A thought has been in my mind all day. Go forward with love not need. I’ve been doing a bit of thinking about my authentic self. How do I live a life where I am being true to myself?
I have a lot of support from my Guides. For a long time they have been helping me understand more about living a spiritual life. Each of the choices I make, the actions I take, have consequences. Payback comes in this life and, I believe, in my future lives. I’ve written before about what you give out you get back. But sometimes it can be difficult to know which way to go. I want to do the ‘right’ thing but how will I know that it is? Especially when other people may not agree with my definition of what is right. As I know I can over think things I also know there is potential for me to get very stuck about taking action.
When I sense an issue may have the potential to get me bogged down I go straight to my Guides. Not for them to tell me what to do. I have free will and my life has to be lived by me. But to help me work it out as best I can before I get too stuck. There are some big challenges facing all of us at the moment. How do I respond to the violence and aggression that is surfacing right now? What do I do about my part in that energy? Am I contributing fear or love? What is my authentic self feeling, thinking and doing? Because if I say I am a person of peace and love is that what every bit of me is showing and doing? Of course it means stepping back from myself and taking a long hard look into me.
To go behind my mask, to see the true me, makes me vulnerable. I am opening myself up to judge myself if I’m not careful.
Yet I do want to acknowledge the bits of me that play into my fear and hatred. I know we all have those bits. Even if we try to hide them from ourselves. Looking at the ways in which I can be mean, nasty, judgemental of others, cruel, harsh or aggressive help me to choose if I actually want to give out that energy. That is a powerful way of helping me to step back from the shadow side that all of us have. Because the shadow side is driven by need. The need to put others down. A need to hide my own insecurity by targeting others. Even the need to hurt others because I am hurting. And definitely the need to make others fearful so I have some company in my own fear.
How do I go forward if I am driven by these need. The simple answer is that I don’t. I wallow. I drown in hatred and fear. It festers within me and my world becomes a steady progression of ‘wrong’ choices. Choices that take me where I really don’t want to go. But put me in the fear nevertheless. I understand why my Guides have been telling me all day to go forward with love not need. I have to love myself enough not to choose the shadow side options. It’s important for me to see every human being as valuable, unique, special so that I work from a loving place. And it’s vital that I resist the need that my shadow side tries to drive me along with.
If I go forward recognising that I have everything I require to live a happy and full life then that is what I will have. It’s a self fulfilling prophecy whichever way I do it. And I prefer love to fear any day of the week.
Day 501 of my blogging challenge