Guide Power!

ZuluGuideIt seems that now I’ve started with Wolf Running some of the others in my Guide team would like a mention. I love that there are so many helpers available to me. It’s awe-inspiring.

Over the years I’ve been fascinated by the way that my Guides have shifted around. One steps in whilst another steps out. One has a skill with crystals, another with public speaking and a third with energy healing. I have to say that I originally thought I would only have one Guide. Some of the books I read and the events I attended gave that impression. It was odd to notice that Wolf Running was stepping out of connection sometimes and that someone else was working with me. His energy was so familiar and safe. What were others doing stepping into his place?

I was used to Spirit people bringing messages. Why where these other Spirit people hanging around and not giving messages to their loved ones? Gradually the light dawned. They expected to be able to work with me too. I have to admit that I got very challenging when it happened the first time. The Pastor started to appear during my church or spiritual centre demonstrations. He was rather too stern for my liking. Good at philosophy but serious with it. He needed to get his points across. The messages were certainly different to what I was used to. So I did my usual. I had a wobbly.

Annie the Amazon

I can go in guns blazing if necessary. It’s not something I do often. The Pastor got both barrels and so did Wolf Running. I didn’t want to change the way I worked. I wanted the security of my Gatekeeper. Why should I work with anyone else? I held out for six weeks. The Pastor kept bouncing in at every service I did. I struggled to get a decent link most of the time. Afterwards I would strongly debate with my Gatekeeper why change was necessary. He was very patient. So was the Pastor. A good man but a fundamentalist at heart when he was down here. Of course a part of me knew I was on the loosing side already. I wanted to give messages because I knew how much people benefited from the hope their loved ones brought.

One evening I stood up to give some wise words (my term for a philosophy, sermon, address or whatever you want to call it). The Pastor stepped in close and started to speak. His words were so moving I found myself almost in tears. He spoke from the heart about love. He explained why we had to work hard to love ourselves and each other. The words he used were simple. Afterwards people thanked me for the words that had been spoken. I had already realised why I had to work with him. His compassion as a Spirit being was based on the lack of compassion he had here in his human life. He wanted to be different. I was giving him a chance to heal his karma. It was a very special moment.

Bring in the Children

The Pastor and I worked together for a couple of years. He taught me to be precise in what I spoke on behalf of the Spirit World. I understood his need for me to be serious and learn my trade so to speak. I learned that my service of passing on evidence and messages was a privilege that could’t be taken lightly. We found a way to share the same energy together and make it work. Settling into my stride I did still think he was the only other Guide I would have. Until one day I was driving to a church and found myself laughing over nothing. The Children had joined me.

There are quite a few children. They like my energy apparently. They love to play. I was ready for a break from serious and they were perfect. As they liked to play I often found myself in a game hide and seek with one or more of them. They also loved to play with pendulums. Great for paranormal nights when I would ask them to get the energy moving. They were aged from about 3 to 12 years old. I felt like they had decided to shake me up a bit. I loved their energy as they flew around the room or got people giggling. The Children have been wonderful Guides. I discovered the child-like side of me that wanted to play too. I certainly had some adventures in their company. They pop back in every now and again when I’m ready to play some more.

Time for Trance

There was another adventure that the Children and the Pastor had to step back from. This was my journey into Trance Mediumship. I’m fascinated by the mind. By how we can be in altered states of consciousness that appear as real as this reality I feel I’m conscious in now. To discover that there were states of consciousness where Energy Beings could communicate in a deeper fashion was exciting. I needed to explore. But I needed a Guide who could help me to do so. As my Guide team shuffled around once more I met my Trance Guide. My young Zulu warrior can out of a meditation. Walking out of the sunlight across a sandy plain with scrubby grass. I’m always ready to challenge what I get. I called on Wolf Running. I wanted to check out this new person. Would he really keep me safe? Could I trust him?

Of course it was a yes. I had been sent a Guide experienced in patience (not my strong point) who would steady me whilst I learned to give over control of my conscious mind. I was delighted that the adventure could begin. I suppose I was trying to run before `i could walk. I gradually learned to slow down. To be patient with myself. To listen to the few words my Zulu Guide gave me. To follow his lead by reading his energy. In time I was able to work in deeper altered states. I could show people changes that took place to my appearance. Spirit people could speak through me in nearly their own voice. Then I found I couldn’t speak at all.

Moving on to new challenges

When I stopped speaking in trance my Zulu friend stepped back. It was time for me to begin another journey. New Guides would be coming in. I am working with a new part of my team to develop Direct Voice. This is a form of mediumship where the Energy Beings speak but without using my vocal chords. I’m interested to see what will happen. I know that the right Guides will be with me on this journey too. The team is always just who it ought to be.

I love having a team around me. I know that whatever expertise I need will always be on hand. I am so glad to find that I have more than one individual supporting my spiritual development. I love the freshness of each day when I find out who is by my side. I also love that at any given moment there is more than one Being looking out for me. My team have stood the test of my questioning, arguing and resisting. I hope you are inspired to find out who is in your team. You have more help than perhaps you realise at the moment. Enjoy the adventure of finding out!

Day 228 of my blogging challenge.

Wolf Running

Grey Wolf (Canis lupus)

Grey Wolf (Canis lupus)

I often get asked about my Guides. Or to tell people about their Guides. As a reluctant medium I’m also reluctant to talk about Guides in anything other than general terms. I prefer people to work out their own relationships with their Guide Team because then you know what is true for you.

Today I had a lovely discussion with some friends about my Gatekeeper Guide. A Gatekeeper Guide is the one who stays with you all the way through your life. From the moment you decide to fall to Earth until the moment you are back in the Pink Perfect this Spirit will walk alongside of you. The job of this particular Guide is to remind you why you came here. It’s also to keep you on plan. And to give you early warning when you are drifting away from your true purpose. Of course I didn’t listen to my Gatekeeper for most of my life. It’s a good job he was prepared to be patient!

I realised as I spoke about my Gatekeeper that explaining why he was with me and how I found him was relevant to other people looking to make a connection with their Guides. So with his permission I am going to tell you our story. I’m aware that some people will find it hard to accept what I say. That doesn’t actually matter. The important thing is to dispel the mystery around Guides.

In come the wolves

When I started to explore my intuitive senses I had no idea about being a medium. Or actually about being in contact with Guides or any other sort of Energy Being. I was on a search for spiritual understanding. In several meditations I found myself surrounded by wolves. There was always one beautiful, blue eyed, light coated wolf who seemed to be leading of the pack. I loved the energy they brought me. As I expanded my understanding the wolves came more often. They became my protectors. They still work with me now. The wolves were my first clue.

Of course I had been working on my own past lives for years. So the next clue should have been obvious. I went along to several vision quest events and always seemed to end up with a head full of the sights and sounds of a Native American village. These experiences were very vivid. I knew very little about the traditions of the Tribes. Yet when I went in search of information it seemed my recall had an unexpected level of detail. Eventually I also discovered the aches and pains of that life. Literally. When you work with past lives your body ‘remembers’ the dis-ease in that energy life. If you seek information your body will also show you by developing symptoms.

Grey Wolf and I: our Past Life together

Still not putting the pieces together I started into developing my mediumship. At first all I could sense was as if someone was standing behind me. Sometimes I saw an large eye. Now and again there was a wave of warm loving energy. Over time I started to recognise a familiar feeling. It was as if I knew this energy. There was a connection. I could feel myself pulled towards this other ‘person’. Then I had a sequence of dreams. In each dream I was talking to a man. In each dream he looked different. By the third dream I knew it was the same person. I remember saying I know it’s you no matter which face you wear. The dreams stopped but my ‘person’ started to become much stronger.

I caught glimpses of him. I asked his name. He gave me a nickname to use. I asked him why I felt so strongly connected to him. He said because. No matter what I asked about him personally he replied with jokes or no answer at all. At the same time I found all sorts of books about Native American history kept turning up. People gave them to me as gifts. Or passed them on to me because they had read them. I finally read a book called Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee. It hit home very hard. After I finished it the pains in my right knee, side and shoulder made perfect sense. They were the wounds that had killed me.

The past is the past

A few nights after that I lay in bed talking to my Gatekeeper. I told him I knew where we had been together last. I also knew that he had not intended me to die. His love for me was so strong that he had carried a sense of guilt and blame back into the Spirit World. His decision to stay there and help me from that side of life was all about protecting me better. He had made his presence known so slowly because he thought I would reject him. In those moments I understood why he had been testing me. He wanted to make sure that I could accept him and work with him. As we spoke and I released him from the promise he had made himself he told me his true name. That is when Wolf Running took his place fully beside me.

Now we work together to unite the two worlds by sharing understanding and knowledge with others. Often people find that meeting with their Guides is slow, tentative, frustrating. When you deepen your connection with the Energy Beings you also start to clear the past life karma that has been between you. Be patient with yourself and your Guides. There might be many very valid reasons why they are reluctant to step forward in a rush. They value the relationship you are building with them. Look for the clues they send you. I know I missed quite a few! Be open to the story behind your decision to work together. Enjoy the process of discovery. I love that I have such a devoted Gatekeeper. He loves that I am finally listening. We run with the wolves together.

Day 227 of my blogging challenge.

Guides – friend, family, other?

Rose1Over the last few days the subject of Guides has cropped up more than once. This is often a topic that people get really confused about because there are many different explanations about who might be guiding us & why. Most often people ask what the name of their Guide is. When I asked, for a long time I was told ‘a rose by any other name would smell as sweet’. William Shakespeare had a lot to answer for in my eyes, lol. Still I asked for a name. I felt somehow that if I had a name I would ‘know’ who my Guide was. It got much more confusing, as I exercised my psychic senses, to realise that I sensed more Guides around me. Then I started to demand names. How on earth could I build up trust, I thought, if I didn’t even know who was around me. My Guides tried to encourage me to sense them rather than worry about names. Or to see or hear them instead of wanting to attach labels to their energy. I must admit I found it really, really frustrating. When I finally blew my top they answered my anger by explaining that we were building a set of relationships. Just like in real life relationships with individual Guides take time and effort to become trusting. So would a name make the trust happen any quicker?

At this point I must have had a lightbulb moment. I recognised that I was used to being introduced to people by their name. However, I also knew that their name didn’t define who they were, how they might think or feel and how they might choose to behave in any given set of circumstances. A name was only a short cut that needed to have a personality attached to it. And finding someone’s personality and preferences takes time. Working with anyone over a period of time allows familiarity to develop. Predictability almost. That is what we trust. That the person we know as Annie will respond and act in given ways as certain experiences and situations arise. Hopefully Annie will respond positively – or in ways that we view as positive. If she doesn’t then we might very well choose to forget we know her by forgetting her name. At this point I’m sure my Guides breathed a huge sigh of relief. I stopped asking for names. I recognised that I had to work at building a few key relationships with the Guides who were most often around me. They were my team, working with me and supporting me to get to wherever I needed to be of service. So I started to ask a different set of questions. Ones that have helped me understand & explain Guide teams to other people wanting to meet their Guides.

First I asked how many Guides I had. Apparently the number is infinite. I have as many Guides helping me as I wish to allow in. That make sense to me. I never quite convinced myself that there was only one energy being guiding me. It seemed like their should be more as that is what happens on the Earth. I’d rather have lots of help than only one hard pressed, overworked Guide trying to get me to do what is in my own best interest. I also asked where all these Guides came from. It was wonderful to realise that we can be guided by many different Energy Beings so I welcomed the opportunity to work with Elementals, Aliens, Dragons, Angels to name a few. There are many, many dimensions our Spirit is connected with so why restrict my guidance to only the human Spirit World. Why me was the next question. It has taken me a long time to accept the answer. Because … I felt that was a cop out but my Guides keep saying it will make perfect sense when I return to the Spirit World. I guess it’s another test of the trust we have in each other that I can wait for all to be revealed.

They have shared with me some snippets of why me though. And these seem to carry across to what other people experience too. Firstly, we all have a GateKeeper Guide. This Guide agrees to be with us from the moment we step our of the Spirit World until the moment we step back across to there. The GateKeeper’s job is to keep the lines of communication open as best s/he can so that we don’t drift of what we have planned for this life. When we are travelling in a direction that is against our plan our GateKeeper will be bouncing up & down on our head to try to get us to pay attention. When we are sailing along in accordance with our plan our GateKeeper will be off having a cup of coffee with the other Guides, catching up with all the gossip. Most often this Guide has been with us in many past lives. We have swapped being the GateKeeper many times for each other. That’s why this Guide has the patience necessary to hang out with us until we notice that they are there. I love my GateKeeper for being so determined to wake me up and keep me on track.

Secondly, it’s often the case that family members get involved in guiding us too. After all we are more likely to trust someone in our family tree better than a complete stranger. I work with my Mum some of the time and occasionally with my Grandfather. They are a steadying force when I might have wobbles about the service I’ve been asked to give. They also bring a lot of humour as they can remind me of my prototypes from earlier in my life without being judgemental or picking fault. That’s something we are easily able to do for ourselves as we have trained ourselves to make comparisons and compete. They also understand my need to have balance in my life. If I’m doing too much they will give me a push to slow down. Or even put the brakes on for me by chasing all the rest of the team out of sight for a while.

Finally, there are the Guides who pop in for one job, one reason or one piece of development. Guides are of all energy vibrations, experiences and backgrounds. They are Energy Beings who have been around the block a bit – even the brand new ones. They are working on their development too. So connecting with me for a ‘one off’ event of service can be helpful to them too. I do wonder how many of them breath a sigh of relief when the joint task is finished, lol. What they bring is a fresh viewpoint, a new skill or some much needed support of a different kind than my regular Guides. I don’t ask their names because I don’t need to know anymore. My GateKeeper and family Guides vet these ‘strangers’ for me and I trust that I am sensible enough to question anyone who seems to be out of step with my vibration. I love working with my Guide team. I love working with them individually and collectively. I feel surrounded by their love and protection even when I’m at my most human and rebelling against them. I am not a robot or someone who can be led easily. They know that, respect my questions and do their best to chivvy me along the best path for me. In fact, I know they would be suspicious if I didn’t question, doubt or expect answers. We have a wonderful relationship built up over many years and that’s why a name has no meaning for us. So please swap to a different question if you want to really get to know your Guides.

Day 137 of my blogging challenge.