Travelling ever northward: in search of a new land!

I’ve been up and about since five am this morning. Taking a series of trains to get over to the Orkney isles. Further north than I’ve ever been. Heading northward to discover a new land.

Yet I also feel called to this place. Perhaps I’m about to discover one of my past lives? Before heading northward I’ve had several days of a niggling anxiety. Everything has been planned. But I couldn’t help feeling that something was going to go wrong. The fact that everything has gone so smoothly today has been a great delight. After all what could really go wrong? What was I imagining? I’m not even sure I know now I’m nearing the end off this all day journey. We have even been blessed with a calm sea. Great for someone like me who suffers sea sickness if the waves look like they are going to be higher than three inches.

So what is the journey northward about? It started when I watched a TV programme about an archeological dig on Orkney.

At a place called the Ness of Brodgar. A site that apparently pre dates the pyramids and Stonehenge. Older than Ggantija in Malta. That caught my attention. I’ve been to Malta to the temple several times. And visited the Hypogeum temple too. The sense of Divine Feminine energy was very strong in Malta. I wondered if it would be the same in Orkney. Then they suggested that the stone circles, like the one called the Ring of Brodgar, were the first known monuments of this kind in the country. The circles spread from Orkney down the rest of the UK.

Of course it made perfect sense that I wanted to see and sense for myself if there was any Goddess energy still left in these places. The waves of energy around us at the moment are returning out focus to our own feminine energy. As human beings we have both feminine and masculine energy in all of us. A part to create and a part to make that creation real. I know we have been stuck in the ‘making it real’ part for far too long. For thousands of years creativity has been hedged about with structures that hinder the intuitive leaps forward that are at the very heart of that creativity. It’s become very hard to think the unthinkable. Let alone make sure it happens.

This northward journey can help me connect back to a different point of creativity. If I can step into that ancient energy.

That is the key. If there is a past life connection of any kind I hope to release any karmic patterns that prevent me from accessing my creativity. I’d also like to tune into the background energy to understand where these more northward peoples came from. What their history and heritage was. That’s why I’m excited about going to see the dig site. And I never know what else I might be asked to do. The fact that I’m going tells me that the Spirit World will most likely have a bit of work for me to do too. Probably on myself. But I never know. I might be there for service to someone else too.

Yes it is a holiday. Some time out for me. But I love my work with my Guides. They are taking me northward because they know I will enjoy it. And if they feel they can kill two birds with one stone, so to speak, they will certainly do do. I feel like this long journey is all part of the process. We could have flown here. Or had an overnight stop. But when I was planning the trip I thought about the journey our ancestors must have made. In boats on the open and uncertain North Sea. No power but the wind in the sails and oars if becalmed. It must have been a much more epic journey than today.

Northward it is then. Adventure awaits. I’m ready to explore.

Day 598 of my blogging challenge

My Tattoo: an Infinity of Lives

img_2235Today I completed something that has taken 18 years. I got my second tattoo. Another personal reminder of my life’s achievements.

I remember my Dad’s reaction to my news that I was getting a tattoo at the age of forty. He though I was mad. Dad said to me ‘You know it’s for life’. He was so off balance at the idea of his daughter with a tattoo that I don’t think he saw the funny side of his comment. I did. My Mum was a bit calmer but also thought I was mad. They grew up in a generation where body art was only for rough, tough guys and prisoners. An ink portrait was a sign of low status. Yet I knew I wanted to commemorate the conscious start of my personal development.  The Raven I opted for celebrated my decision to become a therapeutic counsellor.

It also represented my desire to embrace the Goddess energy that I had denied for most of my life. Stepping into connection with the Divine Feminine was important for me. I needed to work out and balance who I was. In fact my journey into being a counsellor was inspired by the collapse of my corporate life. I knew it was time to make deep changes within. Exploring how to help others gave me access to lots of ideas about how to help myself. You could say that I’ve been developing aspects of myself ever since then. Now, eighteen years later, I have reached another level of development.

Today I opted to have body art representing Ouroboros – the World Snake or Infinity – on my arm. I want to acknowledge that life continues eternally in all it’s forms.

Working with the Spirits and Energy Beings I have been able to expand my understanding of why I am here as well as who I am. Alongside my passion for making sense of my past lives I look forward to the new lives I will live after this one. I also look forward to the new beginnings that will arise in this life. As I shed each snake skin and evolve it’s exciting to think about all the surprises that are in store. What new patterns will I develop? Which are the ways I will best serve myself and others? How can I help people to appreciate that we are infinite beings of Light?

The Snake and Ouroboros are ancient symbols of one of my past lives too. Having my tattoo where I can remind myself of the fluid nature of past, present, future is also about reminding me that Ego is a dead end for humanity. Spiritual progress comes only when I recognise my Spirit Within and express that in the way I live. I’m moving firmly from my phase of personal development into a new cycle that is my grown up spiritual development. Of course there has been some overlap with both. My new body art is my promise to myself that it’s time to expand and grow much more. I feel it is the culmination of the work of many lives to reach this cliff. I’m prepared to step off into a new ascension journey.

Day 337 of my blogging challenge.

Celebrating the Divine Feminine

imageToday’s blog has slid over into the First of May, the celebration of Beltane by Celtic tradition, marking the beginning of summer and the desire for abundance through fertility. May Day also honoured the feminine and masculine energies by uniting couples in hand fasting relationships for a period of time. The sharing of the pleasure of making babies belongs to both but the pain of giving birth rests only with women. Celebrating the change of seasons, the creative force of the Divine Feminine and the recognition that abundance flows if you honour this energy were a key part of the rituals of Beltaine. As I moved through my day it certainly reflected these themes.

Two mums, both at different stages in their adjustment to becoming mums, came into the Centre. They were trying to find their feet amongst all of the well meaning but contradictory advice they were being given. The urge to follow their intuition was really strong but the books, their partners and often friends had differing suggestions. I felt sad that these two women had been left so uncertain of their intuitive knowing that they doubted themselves. They were experiencing motherhood as a disempowering state instead of the joy of being creative, fertile women. Where was celebration of all the ways they were nurturing happy children? Where was the encouragement that their babies would grow up ok so long as they were loved and nourished by that love? Instead, confidence has been replaced by anxiety.

In the same afternoon I had a lovely discussion about the Course in Miracles. Although the course refers to God I believe it can equally be understood by referring to Goddess. The course talks about awakening to the realisation that the Divine spark is inside all of us. We are not actually a separate individual but enfolded in the totality of that which we have identified as Divine. For me it seems perfectly logical that the Divine source will therefore encompass both feminine and masculine energy. Since we can experience both kinds of energy it’s important to be celebrating both of these inner flows. Yet much of our spirituality is still based in acknowledging the masculine energy of the Divine only. The wonderfully creative spark of Divine Feminine energy is mostly excluded from our discussions and practices around how to be a spiritual being.

That leads me on to the third thing that caught my attention. I have been aware since I was nine that everyone talked about God as a masculine being pronouncing paternally on all aspects of women’s lives. As I explored other religions and avenues of spirituality it seemd that even those with multiple Gods and Goddesses gave the lead to the masculine deities. I’ve recently picked up a thread of knowledge I began to explore in my teenage years. So I was reading a book by Lynn Picknett, one of many authors to write about Mary Magdalene, where she explores the creation story many people use as the basis for their attitudes in life. It is interesting that in the story of the garden of Eden God gave Eve the pain of birth because she had temped Adam. He also placed the idea of ‘sin’ with women as our responsibility for being able to tempt Adam. Interestingly enough these attitudes captured in an old book have become the bedrock for the way women are treated. Celebrating Goddess energy has therefore become something to be suppressed, denied or ignored. Much like the fate of women for centuries.

One of the things that I ask my Guides about a lot is how we can change this denial of the Divine feminine.  What will my daughter’s daughter’s daughter make of it all. Will she still be told what to wear, who she can be with and where it is safe for her to go? Will she approach the birth of her daughter feeling anxious, disempowered and believing that childbirth has to be a painful experience. Will she be free to learn as much as she wishes, work where she wants and be paid as if her work is of equal value to the men she works with. Will she be praised for raising the next generation of citizens and rewarded accordingly? Will she be free to love whom she wants for as long as she wants? They always throw these questions back at me. They ask me what am I doing to make changes so that this child of the future will inherit a brighter world. They have a rule – there is no interference in the way we operate our free will choices. So it’s up to me and the women of the world to start celebrating the Divine femenine.

That is where my day ended up. I went to a gala performance at the Hebden Bridge Burlesque Festival. I sat in an audience of probably 60% women as we enjoyed the positive energy of women who were perfroming with pride and passion. They had applied their creative energy to displaying positive body images, love of the skin they were in, and joy at being able to share the true beauty of being a woman. Celebrating the sensual nature of being female, something stripped away by religious condemnation of women as sinners, the freedom to be who they chose to be and the power of empowerment these performers are helping to change the perception of women as women.

Interestingly there is still a great deal of misunderstanding about burlesque and a lot of it comes from women. Sadly celebrating having a body that gives and gets pleasurable sensations is still under heading of ‘bad’. The assumptions underlying this view centre around the idea that men are weak minded, have no control over their physical urges and therefore it’s the woman who has to be hidden so as not to tempt the man. Burlesque is definitely not hidden. Burlesque is a glorious celebration all all things feminine. It connects women to their sensual nature by encouraging the love of your own body. There is a freedom within burlesque that has been hidden. It is a statement of women being women and ‘playing’ the paternal system. Celebrating the Divine Feminine means looking for the Goddess within and bringing her into the outer world. Here’s to all those Goddesses who were in Todmorden tonight sharing the positive feminine creative energy.

Day 166 of my blogging challenge. 

ArchAngel Love

It’s been a funny old day! The sunshine this morning was the promise that Spring is here. Yet the niggles of old, stuck energy kept popping up as if to say ‘do you love yourself enough?’ In the end the loving embrace of an ArchAngel brought me through the shadows into my true radiance. Love is in and around us all the time if only we choose to look for it. So before I explain more I want to share that love with you.

Earth's ArchAngel Tiphoniel

Earth’s ArchAngel Tiphoniel

Tonight I visited a local mediation group in Saltaire to share with them the energy of two of the Earth’s ArchAngels, Comeliel and Tiphoniel. Comeliel, the Keeper of Records, works with me now in my Past Life work. She has been helping me to bring forward the present life soul purpose of each person I read for. The sequence of lives we have brought into this one helps steer us to the best path for evolving our Spirit vibration. She weaves the information together with loving insight. Tonight she helped people to become aware that growth happens even in a life that might appear barren or a disaster. That our resistance to feelings, thoughts and experiences helps us to notice the wisdoms hidden behind that resistance. If we are reluctant that is ok because change will happen sometime in this life, or the next time we are human or the one after that. Our ascension will and already has happened.

Then it was the turn of the ArchAngel who connects us all with the Divine Mother. Tiphoniel brings unconditional love to combat our fear of appearing selfish. She works through tough love too. When we are frightened to try something or change ourselves she is the gentle but firm force who keeps bringing the issues back in front of us. I worked in a trance state during this silent mediation as she wanted everyone present to receive the love for themselves first. On the spiritual path we sometimes run away with the idea that we have to give unconditional love to everyone else. We put ourselves at the bottom of a long list and become unused to receiving the love in return. Tiphoniel brought the love to us so that we could receive without giving it away to others in the way we assume we ought.

As I drove home the Moon, another symbol of the Divine Feminine and the planet with a strong connection to Tiphoniel, was lighting my way in a clear sky. The clouds of the day have been cleared through Divine Love and I feel ready to shine my Light once more. Love really is the answer to life, the Universe and everything ?

Day 130 of my blogging challenge.

Ostara – the Spring forward

Etain - Goddess Knowledge Cards

Etain – Goddess Knowledge Cards

One of the ways in which we can mark the turning of the year is to see the shortening and lengthening of the hours of daylight. The Solstice and Equinox points help us to notice how much light and dark each day contains. In older traditions the seasonal changes in the amount of light are also marked by their association with Goddess energy. Ostara is a Germanic Goddess associated with the return of the Spring light. As the day grows longer in light the fertility of the plants and animals increases and it is time to plant ready for the longer hours of sunshine. In some traditions the festivals around the spring equinox have become known as Easter and the mythology is of the man who dies and rises again.

There are other Goddesses who predate or run alongside the God mythology of Spring Equinox. One of my favourite is Etain, the shining one, who was a Celtic moon Goddess. Though a series of misfortunes, including dying and being reborn, she is destined to spend half of her year underground and half above the surface. She is therefore, in her risen state, a symbol of fertility, of the vitality of all growing things. This echoes the myth of Persephone, the Greek Goddess who spent Winter in the underworld taking the life of the growing world with her. And even further back, for the Sumerian people the Goddess who spent half her time in the land of the dead was Inanna. She returned once again in the Spring to bring new life and a temporary triumph over death. So whether you favour Ostara, Etain, Persephone or Inanna, there is a tradition dating back many thousands of years that links the return of new life on the Earth with the Divine Goddess energy.

Spring is the signal to clear out the old energy of Winter, to emerge from the retreat into solitude around the hearth fire and to begin the work of manifesting the new growth in all areas of our life. If we attune to Nature we notice the buds on the trees, the frog spawn, the daffodils starting to open. Cautious at first, for a stray frost may still hold the warmth of the daytime sun back, the Northern Hemisphere awakens. In the Southern Hemisphere it is time to gather the harvest and prepare for Winter. And that is the most wonderful thing of all. We have two sides to our planet. We have a system where one side grows as the other rests. We need never be hungry as growth is always going on. A complete solution to all of our basic needs of only we realised and organised it to be so.

I always feel at my most creative in the Spring. My Guides bring me new ideas, challenges and opportunities. I love to grab all that is on offer even if it may be some time before I get the fruits from all of my work. I also enjoy acknowledging the return of the Divine Feminine energy as it flows back in to plain sight. No longer hidden inside (underneath or below) the emergence of my creative voice and action is a way of honouring the part of myself that is more visible in the world in Spring. It’s hard to step outside of the conditioning that women have faced, the casual but insidious pressure to be and behave in certain ways. Each Goddess reminds us that there is a trade off for being a creative force; that at times we have to withdraw and await the turning of the seasons.  Finally it is our season. It’s time to spring forward with all the positivity you can muster. Enjoy your opportunity to create the new, fresh, energy for the world. Share your inner Divine Goddess connections with everyone as you make, do, feel and think all of the newness into your life.

Day 125 of my blogging challenge.

Twelve: Radiating the Light

Ascension1Are you noticing twelve? Do numbers around you add up to twelve all the time? Once you start noticing numbers it can become an intreaguing habit. I love numerology. I adore how numbers creep in everywhere. It’s amazing that the Universe is built of numbers. Our planetary vibration has been 9 for a long time – the number of completion & triple creativity. Three represents all of creation, our creativity and manifesting new creative choices. However, the vibration is slowly changing to 12 – comprising of the number of creation (3) and the number of the angels (4) who represent Divine Radiance. This is an Ascension process in which we are a strong part as we can create and manifest more Light. It’s time for the intuitive, Divine feminine energy to come into effect. This means we are being challenged to let go of old ways of feeling, thinking and doing.

Not an easy task. Life appears simpler when we think we are in control of our destiny. What we haven’t realised is that our beliefs have turned into mechanisms that control our creativity, our intuitive connection with the Divine source and drive us to stay safely within the comfort zone we have established for ourselves. New models of living together as a global community are being put in front of use. From the smallest group situations (families, employment, education) to larger issues of the equal rights of all humans to food, shelter, compassion and growth (countries, economic zones, law & industries). In all of these we are being asked to shine more of our Light. We are being requested to find creative ways to honour the needs of the whole of humanity. We are also being challenged to balance our needs against those of our planetary home and all the other life that exists here. No small task then.

There are things we can do. I believe that our ability to shine our Light, to become  more radiant, can be increased when we pay attention to our intuitive senses. I also believe that the radiance of the Angels is here to help us receive more of the Divine Light. We can receive their energy to help us remove anything that has dimmed our own spark. But you don’t have to believe in Angels to clean up your act. The energy vibration from twelve is calling on you to make more creative choices. To generate compassionate creative solutions that will help the people around you to also move forward. I’ve written before about finding your ‘tribe’. I’m fortunate to have many creative people connected with me. The Light they shine inspires me. We collaborate on projects to increase the radiance (whether for the Earth, the animal kingdom or for humanity) so that, bit by bit, other will be encouraged to shine their inner Light too. Have a look around you today. Notice the twelves and allow your intuition to connect you to your creative flow. Who knows what will happen when you step onto the Ascension path.

Day 120 of my blogging challenge (a four!)

Divine Mother Love

34026_1148385487374_8302252_n-2Some Mothers are good, some Mothers are bad and some Mothers are mostly a mixture. We experience being the child of a mother whether she is in our life or not. And women experience being a Mother whether we are with our children or not. Some mothers loose their children & some children loose their mothers. Some children walk away from their mothers and some mothers walk away from their children. When someone hands you that small, vulnerable bundle and says this is your child it can be overwhelming. Mother love isn’t quite as instinctive as it’s made out to be. Some women choose not to be mothers at all. For lots of reasons, none  of them selfish or unnatural, some women use their creative energy in different way. And some women who choose not to have a child look after many, many children. Then there are those women who desperately want their own child and can’t have one. Mother is one of our fundamental concepts but it’s a far from straightforward one.

All of these ‘shades of motherhood’ exist because we are a species who reproduces with male & female participants. If we only had one way of being then whoever had a child would still face the same range of choices, dilemmas, fears and joys. And judgements. There are fads & fashions about how to be the best mother to a child. There are studies that try to determine which type of mother will meet the child’s needs best. Mothers are at the head of the queue when a child is looking for someone to blame. Mothers send their child out into the wild world eventually (or not!) and that is another reason for a child to turn into an adult who fails to appreciate the favour his mother did for him. Mothers soak up all the responsibility. They often take on much more when their own daughter has a child too. Yet we find it hard to praise mothers – except on Mothers Day. Perhaps it’s only the loss of a mother that brings home the real value that love and nurture from another person brings.

That’s another point. What we get from our ideal mother is unconditional love and nurturing. To nurture someone is to care for and protect another whilst they are growing. So many other people in our lives might step into our mother’s shoes – a favourite teacher, a grandmother, a father, a sister or brother, a partner or friend – the list can be endless. As children we often search out people who will care for us and nurture us like our birth mother did (if we knew her) or like the person who stepped into our birth mother’s shoes when she stepped out. In adulthood we repeat the patterns of that mother & child relationship. If we are the ‘mother’ we provide something that the ‘child’ wants. If we are the ‘child’ we receive whatever we have chosen that nurturer for. However, being the mother or child in this kind of way when you are both adults mostly leads to difficult, co-dependant relationships, unless both people are very clear about the underlying parent/child dynamic.

Today I was channelling for Earth’s ArchAngel Tiphoniel. She is the Guardian Angel of the Solar system who represents Divine Mother Love. She came around me because I’m a mother faced with decisions about how to do the best for my child. The decisions aren’t only mine. Others are involved in all the discussions. Yet I carried this the person, I fed her and I watched her first faltering steps in this world. I’m still watching as she steps further and further away from me. Some of the things that are happening are based on other people’s judgements of me as a mother. Because they are judging my child and I am the one who has nurtured her to be the way she is. Of course she has her own personality & nature. People are now finding that a challenge because she is old enough to speak for herself. So I certainly needed some guidance from somewhere this morning.

I shared Tiphoniel’s wonderful words on my Facebook page as she asked me to do. It’s amazing how many people have appreciated that post. It seems to strike a chord. When did we loose the connection to the Divine Mother?

We have all stepped into the waning Moon period and may be finding it hard to let go of what we once valued or dreamed about. ArchAngel Tiphoniel, resonating with the love of the Divine Mother, is stepping forward to enfold you in that love.
Let her wings carry you high above your worries and woes. Let her serene smile lift your Spirits and sooth your mind. She is here to remind you that everything is unfolding exactly as it should. Like a child when we push against the energy flow of life and are knocked back she is here like a mother to teach us another way.
She is sending you encouragement, strength and courage. Be brave. Explore the world without fear as once you did in childhood. It is the right time to look for the wonderful blessings that are flowing your way. 

She is with me now as I write this blog. She wants us to recognise something that is often overlooked in the West. We cannot have a God without a Goddess. We have assumed that the Divine is one gender (male) but we must make room for the other gender (female) too. In fact, the best way to understand the Divine from an angel’s point of view is as an energy with no gender at all. Since that wouldn’t resonate with our dualistic energy flows in our experience of the Divine we need to understand God and Goddess. Our connection to the Divine is felt when receiving the unconditional care and nurturing of both Goddess and God. To deny ourselves the experience of the Divine Feminine lessens our own understanding of motherhood. If we don’t understand motherhood in it’s fullest, Divine sense, whether we are actually mothers or not, then our childhood and our children will be warped, missing the compassion, protection, encouragement and creativity that flows with the feminine side of the Divine nature. Be kinder to yourself – the child and mother within you is an aspect of the Divine Goddess. Open up to the flow of her unconditional love. Help others to find the Divine Feminine within themselves – especially your children – so that we can all embrace her gifts to humanity.

Day 102 of my blogging challenge.