear, you will find yourself and the changes will have happened.
Day 235 of my blogging challenge.