The rain came today. A relief from all of the hot weather. I stayed indoors thinking about my life. And realising that I am contented. I enjoy who I am and what I have. My life is far less turbulent than it once was.

Age brings perspective of course. I have got to that point in my life when my ambitions are much less of a driver in what I do. That’s not because I have no more ambitions. It’s because I have changed the way I view what makes me happy. Instead of looking for material world rewards I now focus on being contented. Happy with my lot. A ‘lot’ that includes so much that I really have very little left to ask for. I still have dreams. But these are grounded in being of service to others. My own needs and wants are being met through that service. It is something that I would have thought unlikely even ten years ago.

My life went onto a new track as I connected with my Guides and the teachers they put in front of me. I’m not quite sure when I made the actual choice to work and be of service. But once that choice was made it altered my world view out of all recognition. I found myself on a journey towards becoming contented. I know I was unsure about what that meant. Or how I could do it. Yet I also understood that I wanted to be happy for as many moments in my life as I could. Not happy all the time. I feel that is something that comes after the long process of letting go of fear. But happy as much as I could be at any point in my life.

I’m contented that I will still have those fear moments. I can use them to remind myself that life is uncertain, So that I can enjoy every happy moment I get. And put my energy into continuing to be of service. To myself and others. And, most especially, to the Guides and Inspirers who continue to help me create happiness in my life.

Day 967 of my blogging challenge