Kind Thoughts: Whatever The Energy Between Us

Kind thoughtsSometimes I wake up with word running around my head. Usually in the middle of the night. Often from the conversations I’ve been having with my Guides. One recent discussion was about kind thoughts. Because I have been working on forgiveness.

One of the hardest lessons I’ve had to take on board is to be kind to myself. I learned very early in life that I was expected to be kind to others. But I’m not sure that I ever balanced that out with the other half of the equation. That I also needed to give myself the same kindness. When I did start to recognise it was a balance I’m sure I got it wrong lots of times. Because I also needed to understand the nature of forgiveness. Being kind to people I liked was easy. As was me being kind to those who liked me. But what about all of the people I struggled to like? Or didn’t want to like? What about the people I though had done me wrong? How could I offer kindness to them?

When I started to talk to my Spirit Guides they were keen for me to understand how forgiveness, like love, had to be unconditional. If I wanted to be kind to myself and others I also had to be free to forgive myself for anything and everything. That way I would also be ready to forgive other people too. It brought up interesting ideas about guilt and blame. Two great inhibitors on any form of forgiveness. Working through these ideas and feelings was hard. Very hard. Until I started to send out kind thoughts to people. All sorts of people. Including myself. Recognising that we are all flawed. That sometimes we don’t do the best things for one another. Or to one another. Bit by bit I worked to send positive thoughts to people who were in my life. No matter what had passed between us. Or how I felt about that person.

The sending of kind thoughts allowed me to release myself from judgements. I could forgive myself for being less than perfect. And I could also forgive others for the same. Every time I get a negative reaction to someone, or myself, I remind myself to deal with it kindly. And to move on. There are more important things to learn about life. Especially about kindness and forgiveness.

Day 829 of my blogging challenge

Snow Hat : Protection, Warmth and Cover

snow hatThe wind was bitterly cold today. Big gusts of icy air impossible to avoid. Good job I was wearing my snow hat. I’ve had it a long time and I love how it keeps my head warm. It is also my cover and protection. It reminded me today of the way I shield myself from negative energy.

I believe that all of our thoughts and feelings are energy. This energy flows out, around, through and back to us. It’s one of the reasons why sending healing thoughts to someone can help. My positive energy thoughts can rebalance their negative energy. Because I also believe that dis-ease is low vibrational energy that we are stuck in. The energy that I sense around all of us can be warm and loving or cold and uncaring. It all depends on what the other person, and me, are sending to each other. And what everyone in the world is generating. That’s why we can get caught inhale force energy storms of negativity. And why I need a snow hat to keep it out of my head.

When I started opening up my intuition, recognising it was there and sensing Energy beings, I had no idea that there were low and high vibrational beings. I was so excited to be opening up that I didn’t take much care of who I was letting into my aura energy. I am very grateful for my Guides who quickly stepped forward and gave me the Spirit equivalent of a snow hat. They helped me to see that I had to keep my mind clear and positive. So having a hat, so to speak, became an issue of protecting my energy, keeping myself in the warmth of love energy and hiding me from the low vibrational Energy Beings. I guess you could say I have had many psychic hats. Each one designed to keep me safer. I use my imagination to dream up bigger and better protective hats.

The snow and cold over the last few days has been a challenge. I have had to look after myself. In the same way I have been reminded I have to look after my energy. It goes with the intuition side of my life. Perhaps my current hat needs a revamp. Maybe I haven’t checked on it for a while. So I’m off to dream of a brand new hat in the Full Moon energy. How exciting!

Day 827 of my blogging challenge

A Like Minded Community: Why Does It Matter?

like minded global communityOne of the things I often ask my Guides about is their insistence that the Spirit World is a like minded community. Surely there will be differences? It would be too perfect if there weren’t. How would the Spirit people progress otherwise? Is their world really so lacking in challenge?

Of course they enjoy debating this with me. I understand that we come here in order to experience the consequences of free will choice first hand. It’a the place where my Spirit gets to be a bit rebellious. It’s also the reality in which my Spirit experiences the limitations that free will choice can put on unconditional love. I know that we live in a world where love struggles to be the guiding force. Human emotions continually slide into the lower vibrational feelings. And then get denied, ignored or blocked out completely. I know how hard it is to look in my mirror and own my shadow side. The impact of that choice is a global community that is in bits. We are far from a like minded species.

When I’ve asked about this and the connection to the Spirit World we came from my Guides have always answered ‘Love’. They remind me that the community on the other side share a like minded understanding of unconditional love. Their sense of community is from recognising that only love matters. And also that each and every Spirit matters too. I was discussing this today with a really inspiring friend. I often forget that I matter. It’s part of my upbringing, my gender, my place in the structure of this world that I am conditioned to think that others matter more than me. I’ve been told all my life that my duty is to love others before I love myself. And if I do love myself then that love must be conditional.

It must be conditional because I don’t matter as much as the others on the planet. It’s funny how many like minded people I know who share that same wrong headed belief.

Because time and again my Guides have reminded me that I do matter. They have helped me to understand that by limiting my love for myself I am actually limiting the love I can give to others. No matter how much I do if I let that martyr lurk inside me then I will reduce my capacity to love the rest of the human race. To build a better community, at any level, I now understand that I have to recognise that I matter. Then I can open my heart to the idea that other people matter. Not just the like minded ones who limit themselves in the same way I do. But every single person on the planet.

That has been hard for me to grasp. How can I accept those who hurt and harm others in deliberate and clear ways? They are not like minded as far as I am concerned. What about the people who tell themselves they have to make hard decisions but their choices show that clearly, to them, some people don’t matter? Again, I would hope they are not like minded either. Yet if I am promoting unconditional love there is a point where I have to understand that they matter too. They are playing out the limited love they allow themselves. And the limited love they offer to others. Because a global community that acts from a flow of love is hard to achieve whilst we all sit in judgement on one another.

Ah, say my Guides, that is where like minded thinking begins. When I and others are ready to accept that everyone matters. And we stop limiting our love with judgements.

I know it is a big ask. I have spent many years learning that I matter. Challenging the inner dialogue that tells me I am not a good person. Or intelligent. Even that I’m not worthy. And a thousand other judgements that I have accepted or, worse still, applied to myself. It’s quite a struggle. yet it’s one I need to complete so that I can recognise more fully just how much other people matter too. So that I can grow my like minded community to include even more participants. I am sure that this is the way to change the global community. When we all realise the ‘I Matter – You Matter’ flow of energy there a a great chance that our young people will be able to love themselves unconditionally from the start of their lives.

That’s the biggest challenge of all. To help the next few generations turn the global community into a like minded one. Not by use of coercion or force. Or by preaching one single religious view. But through a deep understanding that every view matters and needs to be fully expressed. Then there are no hidden agendas, no secrets and no judgements. And I know we will be able to deal with even the most difficult views in a loving and compassionate way. After all, I know it works that way in the Spirit World so why not aim for the same here. Of course, I know my Guides would love us to need a new challenge. Because if, by our own free will, we acted as a community that cared for each member of that community then we wouldn’t be stretched enough.

Our Spirit Within needs to grow and evolve. I would love to have the opportunity of doing that within a community that came from the heart and recognised that everyone mattered. Think how creative humanity is. What wonders could we have if we became like minded and loving?

Day 824 of my blogging challenge

Reviewing Twelve Months Of Letters: Time To Celebrate

Reviewing Automatic writing It’s been a kind of reviewing day. Not least because I have complete a full year doing my live broadcasts on Facebook. I started Letters From The Light Side with some apprahension. And a feeling that it wouldn’t last more than three weeks. I guess I was lacking in enough faith and belief.

So here I am twelve months later with fifty two videos and a great number of views. More that I ever anticipated in those wobbly days when I was setting out. I’ve been through the loop of wanting to appeal to everybody. Also of wanting everyone to like my channelling. I’ve been stressy with my Guides in case I wasn’t doing it right. Even short with myself for the way I look, speak and dress. Yet I’ve also laughed an awful lot. I’ve felt the presence of so many Energy Beings. Reading the positive feedback and the lovely comments I’ve felt humbled. And reviewing it all I’ve been satisfied that I’ve tried. That I’ve done my best. And  that the videos have reached anyone who needed them.

That’s my work for Spirit in a nutshell. Today I was getting rid of old papers. I came across all sorts of memories connected with my journey into mediumship. Reviewing some of the places I’d been, the people I met there and the work I’ve been able to do I knew I had tried my best. Even when it didn’t quite work out as I thought it would. Or when it worked out better than expected. My Guides have never asked me to do anything perfectly. They have always asked me to do my best. Because they have always said my best is good enough. I know they have smiled when my perfectionism has rushed to the surface. And kept on encouraging me.

Reviewing the last twelve months I know that my perfectionist part has shrunk. A lot of my apprehension was about getting the broadcasts wrong in some way. I am very privileged to be able to speak on the behalf of Energy Beings so I really want to get it right. But they have shown me that faith and belief are not the only things that matter. I also have to try. And keep trying. Then I will always be good enough.

Day 819 of my blogging challenge

Exercise Bike? Toning Up My Intuition

exercise bikeIt’s free at last! Today I have liberated my exercise bike from underneath a pile of clothing, a border of boxes and files and a wall of CDs. Yes, creating sacred space has been going on again. Uncovering my exercise bike got me thinking about the other exercises I do.

Freeing up my exercise bike means that I can use it again. Now I have to get myself back into a routine that, I confess, died a long while ago. I have to be disciplined, focused and determined. Fairly easy on a positive day but much harder when my world is out of sorts. The same thing can be said about my intuition. Developing my natural ability to tune into the energy around me was easy when I was trying to get the connections to my Guides. But how to keep it going when the communication is fairly clear and accurate? That’s when I have to get on my intuitive bike. Especially on those days when it feels like my Guides have stepped back completely.

I know they haven’t. But I do occasionally play a ‘tit for tat’ game with them when my childish streak gets to the surface. It’s as if I am challenging them to be the first to break the silence. The silence that actually drives me mad. Often I find that they have gone a little distant because they want me to make more effort. To get on my exercise bike, so to speak, and work harder to get the connection. My intuition is a group of muscles just like my physical body. Those intuitive muscles need a good work out on a regular basis to keep them doing their job. So my Guides set me a fitness schedule and I try to follow it. Because I know in the end it will make the communication even better.

So imagine me on my intuitive bike, if you will. Or if that thought is too scary imagine yourself in the intuition gym. Trying out each exercise to help you get better at reading energy.

Remember that it starts with a warm up. I like to do a short meditation so that I have stepped back from my everyday life. Then comes a bit of cardio to raise my energy vibration. Sometimes it’s saying a mantra. Other times I sing. Or visualise the pure white universal energy filling me up so that I am at the best energy level to make a connection. Once I feel the flow of higher energy I start to do some stretching, pushing gently with my intuitive psychic senses to find out if I can see, hear and sense more detail in the conversation being exchanged. I’m building on my natural senses – my core – and finding more balance in the flow of the energy.

My Guides are also helping me by switching vibrations around, using the senses I’m not as strong in and varying the amount of energy they feed into the connection. They encourage me to sense as much as possible whilst maintaining the connection through the ups and downs of the signals. When I’ve got the communication balanced and am picking up what they want me to they also switch into weight training. Sometimes I groan when I realise that they have added extra layers of information. They want me to ‘translate’ more of the energy. And then some more. Finally I get to warm down. Another meditative state to allow my human body and Spirit to come back into the three dimensional reality where we actually spend most of our lives.

Thank you exercise bike. I will be setting off on you again very soon. That means I’m also due another stint in the intuition gym working at my mediumship. That’s the excitement of developing an ability. You never know how far you can develop and I want to see how far I am able to get in this life. I hope you will join me int he intuition gym soon. It’s always an interesting work out!

Day 811 of my blogging challenge

Gifts: Giving And Receiving For Balance

giftsI love giving gifts. All, sorts of items that I hope the recipient will appreciate. Of course I love receiving gifts too. But I’ve often struggled with the idea of receiving anything, feeling that it was me who should always do the giving. This last year has been a lesson in receiving though.

Gifts have come to me in very many ways. I have had time to be listened to. A gift of a car. The opportunity to find a place of retreat. I have received an amazing amount of healing energy from all sorts of sources. There have been so many positive compliments about my work. I have been treated to lunch, dinner and nights out. Books, CDs and films have been recommended to me because I would enjoy them. Many hugs have come my way too. I’m delighted to say I have received them all with open arms. Because I have finally grasped something fundamental to gifts and giving. There has to be a balance.

Just as I like to give so do the people around me. Including my Guides. Yet if I keep on giving and never taking someone is denied the pleasure that giving gifts can bring. I love looking for that something special which will have meaning for the other person. Or being able to do what, to me, might be a small thing. But it will make a big difference to the person receiving it. It’s not about thank you either. Giving creates a warm, fuzzy feeling in me because I’m sharing the love. I hope that those giving back to me get that same warm, fuzzy feeling too. After all, the more the love goes around the brighter our world.

Receiving is the other half of an important equation. An equation that is all about balance. When we get it right in giving and receiving gifts everyone feels the benefit of more love. I’m looking for other gifts to give this week. And open to receiving in return. I hope you have a gift filled week too.

Day 809 of my blogging challenge

Jotting It Down: Catch The Inspiration Every Day

jottingI’m a great fan of jotting things down. So much so that I have lots of notebooks containing all sorts of scribbles, lists and mind maps. I have always tried to capture what pops into my mind as much as I can. Because I have learned these notes may be the inspiration for my next adventure.

Jotting something down serves as a reminder for me then. When I have a lot going through my mind keeping notes helps keep me on track. I find it easy to get distracted into the whys and wherefores of something and can end up loosing a lot of what comes in. So I love being able to go back a page or two to see what else was being processed by my mind. Sometimes I get a nice surprise. Something I have predicted has happened. Or there is a new creative idea all set out and ready to go. Going back months and even years I can trace how often an idea has come through. Long before the time is right for me to act on it.

I also find that my jotting contains inspirational words, hints and tips from the Energy Beings who work with me. When I am going about my human life they throw these into my notes for me to stumble across later. Like nuggets of encouragement to keep me going. Especially when I have stalled. Or I’m frustrated because I don’t understand something. Also, jotting in this way also helps me to reach the ideas I’m sitting back on. I often find that I doodle as I write. These are the subconscious threads still being woven together ready to be pushed across my conscious mind. It always amazes me when I look back and see doodles that now make perfect sense of what needed to come to the surface.

Of course I also enjoy jotting down ideas for my daily blog.

Not all the ideas get into the day they are noted. And a few are still sitting on my writing list because the idea isn’t ready to be expanded yet. But it’s surprising how, over several days, many of my inspirations fit together and quickly become a blog piece. If you haven’t adopted a pen and paper yet please do try taking notes as the ideas arrive. You never know – it may be your Guides letting you know what is about to happen to you next,

Day 808 of my blogging challenge

Surviving Dark Times: Finding The Light Of Hope

survivingI’ve seen a couple of films recently about dark times. Moments in peoples lives when the worst has happened and it has been a challenge to do the right things. Of course I read and hear about all sorts of things every day. But what I noticed with the stories was that surviving was matter of finding hope.

I’ve always been encouraged by the story of Pandora. The way that her curiosity led her to open a box which let out all the evils of the world. That could have been the end of the story. Instead, at the very bottom of the box, under all the darkness she found a ray of hope. I feel that we have all been given a way of surviving even the worst of our experiences. That the hope I feel can carry me through anything. Yet describing what I hope in or for can escape me. Because hope is difficult to pin down. Am I thinking that I am still alive? Do I remind myself that I am still standing? Or perhaps I’m telling myself that it can get better?

Sometimes I don’t know. I’m in the darkness but looking for the light. And my hope spurs me on to believe and trust that I am surviving. Of course, since I got to know my Guides, I also know I’m not alone. My hope is boosted by the recognition that I am surviving the challenges with their help. Yet I still have to be the one hoping. I know that if I loose hope things will only get darker for me. So I stick to the story of Pandora. Reminding myself that there is always an up side to everything. Encouraging myself to feel the fear that the darkness brings. But to push myself on through it. Until I can recognise the love and the light shining into my dark place. I also know that to experience hope I have to experience it’s absence.

I have to know desolation, despair and defeat. Then I can feel the power of hope. The expectation, anticipation and excitement of Light breaking through into my darkness. I wouldn’t wish my dark times on anyone else. That’s actually because I know we all have dark times. But I am sending anyone trying to survive the darkness a ray of hope. Surviving is the important outcome. Let hope light your way.

Day 807 of my blogging challenge

Competition, Collaboration and Success

competitionToday my daughter has been reviewing her progress in her chosen course. She is working mainly with men in her studies as the subject she loves is often seen as a male preference. She has noticed that there can be a lot of competition between them. But she doesn’t approach her work that way.

This morning we had a discussion about women being able to vote. It has been one hundred years since women over thirty in the UK gained the right to vote in elections. Quite a landmark. So I couldn’t help but notice the synchronicity of this review date. Nor that we have entered another phase of Divine Feminine energy asking us to view our relationships as collaborations. Rather than make it all about competition. So as I was once again chatting with her this evening about her career choices we both listened hard to a news item on Channel 4 about feminism. I introduced my daughter to the books and work of Laura Bates, the Body Image Movement and feminist writing. And I hope it will help her balance the competitiveness of her chosen field with the collaboration necessary to help everyone succeed.

I believe that we all have a streak of competition within us. I find it’s a really useful emotion to boost me past giving up. When I’m doing something I like to compete with myself to see if I can do better than I did before. Because sometimes I tell myself I can’t do something well. Yet if I tried enough and stuck at it I would improve. In fact I have proved that with my mediumship. However, I have also needed to collaborate with others, especially my Guides, to find new or different ways to develop my skills. Competing with myself, collaborating with others and sticking at it has helped me to succeed. I feel that the Suffragettes knew far better than me how to do that. After all they got women the vote. And pushed on further to gain ground in improving women’s lives.

I’m glad my daughter understands the power of competing with herself. It’s also a blessing that she prefers to collaborate with others. In the end she will be successful in anything she does. I also feel that success will be shared with all of the people she works with. Because she understands the value of doing things together. And is prepared to put aside the corrosive aspects of competition in order to push forward with change.

Day 803 of my blogging challenge

Star Gazing On A Cold Clear Night

StarI’m off for the weekend. Ready to explore new energy and share the laughter with good friends. I’m also ready to find my star to wish on.

I work quite a bit with the Star Beings who are trying to help the planet right now. One of my Guides, Blue, always reminds me to ask for her help when the distractions of our little planet get too much. Then she will zoom me up to the starts and take me into the deep cold vacuum of the Universe. Void of air perhaps. But not of life. One of the books I’ve been reading recently talks about the Universe as a manifestation of the W mind of the Divine. That it came into existence so the Divine could see itself thinking. I love being out amongst the stars so I can feel the power of Divine thought. Blue takes me timelessly across the, to us, empty reaches of space. She wants to show me how it is brim full of life.

I used to wonder what was between each star. Of course I’m not the only one to have ever done that. Now I have discovered so much about the nature of energy. I have discovered the Energy Beings who people the stars. Those who watch as we struggle to be the next evolution of humankind. These wonderful beings send us healing, love and inspiration. I know that they recognise our struggles. They have had the same journey into enlightenment that we now face. So I was delighted to see the constellations this evening. Peeping out at me as a reminder to aim high. To keep my eyes on the stars and to follow my dreams.

I also thought about how I shine my Light. I know I am a star glowing in the sky to remind others that the Universe is full of possibilities, opportunities and adventure. I am part of a constellation, along with my friends, pointing to the next steps of the journey we will all be taking together. So I hope that I represent the thoughts in the Divine Mind in the best way I can.

Day 799 of my blogging challenge