Trust The Universe: A Skill To Master

TrustI know I’m always talking about trust. Trust me, trust them, trust it will be ok, trust the Universe. But it’s actually quite hard to master relying on myself, others, the Universe and to know it will be ok.

Yet it’s so important for me in the work I do. I have to trust my Guides and the Energy Beings to give me what I need to communicate to others. They have to work with me so that a positive, evidential message or communication comes out of my mouth. Certainly not an easy thing in the beginning because my Ego Mind worked very hard to build mistrust instead. In fact my Ego Mind seems to take every opportunity to get me mistrustful. It’s as if i’m Always looking for the catch. Of course I understand that life is unpredictable, risky and uneven. I have had my roller coaster rides plenty of times. But my Ego Mind makes a big show of pointing all that out at exactly the moment when I need to trust the most.

For a long time in my mediumship developement I remained mistrustful. Not only because of my Ego Mind but also because of the general level of distrust most people have towards Energy Beings. In the end I decided that I had to trust the experiences I was having. It made me realise that until you have tried to connect for yourself you are unlikely to get over the mistrust. Even if you are a believer. Because somewhere lurking in the back of my head is the Ego ready to bring up that feeling of mistrust again. Like an old, worn record playing again and again. Every time I gain trust in something a new reason to mistrust something else crops up. Some days I wonder if I will ever master complete, utter and unconditional trust. That’s what I am aiming for. Being able to let myself respond easily and openly to the energy flowing all around me.

I know that if I trust this Universal flow of energy everything will be ok. All that I require and desire will find it’s way to me at the moment I actually need it. I guess that little bit of mistrust is still there to give me something to aim for!

Day 732 of my blogging challenge 

Space In My Diary For Me Instead Of Spirit

Lots of spaceI’ve had a sort of day off today. I say sort of because I know that Spirit people are never far away. But it was time for me to have some space for me.

I love my connections with Energy Beings. And I love helping people connect in any way I can. But I also have my own life to balance against the needs of others. Because that’s what the Energy Beings are. Other people who have a need to get messages across. The same need as me and all of the people who are physically here on the planet. So sometimes I have to put a space in my diary that marks out my boundaries. Otherwise I would be recieveing communications all of the time. Even when I was asleep. My Guides have always been clear that I had this choice. It’s up to me how much or how little Spirit communication I do.

My Guides have also been quick to prompt me when I’ve actually made space in my diary. They remind me to take time out. Because it’s true. So much can pass by when I’m not noticing it. Due to having my head stuck in my work. Or my focus on things that turn out not to be that important in the end. I’ve been fortunate to spend my day with my family. Catching up, laughing and sharing how we all are at the moment. They are the people who anchor me into my life. They remind me of belonging, shared experiences and the warmth of love. I know they also help me to stay grounded. They know where I’ve come from. So they are also there when things get a bit tough. A reminder of the way all of us have weathered life’s storms. And still stand strong.

I’m looking forward to the next family event. It’s already taking up space in my diary. Time for me to enjoy a break from working for others. And notice all of the things happening in my family instead.

Day 683 of my blogging challenge 

Validating Experiences: Sharing The Stories

Validating aliensThis evening I’ve been to a local UFO group. It’s an interesting subject and one where validating experiences is important. Because it’s very easy to be a sceptic about flying saucers.

One of the things that I discovered for myself, as I developed my connections to Spirits and Energy Beings, was the disbelief of other people. It was hard enough for me to make sense of what was happening. Doubly so when the people I talked to denied that I could be having those experiences. There were a few people who did help though. The ones who listened to my stories. And revealed that they had experienced similar things. They were validating, for me, what I had been going through. That was very important for me. Because it encouraged me to continue trying to communicate. In the end, I found my way to the people who openly accepted my experiences as real when I stepped inside a Spiritualist church. And I never looked back.

Tonight I was able to listen to other people share their personal experiences and to be part of the group validating what was being said. In this case it was about experiences of contact with Beings from other planets. One of the interesting things was that this subject affects many more people than is currently said. It’s as if the people being contacted haven’t quite found their voices yet. So these stories aren’t part of the mainstream discussion about our world and our experiences. And that’s the problem. Whilst the few who speak about what has happened to them have to deal with a tidal wave of disbelief others are not encouraged to follow suit. They are silenced. They can’t get help in validating their experiences. In fact they may end up feeling very alone, isolated and scared.

I want to share the information about the Todmorden UFO group that meets at the Golden Lion on the third Tuesday of every month. It’s a way of encouraging you to share your experiences. Or to go along to a similar group and find out more about the experiences others are having. After all, one day we may need to welcome Energy Beings into our lives more fully. Either through intuition or because we have actually met them.

Day 666 of my blogging challenge 

Verbal Verity: Speaking My Truth From Now On

Verbal verityI’m sitting in the evening sunshine thinking about yesterday. My verbal expressions as a part of the end of Mercury retrograde. And about speaking my truth.

I’m running a challenge. A group of people finding their writing voice. And yesterday I was the only one who wrote about the topic I had suggested. Until it went past midnight. Then a couple of other people managed to express themselves in their writing. It made me stop and think about my voice. About how to make things verbal. Give voice to my inner world. Become vocal. Making sounds, speech, that conveys what I think or feel. And how authentic that sound is. How do I say things so that they have a meaning for those who choose to listen? Can I get my own voice out there in the first place? I know it’s an important thing for me to work out. Because I do my weekly Letters From The Light Side broadcast with words inspired by Energy Beings.

And I have to be clear where my voice ends and their voices start. I’m being verbal on the behalf of what the Energy Beings believe. Yet I also have my own set of values and beliefs. It’s important to me not to dilute their voices by distorting the verity of what they give me. My persona thoughts and feelings have to be on one side so I can speak their truth. But I also need to be able to speak my truth when it’s appropriate. Yesterday was a reminder to make sure I have removed anything that might block my voice. Because I am aware that our verbal exchanges are conditional. I know we follow rules of communication that have been set for us by the society and culture we are born into.

What are the rules? How do the words turn into a spoken meaning? And who sets the standards of truthfulness?

A discussion on Thursday reminded me of that. Different languages have different rules. That are not always easy to work out. I’m staying near a place called Kirkcudbright but it’s pronounced KirCOObree. Anyone studying English would wonder why. But it’s in Scotland where lots of words are pronounced differently. And it’s a sort of test, I suppose, of whether you are paying attention, or interested in saying the place name authentically. That’s only one little part of verbal veracity. What about others? As a woman there are voices I’m not supposed to use in certain circumstances. I’m not supposed to be aggressive, except in defence of my loved ones. My voice is supposed to be soft and nurturing. A hearty laugh belongs to the world of men.

I’m generally expected not to have an opinion on politics, religion or any of the affairs of a mans world. Also to know my place and when I’m supposed to say nothing. In the end, it’s worth acknowledging that there are many constraints on my voice. Not for the purpose of blame. But to understand how much a challenge it might be for me to verbalise what I feel or think. And even more challenging to offer what I feel is my truth. About anything. In fact some days I am amazed that I can speak at all. So what about all this Mercury energy. It’s been an interesting blast because for a long time I have been stripping away the layers of conditioning. I’ve been trying to find my authentic self so I can have an inner conversation.

Now I feel I’ve sounded out and rehearsed my authentic inner Spirit voice. The barriers are gone. So it’s time for me to bring that verbal skill out into the open. To speak for whole myself. As well as to speak in the service of Energy Beings. Are you ready to speak your spiritual truth too?

Day 656 of my blogging challenge 

Covering the Basics: Revisiting, Reminders, Refreshers

Covering the basicsI’ve been watching a few cookery programmes this week while I’m off. Some of them have been covering the basics of how to prepare food. Stuff that’s easy. Things I learned at school. But a useful reminder.

It got me thinking about the basics of connecting with Energy Beings. No matter how long I’ve been communicating with my Guides they have always used opportunities to take me back to the basics. Covering how it all works once again. Helping me to understand more so that I can expand my work more. This evening I saw a course advertised being run by someone I worked with in my early days. Paul helped me to uncover the basics of mediumship. Then we ended up working together to teach other people. And that launched me into my own teaching. Something that is changing in response to the needs of new students.

For many years I’ve worked with people to share the basics of intuitive abilities. Each course or workshop is a chance for me to revisit what I know about how psychic ability works. I’m reminded of my feelings and thoughts, as this experience I didn’t really believe in  kept happening. And I can also refresh my own understanding of connecting when people ask me their questions. Working with others, covering the process of developing, keeps me aware of my own development. Because it never ends. Each day I find a new aspect to what I’m doing with the Energy Beings. I discover a different level of ability I hadn’t been acknowledging.

That’s why I love covering the basics. Like a skilled chef I have to keep practicing the skills that got me started. And pushing myself to learn more. With the help of my Guides, my students and other colleagues I keep myself open to new ways of doing things. There is room for inspiration, opportunities and new skills. Have you been covering the basics recently? If not, is it worth revisiting them?

Day 645 of my blogging challenge 

Talking Through Future Dreams: Clear the Clouds

Talking visionFor the last few weeks my energy flow has been tricky. I have felt becalmed. Yet today I found myself talking about my vision for the future. I realise now, inside me is certainty.

Anyone who knows me knows I love talking. I always have. Through it took me quite a while to realise that when I spoke I was giving myself, and sometimes other people, messages and guidance from the Energy Beings. Hearing myself give voice to things I wasn’t thinking only came to my attention when I started to work with my own intuitive connections. Because then I was focused on how the communications worked. Discovering that claircognisence existed really helped me to understand how I was getting light bulb moments of inspiration. Not that I lack inspiration. But put together with forecasting what was going to happen, I began to embrace my ability to predict events with a good degree of certainty.

I recognised that talking gave space for my Guides to drop in thoughts. Sometimes I knew my words were me speaking to me. And I also started to understand when my words were them speaking to me. Now I am used to letting my creative mind process the guidance at it’s own pace. Like a waiting game. To see what will emerge as the finished product. That usually happens when I sit down for a cuppa with someone and we chat. As the conversation weaves this way and that I pick up moments of clarity. Words that resonate more strongly than others. I find myself describing. Usually what is going to happen in my own future. I do challenge this occasionally. Am I only talking to hear what I want to hear? So my Guides send me confirmations.

These signals remind me to listen to myself when I’m talking. After all, I might be making my dreams known to the Universe. And to myself. Then I can start the actions to make those dreams concrete in my world. I’m now sure I’m ready to move forward again. Are you?

Day 630 of my blogging challenge 

Perfect Timing: Engaging Transpersonal Chakras

perfect optionI alway enjoy running workshops. They happen at the perfect time for the people involved. And today, working with Transpersonal chakras, seemed the ideal response to the energy shifts of the last couple of weeks.

I really appreciate the people who come along to the workshops. They bring questions that I love to find the answers for. And they bring their Guide Teams to blend with mine so that we all get the best out of the day. That’s perfect. Because it’s the Guide Teams who are trying to reach us. I know that when I open the door to my Guides they fill me with fresh energy, information and support. So I also know that the workshop will do the same for the people who attend. Guides like to make things as clear as possible. Because they want me and everyone else to make the best choices for our next steps on the spiritual path. And that’s exactly what the energy has been all about since the end of July.

It’s time for me to stop limiting my choices. I have to embrace all that I am and can do so that I can manifest as many options as possible. In fact, working to boost my energy centres around my Transpersonal chakras. Those power stations that can energise more bands of aura vibration. Because my aura vibrating at a higher level enables me to communicate more clearly with all of the Light and Energy Beings who are waiting to help me complete my mission. Even when I have no idea what my mission is supposed to be. That is true of the energy at the moment too. I’m being asked to dedicate myself to serving my purpose. Without any idea what my purpose is!

That’s perfect too. Being willing to serve in any way I am able is the key. Removing my doubts, fears and judgements about what I can achieve. These only block my progress.

It’s perfect timing right now to face them head on and push myself past the restrictions. Using my knowledge of my Transpersonal chakras I can make that connection to a much bigger picture. I can understand that whatever I do now will bring me wisdom. Recognising that every step of my journey is what counts. Not really the destination. Because my plan is fluid and flexible enough to reshape itself as I chose this or that option. It’s the seeing of the opportunities that really matters. And that is what the bigger picture gives me. I know I am heading into an Ascension process. I will need as much energy as I can take on board to make the shift into serving myself and others with unconditional love.

That’s the kind of perfect I am aiming for. Not the perfect of being well thought of, or praised or applauded. But the recognition that I have been good enough in each moment of my current existence. Creating karma that brings a positive flow of energy into my life. And the lives of others. I know we have such untapped intuitive resources. The information about Transpersonal chakras has taken a long time to emerge into mainstream comment. And there is so much more to discover when we all start working with the higher energies. But first I know we have to clear the clutter of our old wisdom and beliefs out of the way. That’s perfect too.

I am constantly evolving. What I knew fifteen years ago about the higher chakras has been expanded over time. And expanded once again in my workshop today. Each level of knowledge has been a perfect fit for where I was at that time. I love the fluid way that wisdom wraps itself around my life. Now I can’t wait for the next workshop!

Day 628 of my blogging challenge

Checking Out Facts: Avoiding Mis-information

Checking factsI’m often told that messages from mediums are too vague. When I read articles about Spirit connections I wonder if we all deal with the same bunch of Spirits. Facts seem hard to come by. And checking them out is vital.

When I was unaware of my own connections to Spirit I wondered how mediums got the information they did. I thought it would be as simple as having a face to face conversation with a disembodied person. It wasn’t until I started checking out how Spirit communication happened that I found such a wide variety of experiences. When I began communicating myself I was keen to have factual information. Pieces of the message that would have been difficult for me to know any other way. Simply because I felt that the person getting the message would listen to it better if it contained some sort of evidence.

Now I understand that, whatever way each individual connects, the Energy Beings can always bring factual information through to validate the messages. So sometimes I’m a bit puzzled when I read about messages, or ways of working, that seem to be less fact based and more ‘trust me’ focused. I encourage every one to approach my readings prepeared to do some checking out. Because I may say things that they don’t know or understand. Until they have checked with family members or friends. It’s the same as going to buy a designer handbag. I want to know, before I spend my money, that I am getting the genuine article. So why shouldn’t I be open to being checked out too?

There is, I also believe, a duty on me as a medium to do some fact checking too. I have to ensure that my connections are with the right Spirits.

It’s no use to someone that I give a message from a random stranger. I know that we pay less attention to what strangers say. And I also know that people get great comfort from knowing that their loved ones are still around. Any connection therefore has to be with someone who can give me the kind of factual information that a loved one would know. Vague bits of partial memories or circumstances won’t do. I expect my family in Spirit to know all about me and to bring that knowledge with them. They also know key pieces of information that mean a lot to me.

If I expect that standard of facts it’s fair that I do my best to provide it in my messages for others. Of course not every message will be perfect or as good as I would wish it. But I also choose to break the link if a basic level of factual information doesn’t appear to be there. Checking out my connection, the Spirit communicator and the evidence being brought forward is the key, I feel, to a positive and well received message. Perhaps it’s my desire to be down to Earth in my approach that has made me set things out this way. But in the service for Spirit I would rather people get informaed of how the communication process works than be mis-informed by what happens.

I have ways believed in the ‘educated sitter’. That is, the person who believes in checking things out when getting their message. Facts are a great way to do that. So make sure you ask for, and get, as much factual information as possible.

Day 616 of my blogging challenge 

Deeper Dreams: Getting Help to Clear the Past

Dreams of releaseOver the last week I’ve been having deep dreams. Plenty of them. Tangled recollections of my past in this life. With elements thrown in that I don’t recognise. All seeming to take me back to other times.

Yet, at the same time, these dreams contain symbols of travel. Cars, trains, a large ship, even a bicycle. I recognise that I’m being reminded I’m on a journey. Though it seems, at this particular point, that in my outer life I feel a bit becalmed. Stalled in some way. Definitely waiting for something to happen. Perhaps feeling the weight of the World too much. Of course I’m plodding along in a way. I’m taking each day as it arrives and doing my best to do what I feel is right for that day. But the bigger picture is missing right now. My focus seems to have shifted to re-examining my past experiences.

So along come the dreams. Not necessarily bad dreams. Because they take me back doesn’t mean I’ve got problems with what has happened in my past. But I awake from each one with a slightly different understanding of what might have been happening back then. I see that I was given lots of choice. There were times when I decided things, for all the wrong reasons, that somehow turned out right. By linking back in the dreams I’m being reminded that somehow I have made progress. Each phase of my life has allowed me to travel a new path. By doing that I have learned so much about being human.

My dreams are also showing me the times when I felt overwhelmed by being in charge of my own destiny. Even the times when my dreams crashed and burned.

When I didn’t honour my needs, dreams and abilities. And when I resisted asking for, or receiving, help with my burdens. Even if they were the ones I had created for myself. Because I can always ask for help. Or take some time to work it out with the help of other people and Energy Beings. It is possible to lighten my load. If I can find a hearer, companions to share with or those who can sustain me. I can also, with loving kindness, hand back any burdens I have taken on that really belong to others.

My dreams belong to me. I can’t manifest any for someone else. When I go into these deep dreams I’m also being reminded that each of us has to follow their own path with their own purpose. So the people who pop up in my dream have to be allowed to move forward with their own dream. Shouldering their own burden. I can help by giving them loving kindness. But it will be up to them if they receive and use it to lighten their load. In the end we might find that we have do-created a shared dream. That would be a wonderful outcome. But I’m also being reminded it’s not the only option.

I am embracing these deep dreams. I am revisiting, once again, who I am and what I have to offer. Ready for that moment when the tide turns. And my ship sails again. I’m going to be navigating to a new place. A place of more dreams.

Day 615 of my blogging challenge 

Mental Wellbeing: Time To Think Energy

For the last 20 years I’ve been passionate about mental health. Why we have difficulties that affect our minds. And what we can do to help ourselves have mental wellbeing.

This is a cause close to my heart. In my younger days I had two bouts of clinical depression dealt with by antidepressants and counselling. The tablets helped the first time but not the second. The counselling got me through both. That’s why I decided to move into being a counsellor. However the reality of care for people with a range of ‘mental health’ issues is more about good people trying to help in a system that frustrates the nature of counselling. The talking therapy isn’t really that. It’s a listening therapy. It takes time and patience as it works through the relationship rather than the verbal offloading.

And it’s not helped by the idea that a mind has stopped being healthy and needs a ‘cure’.

I also found that working within current models of mental issues pulled me into targets, waiting times and cost/benefit debates. With a small private practice reaching only those who had private or insurance means I diversified all over the place hoping to do some good. Now I come at mental health for a very different perspective. My spiritual journey has taught me to see things in terms of energy flows, energy imbalances and emotional energy. It’s time for us to open up to the reasons why so many of us get sad beyond bearing. To recognise that we have lost the meaning of being alive. That frustration and helplessness drive hope away. And to see that anger turned inwards is the seat of depression.

It’s also time to understand that hearing voices isn’t necessarily an illness. Or seeing things either. Mental wellbeing can encompass all of our intuitive senses working alongside our physical senses.

I’d love to get the DSM V, the diagnostic manual that lists all the accepted mental ailments, diseases and syndromes, and rip it to bits. The drug industry and the healthcare industry make billions out of this manual of mental health dis-eases. Where is the compassionate understanding and support that will help people pull through the dark times? Who talks about energy, intuition and spirituality so that people find hope again? When will we stop accepting that mental illness is ok so long as it happens to someone else. And we don’t have to see or deal with it.

Perhaps it’s time to encourage everyone to pay attention to mental wellbeing.

I have alsways believed that labelling something is only useful if that produces a positive outcome where the best help is given . When it impacts in a negative way it’s time to stop applying the label and think again. Labels call to mind the bit in Alice In Wonderland when she is presented with a bottle saying ‘drink me’ and a cake saying ‘eat me’. Both labels had drastic consequences until she put the instructions into the right order. Then they made sense. But she still ended up swimming in her own tears. When someone defines themselves by the label they have been given I always ask if it empowers them. Or do they let that definition define them.

Many people find me because they are questioning their own mental health. Theyare seeing and hearing things they have been told don’t exsist. Yet it’s happened in to them.

They believe they are developing an illness in the mind. They are scared. Mostly because of stereotypical perceptions of mental illness. That’s when I talk about mental wellbeing. I ask them to focus on all of the things that their mind does in it’s usual way. Then we talk about the changes that are new. In that conversation I am able to validate their experiences. More importantly I can explain why they are having those experiences. I’m able to describe what connecting to non-physical beings is like. Sharing my personal experiences I can reassure then that we are both as sane as each other.

Except we are now living in a different reality than what we had before.

I can also help them to understand that their mental status is affected by the energy they find themselves in. Communicating non verbally with others is an intuitive flow. An exchange of aura energy. I can access information about state of mind, feelings, experiences by linking into another person’s aura. It’s there for me to ‘read’. They can also access mine if I let them. Understanding this exchange of energy is the first step in realising how Energy Beings can communicate with us. They exchange energy too. When someone takes the time to listen to the intuitive information from energy flows they often realise that half of what they are feeling and thinking isn’t actually theirs.

This has a great significance for mental wellbeing. What if I’m depressed because I’m carrying someone else’s anger or sadness? As well as my own?

We all do it. Through our connections we take on the energy others pass to us. And we pass ours on to others. I know that’s ok if what is being shared is positive. But what if it’s not? I do a lot of work with people who are weighed down by low vibrational energy they have collected from others. They often feel like they are stuck. Trapped in low moods. Wondering if they are suffering from mental problems. Often I find that the low vibrational energy got stuck years and years ago. So they have been holding onto emotions and judgements that could have been cleared already.

I also know that you can’t let go of stuck energy until you know that it’s there and what it is.

Or know that it’s not your own feelings and thoughts. Setting my sights on mental wellbeing gives me the room to consider my mental state as an inbalance in my energy flow. Have I taken on too much for others? Given away all too much of my positive energy? Do I set up protective boundaries around my aura to limit the energy I take on from the rest of the world? Have I found and plugged into positive energy flows so my energy batteries stay fully charged? All of these questions help me to consider my mental state in a proactive way. Answering them will lead to to the practical steps that are required to rebalance my energy.

It’s time to open up to a new understanding of our world. Putting an understanding of energy exchanges at the heart of our mental wellbeing. And to respect our mental capacity as an evolving model that needs more pieces added to it.

Day 583 of my blogging challenge