It’s been a kind of reviewing day. Not least because I have complete a full year doing my live broadcasts on Facebook. I started Letters From The Light Side with some apprahension. And a feeling that it wouldn’t last more than three weeks. I guess I was lacking in enough faith and belief.
So here I am twelve months later with fifty two videos and a great number of views. More that I ever anticipated in those wobbly days when I was setting out. I’ve been through the loop of wanting to appeal to everybody. Also of wanting everyone to like my channelling. I’ve been stressy with my Guides in case I wasn’t doing it right. Even short with myself for the way I look, speak and dress. Yet I’ve also laughed an awful lot. I’ve felt the presence of so many Energy Beings. Reading the positive feedback and the lovely comments I’ve felt humbled. And reviewing it all I’ve been satisfied that I’ve tried. That I’ve done my best. And that the videos have reached anyone who needed them.
That’s my work for Spirit in a nutshell. Today I was getting rid of old papers. I came across all sorts of memories connected with my journey into mediumship. Reviewing some of the places I’d been, the people I met there and the work I’ve been able to do I knew I had tried my best. Even when it didn’t quite work out as I thought it would. Or when it worked out better than expected. My Guides have never asked me to do anything perfectly. They have always asked me to do my best. Because they have always said my best is good enough. I know they have smiled when my perfectionism has rushed to the surface. And kept on encouraging me.
Reviewing the last twelve months I know that my perfectionist part has shrunk. A lot of my apprehension was about getting the broadcasts wrong in some way. I am very privileged to be able to speak on the behalf of Energy Beings so I really want to get it right. But they have shown me that faith and belief are not the only things that matter. I also have to try. And keep trying. Then I will always be good enough.
It’s February already! Where did January disappear to? Today is the festival of Imbolc and the return of the Spring in some traditions. This weekend I’m journeying with friends to celebrate the end of a period of withdrawal. And to dream my next set of dreams.
It’s also the celebration of the Goddess or Saint, Brigid, a patron of poetry, the hearth, healing and smiths. She represents the many abilities needed of a woman to ensure that there is a happy home and a good harvest at the end of the summer. I love her energy because it also represents the fire and light at the centre of any home. The fire and light that we all have at the centre of our being. I also love journeying into fire energy at this time of year. Letting my inner warmth stir me to dream bigger than before. When I look at the seeds of ideas that are sitting inside me I know I can turn them into the things I desire to have in my life. All I have to do is feed and love them and they will manifest.
So I expect to be doing another kind of journeying too. Letting myself wander into altered states of consciousness so that I can dig down to find the hidden seeds I might not recognise yet. Meditation is one of my ways to do that. Visiting places where I can spend a little time in contemplation, quietly exploring what else I need to plant this year. Sometimes I forget that things take a while to grow. I have a folder I made in 2015 about doing videos to help people. In 2017 that turned into my Letters From The Light Side broadcasts. I’ve been doing them for nearly a year now. That project has brought me new seeds for this year. My journeying with new broadcasts will start soon. I am planting more seeds.
Where ever you are journeying this weekend take a little time to feel the fire rise within you. What seeds are you planting this year? Are there dreams and wishes that have to be sent out in order to manifest for you? Remember your ‘home’ is what you make it. And your fire burns brightly right now.
For the past couple of days I have been working on my newsletters. Each month I send out a personal one which I put together. I also send out a Letters From The Light Side Newsletter the content of which often comes in through automatic writing.
I have always been fascinated by reports of automatic writing. When my own mediumship started to develop writing was one of the ways I found the Spirit people connected with me. If I wrote a question down and then started to write the answer I often felt like the words on the page dropped into my mind and out through my pen without any thought from me. I learned that I was doing inspired writing. By writing a question my Guides could use my clarecognisence and put their point cross through the answer. I was always rather stunned by the insightful answers. I could see that the way they were written wasn’t my style at all. Even the pen style changed someohow.
Eventually I started to work on giving the Guides more freedom to write what they wanted. I began to use my non writing hand, closing my eyes and seeing what emerged on the paper. Eventually the writing became legible and there were clear messages for me. Finally I moved to my keyboard. I wanted to see if the automatic writing could happen when I was typing. Much to my surprise I felt my hands disappear. Yet the typing continued. But to find out what it was about I had to read my screen. I couldn’t even feel the words emerging. I fell in love with automatic writing from then on. And I use it whenever I am sending out guidance.
Automatic writing is a great technique to learn. It’s simple and easy. But you do have to have patience. I know it took me quite a while to give over the control of my fingers to another presence. Because it does feel a bit weird at first not to feel my hands. However, I enjoy the work that flows through from those ‘other’ hands. Sharing positive energy is always good. So is being able to send it out into the world.
I woke up to a misty day. It never really cleared. As the last of the light faded out I was on the beach getting sand in my shoes. Doing a live video broadcast and honouring the Winter Solstice.
On the shortest day it’s been hard to see the light in the sky. The mist hung around, shrouding the mountain top, and keeping the day grey. And it’s been the shortest day anyway. The least number of hours of daylight. A dip into the darkest it ever gets. But that’s very special. Because now my days will slowly fill with more daylight. The pendulum will swing the other way. A new cycle of increasing light has begun. I felt at peace standing by the calm water listening to the waves. The sand wet beneath my feet. Shells crunching as I walked. Birds calling to each other as the little remaining light faded away.
Standing with me was ArchAngel Dareshiel, one of the Earth’s Guardian Angels, who helps all of us to transform our feelings to higher vibrations. I have painted his energy. It came out as waves from the sea. Waves of emotion. Waves of unconditional love. He reminded me that this cycle, this year, was now ended. It is time for me to make a new beginning. Letting myself increase the light within me. So that I can share more light with others. It’s also an opportunity for all of us to become more spiritually aware of the ways that our emotional energy can be used as a way to share more positivity in the world. Unconditional love is a hope, an aspiration, for all of us right now. We aren’t there yet.
Dareshiel encouraged me, as I stood on the sand, to let the old feelings ebb away. To connect myself to the wonder of Mother Earth and to recognise how blessed I am. I am looking forward to the return of the Light of Love. Are you?
Have any of us changed the world we live in? That was my question to me at 4am this morning as I drove home from an emergency call out. I wondered what it would take for everyone to finally live in peace.
The emergency had passed. My mind was free to wander. I was thinking about what had changed in my life since the big shift of Maya energy in 2012. That was the year to end all years apparently. Mankind was on the brink and whether we survived was debatable. It was also the year I stepped up my commitment to my spiritual service. And challenged myself to bring my actions into line with my spiritual beliefs. I have to say it’s been harder than I thought. It’s ok to say I believe in loving everyone because they have the light of spirit within. Far harder to do when people get hurt or die as a result of someone’s actions.
My Letters From The Light Side video guidance this evening echoes my early morning thoughts. How can I make a difference in the world if I’m swept away by the energy of fear? Until I have changed my inner state I can’t possibly approach compassion and forgiveness in any kind of realistic way. Yet I also realised that I am seeing the world very differently. Over the last five years I have learned to appreciate the strength that comes with forgiveness, even if forgiving somethings is still a challenge. Because it means I am letting go of hurt and pain. I am opening myself up to the energy of peace. Accepting that the person who harms me or mine is also a damaged, harmed human being.
That’s something that has changed. I know that people do what they do because they feel they have no other choice. Their life experiences have taught them to be limited.
Can I insist that they are bad or evil because of what they have chosen to do? Or can I see that they are individuals who make mistakes. Mistakes that sometimes have consequences almost too big for them to live with. And what about the much bigger spiritual picture? I have changed my view about life because I have started to live the wisdom that, whilst every human life is precious, we have many lives. In this one I can return to old karmic patterns or not. I have the freedom to make better choices this time round. So I can do my best to make a difference by recognising all of my choices. Then trying to take the best ones forward. As I’ve changed myself I have felt many more moments of peace, certainty and direction.
And I have also realised that I don’t need to change the world I live in. I need to change me. If I show respect and value to myself and others I operate in a different way than when I approach life in a fearful way. Especially when that fear is hidden deep inside, out of sight of prying eyes, as I assume confidence and certainty like a mask. I am much more open about my vulnerability because we are all vulnerable. Susceptible to being influenced because we want to belong. Yet as I have explored the vulnerability hidden in my shadow side I have also discovered a great strength. I have discovered that I can navigate through my own life. I am capable of choosing and living with my decisions. And I can forgive myself for wrong actions because the intentions were right.
Now I have changed myself I’m ready to answer that initial question. Yes, we have changed the world. By small, important and loving steps we are building towards a peaceful future. Peace is not only a possibility to dream of but something actually on the horizon now. And getting closer.
Where did November go? I feel like I’ve got through it at breakneck speed. Trying to reflect on the month I found myself a bit mystified this morning. What had happened to me each day?
Of course I have a general idea of what happened. November was the month of packing up and closing my Centre. That seemed to take up most of my time. But I also wanted to know what had happened around the edges of that big theme. And it took me a while to remember. I suppose I was so occupied with doing that noticing what I was doing escaped me. Yet I know that I got my first Amazon payment for sales of my book. And did six church demonstrations of mediumship. With five Letters From The Light Side live videos and four sessions of my Intuitive Connections group. Plus two of my own Open Circles. It almost sounds like a certain Christmas song!
Still, November feels like a blur. A fast and furious way for me to release energy and lighten my load. Because, strangely, it was also a relatively quiet month for me work wise. I know I have done far more work in other months. Somehow I got the time to let go of a lot of things, thoughts and feelings that needed to shift. Perhaps because I was distracted with one big piece of letting go. So the other stuff drifted away easily. I find that really reassuring and lovely to acknowledge. Letting go happened best for me when I am in the right head space. And I certainly was in that place last month. Now I’m left with a few loose ends, some reorganising to do at home and a lot less to think about. November has given me space.
Space for my writing, for a rest from a rollercoaster of a year and for new ideas to slip into a mind that feels lighter and more energised. I’m delighted as I know the next energy wave is already on it’s way in. It hits tomorrow boosted by the Gemini full moon and Mercury reflections. Thank you November for my opportunity to dream big. And then dream bigger!
Today my Letter From The Light Side broadcast has really stuck with me. The Guides talked about planning and how important it was to make a commitment to myself.
They were talking about making decisions. Encouraging me to step forward into the path that would be the most positive for me. I realised that the first thing I had to do was recognise what was the best for me. In a way I’ve already done a lot of that thinking. I have stepped back from church services in 2018. And will shortly close my Centre. I chose to do both of these things because I want to focus on my writing and mentoring. But I wondered if I had done enough thinking about my self-care. It’s been a busy week. I’ve done a lot of planning for the tasks over the nest few weeks. But have I made any space for self-care? Something that I’ve noticed has been squeezed out this week.
It all comes back to my love of giving. That’s what I want to do. I like to share. So I fill my days with opportunities to do that. But perhaps I don’t share enough with myself. My planning doesn’t recognise that it’s what I need. So it’s not in the diary and it doesn’t happen. Yet I know when I am tired, worn out and drained I find sharing really hard. I can’t drum up enough energy. So if I really want to keep sharing I have to take some time to give to me. I know I have to make me a regular commitment. It’s time to have a date night with myself. Or a pleasant walk with I and me. Curling up with a good book to refresh my energy. These small, yet vital, activities honour my need for self-care.
And remind me that I’m important in my life too. Because I can forget that when I get caught up in helping others. Today I got my reminder that it’s all about balance. Giving and receiving. I’m planning to spend my Friday and Saturday differently. So that I am refreshed and ready for my Sunday workshop.
I’ve been watching the distressing events of the last few days across the world. Including the latest attack on the people out enjoying the streets of Barcelona. Whenever aggression and violence are used to justify breaking free of oppression it is a wake up call for me.
In my Letter From The Light Side this evening I reminded myself that I need to use my voice to explore how I can resist the fear, anger and aggression which is, it seems, part of our conditioned response to feeling powerless. And our almost instinctive response to say we are powerless because others have taken out power. I feel that is what divides us. The ability of my mind to push blame onto others. And to therefore give myself permission to attack those ‘others’. It’s distressing that I have taken this conditioning on board. But I also know it is there, deep within my shadow side, ready to rise again whenever I feel powerless.
Stepping back from the distressing news and images of racism, government sanctioned murder, child abuse and terrorism I ask myself what I can do to change any of this. I know there is an almost overwheleming sense of ‘I can’t do anything’ that is urging me to stay quiet. Yet I have to resist that first impulse. I can do something. I can use my voice, through my writing or my broadcast, to condemn the acts of violence and aggression. And I can speak about the oppression. To explain that I do not support the position of the oppressors. I can also examine myself. To seek out any values, beliefs or attitudes that feed the inner fears. I have to make sure that I deal with my own stuff so that I can approach every single person as an equal.
Distressing events are my wake-up call. A reminder that I have to use all my abilities to resist oppression, aggression and violence. And to make sure I empower myself and others.
Today I sat down to do my first Letter From The Light Side live broadcast for August. I’m amazed that something I started rather nervously at the end of February 2017 has produced so much laughter.
And seems to have helped many people. That’s the key. My Guides kept asking me to speak on their behalf in a more public way. Of course I have worked for many years in churches and centres, done events and some radio broadcasts. I’ve also been writing this blog for over eighteen months. So I considered I was already doing a lot of speaking for Spirit. But they asked me to do more. In their usual firm way they dropped the title of the videos into my mind. It was about a weekly letter. A regular communication to anyone who wanted to listen. Full of support and information about the energy we could expect in the next week.
Thus Letters From The Light Side was born. As I did my first video I felt very exposed. My friends have always said that I was good doing video pieces. But it’s a different matter to go out into a wide world and sort of say ‘look at me’. Especially since I had no idea which Guides and Inspirers were going to step forward. I rember laughing at myself as I set off. Laughing because I was anxious when I knew I should trust my Spirit Team. Wobbling through the first few sentences. That first letter was a big step forward for me. And as I sat chatting today, passing on the words of my Guides, I remembered how stressed I felt doing that first one.
Laughing afterwards at the warmth of their message I really understood how each letter has helped me value myself. And discover more of my abilities.
Because I have found so much joy in each weekly broadcast. My Guides get me giggling, laughing, chuckling. They remind me that laughter is infectious. It spreads the sunshine. I know that spirituality can feel like a deadly serious subject. Or way of life. And I find it interesting that many people discover spirituality and then lose their ability to laugh. Each letter I do has a deeper message. Wrapped up in the loving kindness of humour. Because this is a way for the Energy Beings to boost our positivity. So here I am, five months later, enjoying each letter and ready to do more if necessary.
In fact I’ve already started to do a little more. With another push from those insistent Guides I have started a monthly email Newsletter. The Energy Beings want to help us understand the energy of each month. In the email they get me to focus on the things that can help me and every one else through the month. Hints and tips to avoid the ups and downs of the energy ocean. I find it a really positive way to share more. Of course, it is also helping me both to value myself more and recognise more of my skills. Like the broadcast I was nervous when I missed the first one. But my Guides got me laughing about my wobbles as always. Now I can’t wait to put the next one out to the subscribers.
I’m looking forward to wherever my Letter adventure is taking me next. Hoping that I will enjoy more laughter. And pass that laughter on to as many people as I can. A laughter filled life. What more could I ask for 💜
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For quite a while I’ve felt like I was waiting for Godot. In the Samuel Beckett play Godot never arrives. Each day repeats and repeats with ever more ways to interpret the experience.
The last few months have had that quality about them. I’ve been taking action. Stepping through each day by doing what felt to be right. Being grateful for all that has come my way. Yet still restless underneath it all. Wondering at the insistence of my Guides that I do no church services in 2018. Trying each new opportunity that has been sent my way. Not quite sure that what I’ve been hoping to manifest will happen. Most of all still feeling like I was waiting for the main event to start which is not like me. Usually I procrastinate for ages and then reach a decision point. Once I take action I put aside anything else and just move on.
But not for the last few months. I’ve been more decisive than before. Yet more uncertain too. Feeling as if there was still fog all around my future plans. Though I’ve kept making plans and puttin things out there. What has been interesting is having to live with this waiting feeling. Like there is something much bigger yet to happen. And there are one or two key things that are unfinished. As if the completion of certain things has had to wait too. I kept asking my Guides what I was hanging about for. In their usual dry way they kept telling me to put one foot in front of the other and not worry about the path I was on.
Until today. It seems the waiting is finally over. I can move on with the things that have been on pause.
It’s not quite that Godot has turned up yet. But something is about to break the monotony of going round the same old circles. For a start I can finally write the conclusion to my book. It has been on hold for some time. Last night I realised that it couldn’t end with the person I was then. It has to end on the person I am now. During the first half of this year I have changed as much as I had in the last five or six years. I can finish the book because the new me has another one to write. I’ve also enjoyed doing Letters From The Light Side for the last three months. It’s shown me that I want to do more of that direct communication with people who can benefit from what I have to say.
That also involves a commitment to podcasts as well as video broadcasts. So that I can share the knowledge my Guides and the Energy Beings have given me. And that’s a key point. Getting the information out and reaching those who can use it. My daily blog has been the start point but the Inspired 2 Write challenges have been the test of helping other people find their voice once they have the information. So that they can share their experiences and hard earned wisdom with so many more. Finally today I took a step in purchasing the next part of my psychic school. A place for me and others to retreat and learn about intuition, Energy Beings and spiritual purpose. I had asked for it to be brought to me 12 months ago. Now it’s a reality.
I have to put in more energy and action to bring in the next part of the story. It’s important to keep dreaming. There will be more waiting involved. But I know I’m on my way. Godot is too!