The weather has been blustery today. Down at the beach the water was wild. Waves tumbled over each other to crash against the rocks. The sea mirrored the energy flowing around me. Mercury wildness at it’s most tricky.
I love to walk in wild weather. Letting the wind and the rain blast away anything that I have collected but really don’t need. So I felt drawn to the water, to the waves, this afternoon. To help me dump all the emotions that this pass of Mercury retrograde had dredged up. Dealing with unexpected memories, old feelings and tangled knots of my past. Things I know I can’t change now. Choices that are long gone. Reminding myself that I am a different person now. Hopefully having learned from my mistakes. And willing to live my life in a different way.
One of the challenges this time has been to find compassion for myself. To recognise that we all act based on partial information. The bigger picture only becomes clear at a later date. On the beach the tide flows in and out in an endless cycle. Some days the waves are calm. Then there are the days when the waves are full of restless power. Washing and tumbling along the beach. Stirring up the shells and seaweed. Making changes to the landscape. Yet the beach and the waves remain much the same as they have always been. I know that turbulent feelings rise in me in waves. Though underneath I am the same Spirit. The being who knows and radiates unconditional love.
However wild my emotions, whatever actions I take, there is an eternal cycle behind all of this. I know that wild energy will help me to resolve the ups and downs of that cycle. That though brings me a great deal of peace. Whoever and whatever I am in the future the wildness will always remind me that change is inevitable.
Day 995 of my blogging challenge
Eeek! It was a wild storm last night. So I had to wait for the weather to calm down before I started my journey home. And driving steady means I’m slightly late with my blog again. So now my fingers are galloping along to get a post live. Because I don’t like to break promises I’ve made to myself.
I had plenty of eeek! moments last night as the wind direction changed and our dwelling was battered from one side then another. A couple of times it felt like the heavy rain and driving wind would bring the windows in. Of course it didn’t. I was really very safe. But sometimes living with a risk gets my adrenalin pumping a bit too much. So I watched for the faint glimmers of the full moon. I knew she would still be shining a calm Light up there somewhere. In my shamanic practice I enjoy using the Moon energy for journeying. Stepping out of my physical self and exploring further afield.
Just like I’ve been doing for the past couple of weeks. Leaving my usual home behind and exploring a second place that already feels like home. I can do that thanks to the kindness of good friends. And in the same way my shamanic journeying is assisted by the kindness my Energy Being friends. Tonight they also made sure I got back home from all aspects of my journeying. There were no eeek! moments on the motorway. In fact I am sure our car was powered by dragon energy. She certainly roared back at the winds trying to blow her off course. As the miles ticked off and I got closer to home I could feel the pull of familiar energy. Even my house was calling me back home.
And now I am. Settling into my sofa, putting my feet up. No more eeek! experiences for today. The journey is over, as is the wild weather and calmness is flowing all around. Was it a good journey? Certainly. It brought me back to right here and right now. Did I learn anything? Certainly. Every experience is a lesson in who I am and what is important to me. So now it’s time to rest before the next journey, lol.
Day 769 of my blogging challenge