What If I Don’t Know What To Say?

The web editor page always says Enter Title Here. What if I don’t know what to say? What if my day is full of random chaos that currently makes no sense at all? How can I give something a name when I don’t know what it is?

In this case it’s my blog. Often the title is the first thing I get. Then the words spin out and flow onto the screen without much effort on my part. Another someone has taken over and my hands move on the keyboard of their own accord. I get to the end and am surprised when I read my writing back. What I end up saying is often very different than what I expected to say. And out of many different ideas one or two have woven themselves into something that makes me think. Think hard. Wonder if the questions I’ve asked myself were waiting to sneak up on me anyway.

Yet there are times when I see that request for a title and really wonder if I have anything useful to say. When my day has been so muddled that too many things press forward to be said. How can I restrict myself to one observation? I can’t get a focus on the day’s events anyway. Where do I start refining it all down into what I feel I want to say? It’s the same with many things in life. I can generally decide what I want to say and do. But every now and again something causes me to wobble. There is too much calling for my attention. It gets harder for me to sift through everything and say what I might need to. Becuase I’m unsure about what matters. And what doesn’t.

I like to call these times my creative crisis points. To remind myself that there is a lot going on. And that I can’t necessarily put names to all of it.

And in these times having my say can be difficult. Perhaps even impossible. How can I tell it like it is for me when I don’t know how it is for me? I know that lots of us bump into these creative crisis points on a regular basis. Becuase I often find myself speaking to people who are hard pushed to describe what they are feeling at that moment. Who can’t put a title to what is wrong. Or what is right. The words just don’t appear. Or won’t appear. Yet life has to plod on. After all I have told myself that I must be productive in some way. I’ve even set myself a blogging challenge.

That’s what tends to trip me up every time. Feeling obliged to do what I say I will. Endlessly. Forever. So find a title. Write 300 words. Share it to the world. More pressure on a chaotic day. A day when my creativity has disappeared. Run away. Is sending me a postcard from Outer Space. You can see I can talk myself into a crisis by what I say to myself. Yet I step back for a moment and acknowledge that I feel pressured. Or out of focus. Even that I’m in a creative crisis and have way too much to say to pick only one topic. The wonderful thing is I now know what I feel. I know what I want to say. It’s possible to relax and allow myself the chaos inside. With that the creative crisis has passed. And here it is. My blog!

Day 483 of my blogging challenge.

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