Awakening Flu: Holding The Energy Is Demanding

awakeningI’ve known for a long time that 2018 was going to be a big year. All sorts of signs were there after the shift in 2012. Then we began the process of awakening. And I know that this year is the one where we get into alignment with our spiritual mission.

So when I felt the Divine Feminine energy building up at the first New Moon of the year I was really excited. I was looking forward to many people sharing the awakening of this powerful creative force. But wow! That energy has been a real shaker. I’ve been hit with waves of intense energy, felt Mother Earth realign her position and struggled with the flu like symptoms that usually accompany an energy upgrade. And I’m very used to the upgrades. I’ve been getting software updates about every four to six weeks for the past two years. Each upgrade bouncing me into higher energy. And, of course, into expansions of my spiritual work.

Yet for the past two and a half weeks I’ve been asking, demanding and raging for the upgrades to end. I’m exhausted. And I know so many other intuitively sensitive people, Lightworkers, channellers, healers, shamans etc who are also suffering from energy flu. Like me they are struggling to process all of the energy changes to their aura. So our physical bodies are taking a big hit too. It starts like any cold with a nose like a dripping tap. Then a sore throat, chesty cough and ends up with gastric upsets. I know we are actually clearing third eye – our ability to see what is real as opposed to what we think is real. Then throat chakra – so we can speak our truth. It moves on to heart chakra – so that we open our hearts to unconditional love. And ends with sacral chakra – to help us know our authentic self.

But this awakening flu doesn’t change our aura just the once. No. It goes back to the beginning and starts all over again. I’m on my third go round with it.

And I’m heartily sick of feeling exhausted, off line, disconnected and wiped. Is it too much really? To big a shift and too abrupt an awakening? There have been moments when I would have said yes. Yet I also know I have been asleep for most of my life. It’s a long time since my intuitive psychic senses really tuned in to the energy of our world. And I shut them down fast when I eventually realised how murky the energy was. So now I have to open them up again. And I understand that this will be hard. That’s why I’m getting help. The downloads of energy and software are the help I need.

But like any stroppy computer going from XP to Windows 10 there are bugs to be fixed. My operating system is a bit cranky. Sometimes I slow it all down by not letting it happen. To integrate these downloads it’s important for me to get as much rest as possible. And let my physical body sleep whilst the new software is installed. No wonder I’ve spent several days in bed just recently. And only got out of bed very reluctantly. My Spirit is awakening but the rest of me wants to shut down. What a paradox. However, I have committed to doing whatever I am required to so that my mission will be completed in this lifetime. No more reincarnations for a while.

So if I seem a little distracted, absent or muddled it’s because I am still waking up. Of course, you might also be in the same boat. The whole of humanity is being dragged out of bed by that awakening alarm. You just might not know exactly why you are having these flu like bouts but perhaps it’s time to think about your reaction to the upgrades. And make sure you rest enough to get them installed.

Day 832 of my blogging challenge

Headaches & Heartwakes

imageOver the last few days I’ve been a bit headachy. As I’m not normally prone to headaches I’ve been paying attention to the energy going around a bit more. I notices amongst my psychic friends and my Facebook feed that people were reporting headaches & migranes from Wednesday onwards. We all seemed to be feeling the pain together. Sitting quietly today, after another friend was laid low with a mega headache, I asked my Guides to help me become aware of what was underneath all of these reports.

They immediately drew my attention to the wristband I’d picked up on Thursday & started wearing. It says Life Loves You. Thinking about that I remembered the recent period of Mercury retrograde. That was all about old, stuck energy that I thought I’d sorted out a long time ago but bouncing back up to show me I hadn’t really tied up the loose ends. The issues that surfaced really did need to be finished and let go. So even though I thought I had let go I discovered that old feelings were still taking up aura space. Once again I found myself releasing emotional energy.

Going through this somewhat ‘low’ period of letting go one of the things I did notice about myself was that I was fed up of having these feelings lingering around. Stuck feelings only really disappear when we are ready to let them go completely. As the retrograde period moved on I also noticed that my reaction to the issues was getting less and less. This week I wrote a blog about niggles. Some of the niggles were the last remaining energy from Mercury retrograde. It feels good to find that much of the stuck energy has disappeared and to feel more focused about my way forward. So why the headaches?

Reflecting some more I remembered the connection third eye chakra has with clairvoyance. In other words our intuitive way of sensing or ‘seeing’ the energy flow and translating it so we understand on a deeper level where we are headed. When third eye chakra gets blocked or dirty this can often cause headaches. Until we have worked to clear the chakra so that energy flows properly again we can suffer physical and psychic headaches. Rebalancing or healing third eye will remove stuck energy allowing us to ‘see’ where we are going much more clearly. It was at this point that I realised I have been drifting off from my big vision. I have had a dream for many years but in the more recent past I’d forgotten what the ultimate goal was. Pondering my headache, trying to up understand what I needed to see more clearly I started to listen to my heart instead of my head.

There in my heart, waiting for me to pay attention, was my dream. It flew up out of the black hole I’d let it drift into. Bouncing round my brain was my life’s purpose. Letting my heart awaken me to the flow of energy bringing me my dream was breathtaking. Law of Attraction only works when our desire (the wish in our heart) is at one with our belief (the intent in our mind). Until we are wholeheartedly and wholemindedly at one with the requests we make of the Universal energy we are stuck. When the heart and head do battle they often cancel the request energy out completely. The energy of Mercury retrograde and the aftermath of the releasing of energy have created an ideal storm to shake us up. No wonder we have headaches. We are being prompted to find peace in our heart/head battle so the Life can give us everything we wish for.

So I’m embracing the feeling that Life Loves Me. I’m reminding myself of it. I’m open to receive all of the wonderful abundance that is on it’s way in. We have a simple choice. Be ruled by the head, staying risk free and miserable. Or throw our hearts over the windmill and see where our dreams take us. I’m off to look for the next big adventure!

Day 201 of my blogging challenge.