Progress Through Focus and Determination

progress in loveThis Mercury retrograde period has been really good for looking at my progress. Especially in a year where there has been so much change energy. It’s also been something I have been lucky enough to encourage my mentees to do.

One of the things I love best about mentoring is that I get to share someone else’s journey through a period of self-development and change. I can monitor the progress they are making. It gives me a chance to remind the person how much they have actually achieved. Because when we are making changes it can sometimes be hard to see how we are different. And what has been achieved. Today I’ve had the chance to discuss with several mentees how brilliantly they are doing. I have been able to point out their determination to make their lives different. And the focus they have brought to getting nearer their goals.

I feel that all too often we ignore our progress. Certainly I do. I drift into looking at what hasn’t changed yet, instead of what has.  But I am learning to recognise what I have done differently, where I have grown and how positive I can feel about more changes. Because I want to keep going towards my dreams. Even if I have to keep changing what, when, where and how I do the things in my life. So sharing the successes of my mentees gives both of us a renewed sense of more progress to come. I’m really excited that anyone who sticks at it, understands the need for self-discipline and takes responsibility for themselves can achieve everything they want. And I am fortunate to be working with people who have decided to do just that.

Progress is what brings me back to the service I do for the Spirit World. They are already in a place where progress is a natural party of their community approach. Each one aligned to the results of what they doing being a part of the greater good. I know that my mentees will contribute so much more than they imagine at this present moment. Our community down here will benefit so much. Here’s a big shout out to everyone determined and focused on growing and contributing their best!

Day 749 of my blogging challenge

Wanting To Let Go But Being Held Back

WantingI’ve been wanting to finalise my connection with the Centre for several days. Yet it seems that there is still stuff to shift. Not least some big items of furniture.

Running up and down the stairs for the third day in a row I was very much wanting to see the back of all this removals stuff. Yet I seeme to keep finding more things to donate, store or bring home. So moving out of my space has been a lot slower than I planned. I was thinking about that today when the men came to collect the settles and chairs. Unfortunately they were wanting to leave them behind. Mainly, I suspect, because they had already filled their van with collections from other people. I know I was first to be booked in. And I also know that I listed exactly what had to be collected. But I ended up last.

Wanting isn’t the same as getting. As I considered why the Universe was running in the opposite direction to my plans I thought about lovely Mercury. The influence of this current retrograde is to get us to reflect. To think again. Not about closing the Centre. But about my process of letting go. I know that I often imagine things will go the way I want them to. So when they don’t I can get very stressed. Today was a chance to see if I could go with the flow. For whatever reason the furniture has to stay where it is right now. Perhaps the people who need it aren’t quite ready to find it. Or a different group or charity will benefit more. I’m sure all will be revealed if I wait for it to be.

Wanting to let go is a process. It can only happen when everything is in alignment. So I am holding the energy until it’s the time for me to release the space back into the world. Everything will happen in perfect timing.

Day 743 of my blogging challenge

November Leads To More Energy Shifts

NovemberWhere did November go? I feel like I’ve got through it at breakneck speed. Trying to reflect on the month I found myself a bit mystified this morning. What had happened to me each day?

Of course I have a general idea of what happened. November was the month of packing up and closing my Centre. That seemed to take up most of my time. But I also wanted to know what had happened around the edges of that big theme. And it took me a while to remember. I suppose I was so occupied with doing that noticing what I was doing escaped me. Yet I know that I got my first Amazon payment for sales of my book. And did six church demonstrations of mediumship. With five Letters From The Light Side live videos and four sessions of my Intuitive Connections group. Plus two of my own Open Circles. It almost sounds like a certain Christmas song!

Still, November feels like a blur. A fast and furious way for me to release energy and lighten my load. Because, strangely, it was also a relatively quiet month for me work wise. I know I have done far more work in other months. Somehow I got the time to let go of a lot of things, thoughts and feelings that needed to shift. Perhaps because I was distracted with one big piece of letting go. So the other stuff drifted away easily. I find that really reassuring and lovely to acknowledge. Letting go happened best for me when I am in the right head space. And I certainly was in that place last month. Now I’m left with a few loose ends, some reorganising to do at home and a lot less to think about. November has given me space.

Space for my writing, for a rest from a rollercoaster of a year and for new ideas to slip into a mind that feels lighter and more energised. I’m delighted as I know the next energy wave is already on it’s way in. It hits tomorrow boosted by the Gemini full moon and Mercury reflections. Thank you November for my opportunity to dream big. And then dream bigger!

Day 741 of my blogging challenge

Hang Onto Your Hat: Communication Interruptions

Hang onto your hatYes, hang onto your hat! Mercury is influencing communication again. And it might seem like everything fails to connect. It’s time to find another way to say what you mean.

I did some readings today as well as a church service. Although my connections were clear and accurate I felt that there was a little interference on the line, so to speak. I had a sense of making my links through a little bit of white noise. On my way home I wondered about the slight dip in the energy. On the radio I got one of the songs my Guides use to answer my questions. And of course, what they were saying was expect a little interference now Mercury has gone into a retrograde aspect. A point I will hang onto over the next few weeks. Because, just like my Spirit connections, my broadband seems to have died too. Exactly when I want to get my blog on line and share it.

So I’m using Plan B. I’m on a different divice that has it’s own internet connection. Where there’s a will there’s a way! I’m going to hang on to that saying too. Who knows what else will get stalled while I have to take some time to reflect on my year. Especially since I have quite a few events going on to publicise my book and get more people interested in finding out about my journey. So not only a Plan B then. But also Plans C, D, E and right through to Z. I want to hang onto my calmness this month. It’s challenging enough anyway with the stress energy that is freely available everywhere. Not having my communications running smoothly could seriously cramp my style. However, I do know that every Mercury retrograde period bring me clarity. And that is something I’m grateful for.

My best suggestion, to me as well as you, is to hang on in there. Take the delays, misunderstandings and communication breakdowns as signals to pause for a while. Be inventive too. Look at the way you can achieve what you require by another means. And recognise how flexible you can be when it really matters. What you need to say will eventually get through to the right place or person.

Day 740 of my blogging challenge

Reflection, Retrograde, Refocus And Renew

reflectionIt’s time for reflection! Mercury is going retrograde again until 22nd December so expect any unfinished business to pop up again and again until you finish it.

There are times when I groan about Mercury going retrograde. I feel that communication is hard enough without adding in that subtle influence that makes me look again at everything I’ve said and done since the last time Mercury turned the other way round. The planet appears to be going backwards in the sky and that pushes me into going backwards too. Not something I want when I’m trying to stay focused on moving forward. And spending time in reflection can feel like a wasteful way to spend my time. After all I know better than I did then. So why do I have to look at everything again. Oh that wonderful Ego Mind. Keen to keep me in ignorance of the things within me that are actually holding me back.

After all, on reflection, I might decide that it’s ok to step further out of my comfort zone when I realise I’m not dreaming big enough. Something that terrifies my Ego Mind. It doesn’t want to loose control of keeping me safe. So perhaps I can welcome Mercury’s trip backwards. Because it can help me to understand where I am limiting myself. After all, I might find that I want to refocus on where I’m headed. Or how I’m going to travel my path. I might even decide to leap much further and more boldly ahead that before. So I appreciate the benefit of the next few weeks. I will do my best to work through the issues that arise. Knowing that I am being given an opportunity to start afresh. And with renewed energy and commitment.

Reflection is a positive asset. I know that when I pay attention to the unfinished, loose ends of my life I will learn something new once again. During this retrograde period I am going to be kind to myself, allowing the thinking through, so that I can renew my commitment to being the best possible me I can be. Is it time to find a quiet place and engage in your own reflection?

Day 738 of my blogging challenge

Verbal Verity: Speaking My Truth From Now On

Verbal verityI’m sitting in the evening sunshine thinking about yesterday. My verbal expressions as a part of the end of Mercury retrograde. And about speaking my truth.

I’m running a challenge. A group of people finding their writing voice. And yesterday I was the only one who wrote about the topic I had suggested. Until it went past midnight. Then a couple of other people managed to express themselves in their writing. It made me stop and think about my voice. About how to make things verbal. Give voice to my inner world. Become vocal. Making sounds, speech, that conveys what I think or feel. And how authentic that sound is. How do I say things so that they have a meaning for those who choose to listen? Can I get my own voice out there in the first place? I know it’s an important thing for me to work out. Because I do my weekly Letters From The Light Side broadcast with words inspired by Energy Beings.

And I have to be clear where my voice ends and their voices start. I’m being verbal on the behalf of what the Energy Beings believe. Yet I also have my own set of values and beliefs. It’s important to me not to dilute their voices by distorting the verity of what they give me. My persona thoughts and feelings have to be on one side so I can speak their truth. But I also need to be able to speak my truth when it’s appropriate. Yesterday was a reminder to make sure I have removed anything that might block my voice. Because I am aware that our verbal exchanges are conditional. I know we follow rules of communication that have been set for us by the society and culture we are born into.

What are the rules? How do the words turn into a spoken meaning? And who sets the standards of truthfulness?

A discussion on Thursday reminded me of that. Different languages have different rules. That are not always easy to work out. I’m staying near a place called Kirkcudbright but it’s pronounced KirCOObree. Anyone studying English would wonder why. But it’s in Scotland where lots of words are pronounced differently. And it’s a sort of test, I suppose, of whether you are paying attention, or interested in saying the place name authentically. That’s only one little part of verbal veracity. What about others? As a woman there are voices I’m not supposed to use in certain circumstances. I’m not supposed to be aggressive, except in defence of my loved ones. My voice is supposed to be soft and nurturing. A hearty laugh belongs to the world of men.

I’m generally expected not to have an opinion on politics, religion or any of the affairs of a mans world. Also to know my place and when I’m supposed to say nothing. In the end, it’s worth acknowledging that there are many constraints on my voice. Not for the purpose of blame. But to understand how much a challenge it might be for me to verbalise what I feel or think. And even more challenging to offer what I feel is my truth. About anything. In fact some days I am amazed that I can speak at all. So what about all this Mercury energy. It’s been an interesting blast because for a long time I have been stripping away the layers of conditioning. I’ve been trying to find my authentic self so I can have an inner conversation.

Now I feel I’ve sounded out and rehearsed my authentic inner Spirit voice. The barriers are gone. So it’s time for me to bring that verbal skill out into the open. To speak for whole myself. As well as to speak in the service of Energy Beings. Are you ready to speak your spiritual truth too?

Day 656 of my blogging challenge 

Mischievious Mercury Wants The Last Laugh

Is it mischievious or mischievous? English words can be tricky to spell and say. No wonder the planet of communication, Mercury, is always taking us forward and then back.

Today was certainly a forward and backward day. The final blast of Mercury’s retrograde energy as we move into it’s forward influence again. Like the way to spell mischievious  (that’s the way I learned to spell it). Apparently that spelling fell out of use some time around 1700 so the popular way to spell the word is mischievous. I wonder if my teachers knew that? Whatever way you spell this tricky word I suspect you might also have found today a bit weird. Especially when communicating. Because it has been a day of standing my ground and speaking my truth. Some practice that I badly needed. It’s part of the shift into authenticity.

That’s the joke Mercury wants me to see. Despite the messing about with my car (after some super work by a brilliant mechanic it’s managed to get another noise when it’s running) I have been able to get to my weekend destination. Later than I expected. But still  where I wanted to be. Though it involved spending my morning in a garage trying to resolve how the noise had developed whilst it was in there. Fortunately I spent a pleasant time with a friend this afternoon while my car was being checked over by a person I trust. What I also had to do was resolve why the car had a noise. So it meant keeping focused. And aware of the trickery that might be involved.

Not all that’s mischievious is pleasant. Sometimes it can be sharp practice. Working out whether it’s a fun joke or double dealing is important. And I need to be able to ask for the truth.

But that’s difficult in some situations. Today I had to step out of a common experience I’ve had many times. Finding a garage to look after my car has always been a challenge. I know I’m not particularly bothered about what is under the bonet of my car but I expect that someone servicing or repairing it should be honest. Unfortunately what I have noticed is that work costs a lot more than it should. All sorts of new problems turn up. And the attitude of the men in the garage has left a lot to be desired. I’m talking about patronising. They assume that I will take what they say as the whole truth. Although I have learned, to my cost, that it isn’t.

In the past I have left and never used that garage again. Unfortunately I’ve left without saying how poor the customer service has been. And without challenging what I’ve been told. Even when I’ve actually known better. Not today though. Mischievious Mercury had me expressing myself better than ever. Telling it the way I saw it. In the end I’m sure the noise in my car will get resolved. Because I’ve been authentic about my feelings. Actually it felt really good to have a voice in a situation I’ve felt dumb about before. As I drove along this evening I was laughing as I sang along to the loud music. Laughing because I couldn’t hear the mysterious new noise anyway. Laughing because my lovely car was motoring better than every.

So I’ll happily give Mercury the last laugh. I’m ready to move forward again in my communications with others. Now I’ve stood my ground and found my ‘don’t mess about’ voice.

Day 655 of my blogging challenge 

Pressure: The Push To Bring In The Dreams

PressureToday has felt hampered by all of the Eclipse and Mercury retrograde energy. Yet underneath I have been feeling a pressure. Something reminding me that dream do happen.

My internet and mobile phone connections continue to play up. Letters I’m waiting for haven’t arrived. I felt like energy was draining out of me. All that stuck stuff I’ve been carrying finally disappearing. But it left me feeling tired. Because it takes energy sometimes to move energy. The final piece of frustration was trying to complete the upload of my book so it could be printed. Nothing was going anywhere. Certainly not the cover art or the file I’d formatted. I noticed I was starting to feel a pressure to get something, anything completed. But it ended up that I didn’t.

Instead I walked away from my desk and took a break. Yesterday was busy and lots happened. Then overnight, as well as dreaming I was in New York, I had some contacts with Energy Beings. They kept moving things around and wanting to channel information. In my barely aware state I let them get on with some of it but after about an hour I told them to come back later. I know they are helping me manifest all of the things I’ve asked for so I’m willing to give them space to work. But there are limits! No wonder today I felt a bit spaced and distracted. As well as low in energy. However, I also feel the excitement of new beginnings. A pressure on me to be ready, get clear minded and able to set off at a moment’s notice. I’ve no idea of when, where or how.

So what about those dreams? Have I built from a solid foundation? Have I asked for everything in the best possible way?

This afternoon, to take the pressure off, I sat down and listed out my requirements and desires. All of the things I want to have in my life. Even those things I don’t know about yet. Yes, I’ve put a sentence to allow me to receive all that is best for me even when I don’t know what it is. I believe in covering everything. Because I know I don’t know everything. My list is as complete as I can make it. I’ve asked my heart what I desire and pretty much left my head out of the debate. There is no time to let my Ego mind throw up lots of objections or distract me. I don’t want to have my abundance derailed by fearful thoughts. It’s important that I stay focused on recieveing all of the good things into my life.

After I had written my list I felt a lot better. The pressure had eased. I know the push that is coming will be really helpful to my life. But I also understand that I will get what I ask for. So picking the right things matters. No wonder that intutive part of me was kicking up a fuss. Working to get me to notice the shift in manifesting time we are all experiencing. Often what has frustrated me is that it seemed so long between asking and receiving. So long that I’d forgotten what I asked for in the first place. Now the things I ask for are popping up almost immediately. Sometimes no sooner thought than visible in my life. That’s fast. And I have to be quick to accept and be grateful for what I have received so that I keep that lovely flow of materialisation going.

Are you feeling the pressure? Do you need to sit down and write your list of dreams? Over the next few weeks there is a great opportunity to reconfigure your life. But you have to be clear about what you require and desire. Then it can be delivered to your doorstep straight away.

Day 638 of my blogging challenge 

Retrograde: Going Over Things Again With Mercury

MercuryI always know when Mercury is going backwards. Whatever I am trying to communicate is fraught with challenges. The last couple of days have been interesting!

I’ve been away for a couple of days to a place where the mobile phone and internet connections can be a bit patchy. Just in time for me to do a live broadcast on social media. Instead I recorded a video. But today I’ve tried to upload it at least three times. All to no avail. Mercury has kept me waiting! Testing out how determined I am to get the message from the Energy Beings out into the world. Well, I’m very determined. So I’ve delayed my blog in case the extra uploading conflicts with uploading the video to YouTube.

I’m not really surprised about this little energy hitch. It was sent to check out if I really wanted to let my voice be heard. Along with working to finalise my book the last few days have had me thinking about the best ways to share what I know about energy and intuition. Being more public on behalf of the Energy Beings does impact on my personal life. So I have to be sure about agreeing to stepping out of my comfort zone before I do so. When Mercury goes forward again I need to be ready to ride that energy wherever it is taking me. It’s a form of re-dedication to serving the spiritual purpose I came here to achieve. Which take many forms but always lead back to giving a voice to the non-physical world that surrounds us.

It’s certainly something to think carefully about in the time when Mercury is retrograde. Especially as Jupiter, the spiritual planet, is about to leave my sign and won’t be back for twelve years. So making the best possible spiritual choice I can has to be tested out. Again and again if necessary. Tonight I have persevered with something that I could easily have given up. I’m ready to move forward. Are you?

Day 634 of my blogging challenge

Restless, Inspired, Creating, Tired

Where did the restless feeling come from? I was tired enough last night to sleep for a week. Yet I couldn’t stop creating in my mind. The incoming energy inspired more and more ideas.

I do get those nights. When the tide of energy flowing around and into the world energises me. It’s as if tiredness is swallowed up by impatience instead. My brain starts throwing out big ideas when my body wants some downtime. Sleep disappears. Instead I have to get up and do something. It was one of those nights last night. In fact I ended up writing a list of all the new possibilities. When I get some refreshing sleep I know I’ll be able to put many of the ideas into practice. Yet there was, underneath it all, a restless feeling.

That ‘itchy feet’ kind of feeling emerged in the middle of the ideas. Is it time to move on to something else I wondered. My mind fidgeted around the edges of the inspirations coming in. Am I feeling like it’s too much of the same old same old I thought. What exactly was I being restless about? My personal life? My working life? Life, the Universe and everything? I also wondered if this was part of why I couldn’t get to sleep. I found myself having a side conversation with myself about my tendency to be impatient. Often I want ‘it’ and I want ‘it’ now.

It, of course, can be anything. It’s all very well reading the leading edge of the energy coming in but it can make you restless for everything to happen all at once.

Now we are clearing the Mercury retrograde energy of course everything will resume going forward. It’s just that I’d like it to go from 0-60 in about 3 seconds, please. And I also know it won’t happen like that. As I sipped a cup of herbal tea I realised that this time the fidgety feeling was about new challenges. It connects to the way I find it hard to let go and move on. If I’m not careful I dress my old ideas up in new clothes and pretend that they are new inspirations. I tell myself I’m seeing them for the first time from this point of view so they must be fresh. I checked the list I’d written down.

Then I crossed off some of the ideas. They were old inspirations trying to pretend they were new. The ego at work wanting to keep me in my comfort zone. Ah! I thought. I’ve been on this spot before. About this time of year too. When I was planning for last year’s new adventures. What I needed to do was sort out the new opportunities from the same old same old. No wonder I was restless. Creating a new future takes positive energy. Theses old ideas would hold me back if I wasn’t careful. Perhaps the tiredness was fighting a battle with the manifesting energy.

That realisation sent me off to bed again. To get some rest by putting away my thoughts for the future.

Using one of my favourite mantras I snuggled down under the covers. Time to let the tiredness in again and release the restless feelings. They had done their job. I was alert to the realisation that I might encourage myself to manifest safety instead of risk. What I create with my intentions might not be the new future. Instead I could possibly make for myself more limitations. As I repeated my mantra I became aware of a very old part of me becoming visible. The part that connects to lack of love.

I know we all experience conditional love whilst we are human. But that old part of me was grieving for the unconditional love I experienced as a Spirit. When we incarnate as a human being we have to leave the pink perfect behind. It’s our experiences here, in the absence of unconditional love, that makes us yearn for that other world. That brings us closer to an understanding of the Divine nature of exsistence. No wonder I am restless. I want to be wrapped in and immersed in that warm energy sea of love. To float in pure, unconditional love along with everyone else. I drifted off to sleep creating a human world where that would be my reality. I hope it manifests here soon ?

Day 420 of my blogging challenge.