I write very day about the things that occur to me as i experience living an intuitive life. Learning about my intuitive psychic senses came as a shock. I thought only certain people had psychic ability. The I learned that everyone does. I wanted to help people understand how you can live a life with Energy Beings all around yet stay grounded in a normal, everyday existence. I love the help I receive from these non-physical beings just as much as the help i get from my family and friends. I hope you enjoy my blog and that I can pass on the guidance to you.
Completed! It still hasn’t sunk in that this is the end of an amazing journey. My last daily blog is under way. And I’m stuck for words. Really stuck!
So much has come out of this daily task. Dreams completed. Thousands of words that I never imagined I could write. Love and support from great people. And my own deeper understanding of what it means to live an intuitive life. Searching out my authentic self and giving her a voice. Understanding that I can be Marmite. Stripping away the masks. Working as part of a loving, supportive team with my Guides. The process of developing intuitive abilities and mediumship there to inform anyone who wants to dive into the posts. So many gains. Especially in showing me that I can do anything I set my mind to. Task completed and space for a new one to be disciplined and organised about.
A chance to fall in love with a whole new way of working for the Energy Beings. So now that it’s completed I have to be able to let my blogs go. There is a sadness in waving them goodbye. And a relief too. I’ve stuck at this much longer that I ever expected. My Spirit is itching for a new direction, new passion, new inspiration. My writing has to go on a new journey. So there is also excitement. I’ve looked back at my first tentative steps into this challenge and recognise that will be how I start the next one. I know I will be able to use the things I’ve learned about myself to keep me going. And I also have the evidence from this work that I can get to where I need to be.
If I have helped, I’m glad. If I have explained, I’m delighted. And if I have encouraged you to open to your own intuitive abilities then I am overjoyed. Because that has been a key part of my writing. Finally, what have you wanted to achieve? Have you completed your challenge? In fact, are you ready for the next intuitive leap in your life? Enjoy your journey. I’m sure I will enjoy mine.
Percolating through my tired brain today was the word achievements. The last wafts of Mercury turning from retrograde have created lethargy and exhaustion for me since Sunday. So a conversation yesterday stuck in my head until I could give it some room today.
I guess I also wanted to reflect on one of my biggest achievements. Spending nearly three years writing a daily blog has taken a lot of stamina. Only two more days after this one and the challenge will be completed. At the same time I have launched Letters From The Light Side and set up a subscription Newsletter for my predictions about the energy on it’s way in to us. Not to forget my first book! Plenty to consider. Perhaps there are many more achievements that have slipped by without me actually noticing. Or giving myself credit for. Women are trained to be less vocal about what they achieve and often believe saying anything is boasting. But when I consider the goal I initially set myself there is a lot to talk about.
In my very early days, when I had just started giving messages from the Spirit people, I asked my Guides to help me in a specific goal. I asked that one person could be affected so much by the message I passed on that it would change their life. They would open up to the possibility that there was life after death. That’s what I wanted to read in my Akashic record about this life. The name of one person. Today I thought about the thousands of messages I have given. And the students who I have been fortunate enough to teach. Of all the words I’ve said and written. And the positive feedback I have received. I have my fingers crossed that there will be more than one name in my book when I get to read it. I also thought that it might be time to set a new goal.
For a wider audience who might benefit from my words. These achievements have happened because I have a strong and loving Guide Team. They have put me in front of wonderful non-physical beings who have communicate through me. They have woven a wonderful tapestry of experiences for me to be able to reach my goals. Now there are new beginnings looming. I’m nervously excited but determined to achieve as much as I possibly can. Isn’t that what life is all about?
Questioning has been a big part of my spiritual journey. Something that I have written about before in a couple of my blogs. Yet as I come to the end of my challenge I realise that asking questions has also been a key part of my whole life.
I had a lovely comment from Angela on yesterday’s blog. She said “How well you seem to understand yourself. It’s refreshing and honest. Reflecting on how we work must be the key to opening ourselves to new adventures and advances. I enjoy very much reading your blogs and insights.” As I wrote my answer it made me think about the all questioning I have done.
Here is what I said: Thank you Angela. I feel a key part of our spiritual development is the realisation that we have to become self-aware and self-reflective. The questions I have posed to myself in my blogs are all in an effort to understand what makes us successfully balance the Spirit Within with the human experiences we all have. It’s not an easy balance by any means. Our perceptions are distorted. This world is energetically demanding. And yet we can find hope and altruism all around us if we look. Especially if we take that new journey and connect with the non-physical beings who want to help and sustain us. I would encourage anyone who wants to develop their intuitive abilities to write, journal, diary. It’s very cathartic and enlightening.
I know that writing has been a big part of my life too. Daily journals and diaries, notebooks collected over years, scraps of paper with notes, quotes and jottings. Questioning myself, the world and the unknown. What I can see now is the gradual emergence of the Spirit Within. The unconditionally loving part that nudges me along the path to knowing myself more completely. A compassionate voice encouraging me to step through my fears and move forward being the best I can be. It’s there. Hidden in all of the words, thoughts and feelings. Each question another step in listening to and learning about myself.
Questioning is the way to evolution and enlightenment. My Guides say they always prefer goats rather than sheep. I haven’t followed blindly. I’ve been hard work a lot of the time. Yet I also know that I serve through what I do from the best possible of motive. I serve because it’s what I choose to do. Have you started asking questions yet? If so, also remember to write. The answers you get might surprise you.
Every now and again I find I’m vacant. My intuitive mind is blank. That doesn’t matter much when I’m relaxing and away from work. But not necessarily helpful when I’m trying to do a reading. Or a live broadcast.
It doesn’t happen very often. But I know it’s a matter of trust. When my intuitive mind goes vacant, when I’m empty of anything to say, I have to pay attention to the energy that is in and around me. Connecting to the Energy Beings relies on having positive energy feeds. If the energy is too ‘heavy’ or I am loaded down with issues there is likely to be a blank in my mind when I want to communicate. That’s why I have learned to explain what is happening. And to stop trying to connect until I am in a better energy. It may also be that my energy is too wobbly. That I am struggling to hold the flow well enough. Again I have to recognise why. And step back if necessary.
A vacant mind can be useful too. There is space for my Guides to drop new ideas in front of me. Sometimes that is what it’s about. My Guides want me to work on whatever is next. So they clear my mind of any connections. And work with me directly about me. Again it’s about trust. When my mind goes blank I recognise that the conversation might actually be going out in the very back of my brain. Out of my sight and hearing. So that what will eventually emerge will not be filtered out by my Ego mind way too soon. Actually I love the way the inspirations emerge fully formed. All possible arguments sorted and resolved. With no questions left to ask. So that I can get on with doing what is the best fir for my Spirit blueprint.
For the past few days I have been letting go of my blogging challenge. It’s nearly over. Yet there is still a vacant spot about what comes next. A blank. I’m trusting that the next new thing will emerge when it’s needed. I’m sure the Guides have got it covered!
I’ve been reading a good book for the last twenty four hours. One that gripped and drew me in. Because a central theme was about rewriting the life experiences of the main character. And it struck a chord with me.
Rewriting my blogs is a theme my Guides keep bringing me. Not necessarily to make big changes. But to allow me to expand on points I might have made long ago. And now have a different insight into. Because my story has changed. It’s gone from a search for meaning into meaning doesn’t matter. On the way I have shed a lot of expectations that I had about myself. Which has allowed me to set free the authentic me. Although that ‘me’ is still in the process of emerging. So rewriting myself is a process that may continue for a whole lot longer. Especially since some of the experiences I have had in the last fifteen years have really challenged my understanding of what it ‘real’.
I feel that we forget about that. The fact that experiences alter our perspective. Our view on life. When I look back to my past experiences I realise that my view of their meaning was limited by my values at that time. All of the social conditioning that I soaked up over my lifetime. In revisiting and rewriting what has happened to me I can see messages, inspirations and options I never saw at the time. This makes me feel incredibly positive. So much so that I can set aside the need to feel as if I have to fear everything. Taking a different view of events has let me see where the love actually surrounded me. Especially at those times when I felt the most unloved.
If you get a chance to sit and write about yourself try rewriting one of you past experiences. Write it from the point of view of a detached observer. Offer yourself the wisdom the events contained. Show yourself where the love was always there,. Underneath the surface keeping you afloat. Not necessarily from others. But always from your own Spirit Within. Discover who you have always been.
The weather has been blustery today. Down at the beach the water was wild. Waves tumbled over each other to crash against the rocks. The sea mirrored the energy flowing around me. Mercury wildness at it’s most tricky.
I love to walk in wild weather. Letting the wind and the rain blast away anything that I have collected but really don’t need. So I felt drawn to the water, to the waves, this afternoon. To help me dump all the emotions that this pass of Mercury retrograde had dredged up. Dealing with unexpected memories, old feelings and tangled knots of my past. Things I know I can’t change now. Choices that are long gone. Reminding myself that I am a different person now. Hopefully having learned from my mistakes. And willing to live my life in a different way.
One of the challenges this time has been to find compassion for myself. To recognise that we all act based on partial information. The bigger picture only becomes clear at a later date. On the beach the tide flows in and out in an endless cycle. Some days the waves are calm. Then there are the days when the waves are full of restless power. Washing and tumbling along the beach. Stirring up the shells and seaweed. Making changes to the landscape. Yet the beach and the waves remain much the same as they have always been. I know that turbulent feelings rise in me in waves. Though underneath I am the same Spirit. The being who knows and radiates unconditional love.
However wild my emotions, whatever actions I take, there is an eternal cycle behind all of this. I know that wild energy will help me to resolve the ups and downs of that cycle. That though brings me a great deal of peace. Whoever and whatever I am in the future the wildness will always remind me that change is inevitable.
When I opened my mobile phone this evening I found a tiny ladybird sitting in the fold. I have no idea where she flew in from but I’m looking forward to the flow of abundance she represents.
I was in my car when I opened the phone. And found myself laughing in delight at this tiny insect. Animals always have a message for me because they come from my Guides to remind me of all sorts of spiritual things. The ladybird was in an impossible place. There is no way for her to have got to where she was. Today I had been thinking much the same thing. How did I get to be where I am now? I have a life I love with the people I love all around me. My work fills me with joy. And the ups and downs of life wash over me without disturbing my inner peace. I feel that I have already been so lucky. But I have no idea how I got to this point.
I am delighted to accept anything else that is meant to come my way. Especially getting my bigger dreams fulfilled. I know that if I let what is right come to me I will end up like today, in a place it might have seemed impossible to get to. That’s why I’m dreaming bigger than ever. As well as letting go of old dreams that never would have fitted me. My Guides encourage me to look at my life as a an upward spiral. And to know that some dreams don’t happen because I am no longer the person who would fit that dream. That’s as important as dreaming. Understanding that what I require or desire will change over time too. In that way I can accept and be grateful for any glimmer of luck that falls on me. And ask for it to be boosted.
The lovely ladybird was reminding me to keep asking for more abundance. There is an endless supply of anything if only I can remove my limiting views. I watched the ladybird fly out of the car with the same delight. Because I have already asked for more. And she has flown away to make sure it’s delivered to me. What animals have been in your life today? And what do your Guides want you to pay attention to?
I’ve been sitting in the breeze today. A good way to recognise and clear away the cobweb connections that have grown dusty through lack of use. Reflecting on what has served me and what no longer needs to be in my life.
That cobweb feeling, when your face or perhaps an arm feels like it’s tingling because it’s been touched, is one of the first signs I really recognised as contact from my Guides. Often I would think I had loose hairs on my face because the sensation was so strong. When I started to pay attention to it I began to recognise a pattern. The first steps in communication rather than a random feeling. It’s been a really long time since they had to work with me that way. Now my claresentience picks up all sorts of complicated sensations. And cobwebs have taken a back seat. Thinking about the early days I also remembered all of the different webs of connection I had. I was so keen to find out as much as I could that I was here, there and everywhere.
It wasn’t until I stopped looking that I actually found who I got the best connections with. The early cobweb connections were replaced by the next set. And then the next set. I realised that holding on to one group made me gather dust. To progress in my development I had to be ready for the next set of new connections. That was a hard lesson because I felt like I had only just settled when I was off moving again. Yet my Guides stuck with me. Encouraging me to clean out the clutter each time I moved forward. Taking a good look at me to see what Inwas still clinging to. Dusting myself off every time I had to let a mask go. Doing my best to find my authentic self. Because that way I could make the best energy connections of all.
As the wind tumbled over and around me I decided to let go of any dusty bits that were still left. I asked the wind to take each cobweb away. Letting it float free from me. Preparing me to begin another journey.
I sat down to write this blog completely empty of inspiration. Feeling like I was in a flat curve. The kind of turn that creeps up on you unexpectedly. And then you realise the road is really turning upwards. So you have to steer carefully.
Mercury retrograde often feels like a flat curve to me. Because everything levels out. I feel like I’m at a halt. Or worse, sliding backwards. And I have no idea how I’m going to get moving forward again. It’s been one of those days. Listening to conversations all around me that echo old stuff. Watching people wander around unaware that they are throwing off angry, sad or fearful energy. Everyone stuck in their little world of negativity. That included me too for a short while. Having feelings is a human heritage. But sometimes I wish it was all love and light. When I also know that that is an unrealistic expectation. And the reality of the energy on the Earth makes me feel flat.
It’s at these points, when a bend in the road is coming up, that I have to jump in and take responsibility for my own energy. I am clearing a lot of the stuff that has held me back in the past. Waiting for the road to take me upwards. And sucked into an illusion that it isn’t. No wonder my past lives are haunting me too. Yet the road is curving around the next bend. Although I can’t see what is coming up after I turn the corner I know that there are opportunities for a different life experience. So long as I pay attention to how I am driving myself forward. As long as I keep the positive energy flowing. And my heart committed to exploring the next adventure. This may be a flat curve. I might be unable to work out what’s coming up. But I’m in charge of how it makes me feel. And what options I have.
Often it’s at this point that I recognise I’m moving up to a higher level of experiencing. All of my experiences have brought me to this flat bend so I can navigate it safely. And have a better future up ahead of me. When you get to the curve, whichever way it bends, rebalance and drive on. Drive onwards and upwards. A new beginning is waiting for you.
There has been a lot of music today. Songs that have meaning for me. All the tunes that inspire and uplift me. And all of them containing messages for me from my Guides.
I love using my clairaudience. Very often when I am giving people messages their loved ones start to sing songs that have significance for the person here. Sometimes if I have a group of Spirit people they will break into a chorus of something that connects them back to the people left behind here. It’s a delight to pass these tunes on. Although when the get me singing a song the person having a reading might not quite appreciate my unique style of singing. I’m a bit like Pierce Brosnan in Mama Mia! But willing to give it a go. It’s just the voices in my head sound so much better at it than me. However, I also love getting my own messages through music. With or without the clairaudience. Sometimes my Guides pack my day with significant songs. Like today.
I woke from a rather strange dream of having a lion biting my head and another biting my feet. It left me wondering. And feeling a little bit flat. Because I couldn’t quite grasp what the point of the dream was meant to be. Every explanation I thought of seemed a bit wide fo the mark. I felt I was in need of a boost. Which came along very quickly this afternoon with several songs I listened to whilst at a cafe with my friend. All of the favourites my Guides use to reassure me. The ones that get me laughing at my illusions. Toe tapping numbers that make me feel life is ok. And heart warming words to lift my Spirit. I even ended the day watching Mama Mia! Here We Go Again. There is certainly a message for me in the title alone.
If you are having an off day try to notice the songs that pop into your head. Or that are playing somewhere around you. Like me you might find that your Guides are letting you know that, underneath it all, everything is going to be ok.