New Directions: Relationships In 2018

New Tonight I returned to a favourite group of mine. New Directions meets once a month in Halifax, West Yorkshire. It is a place for people to share healing, access spiritual info and listen to great speakers. I was supposed to attend in January but the weather postponed it until after the Chinese New Year. But, of course, I know everything happens for a reason! And I want to share my talk about 2018.

“Thank you for asking me to talk to the group again. It’s always lovely to return and share my understanding of the energy for the year to come. I’m actually rather interested that my talk was moved from January to February, to fall after the start of the Chinese New Year of the Dog, my birth year. I’m an Earth Dog and I suspect this talk is being given now to help us all ground into the Divine Feminine energy that has started to flow more strongly that it has since the 1960’s.

Of course we are stepping into another Aquarian age. Depending on the dating system used this can be any time from the Industrial Revolution until now. Or some years hence. See Wikipedia for a more detailed explanation. The influence of Aquarius brings electricitycomputers, flight, democracy, freedom, humanitarianismidealismmodernization, astrology, nervous disorders, rebellion, nonconformity, philanthropy, veracity, perseverance, humanity, and irresolution. I support the common position expressed by many astrologers. Astrology sees the Age of Aquarius as that time when humanity takes control of the Earth and its own destiny as its rightful heritage, with the destiny of humanity being the revelation of truth and the expansion of consciousness, and that some people will experience mental enlightenment in advance of others and therefore be recognized as the new leaders in the world. 

I think of this influence as four corner stones: energy, free will, personal responsibility and community. In this new energy our understanding of these in relation to our ways of living will increase.

I believe these strands will be unmissable during 2018 as the boost of Divine Feminine energy pushes us to tackle how we relate to one another. In my communications with Guides it seems it is both a creative and collaborative energy bringing before us the challenge to change our relationships. So that we can co-create a more harmonious world. This doesn’t mean the rise of women over men. I believe it actually means that all of us will be learning to better express our own feminine energy – something that women and men both have – in ways that are assertive and strong. Together the whole of the human race can greatly improve our lives and our connections with Mother Earth. Who is also going through this process with us at the moment.

In seeking to understand how this will affect us it is always best to go from the heart and with the intention to do the right thing. Manifesting (making it so) becomes so much easier. But ‘what you give out you get back’ also becomes more prominent. Since 2008 we have been asked to consider what energy we are putting into the ‘system’. At the end of this cycle in 2018 all that you have given will return. With interest. There is a strong ‘tough love’ vibe coming from the angelic community, especially the Earth’s Guardian Angels. See each return of energy as an opportunity to correct your energy and to return to heart centred living.

There will also be a great need for healing. We cannot function in collaborative relationships until we release the Us/Them split, the disempowerment and lack of love for our fellow beings.

Switch on your self-healing. Start with yourself. Then offer healing out to others too. Listen to the words of Desiderata. It is a good starting point. There are many other inspirational words waiting to be heard. Pay attention and listen. Then work to understand how those words can be translated into living a spiritual life. Each one of us has the seeds of greatness within. It is for each of us to find and magnify those seeds, to energise them and help them grow. Greatness does not mean Ego. Greatness is the freedom of the Spirit Within to shine it’s Light along with all others and offer love, compassion and gratitude to and for all things.

The Impact of Divine Feminine Energy Month By Month Using The  Lunar Calendar (Channelled from the Energy Beings)

Use the New Moon to Full Moon (waxing/growing) for asking for dreams and wishes or energising the requests you have already sent out. Use the Full Moon to next New Moon (waning/shrinking) for letting go of what no longer serves you.

15/02/18 New Moon 02/03/18 Full Moon

Inner work: Where are you lacking in love for yourself. Examples will arise to show you the ‘voice’ or script that you keep repeating to put yourself down. There may be challenges. You may find that you are reluctant to say what you mean for fear of causing conflict, in case your words may be hurtful or because you are not used to speaking as you find. Do your best to let go of assumptions and judgements about how you will be heard or understood. Relationships can only strengthen when they are build on truth and trust. Take a risk and say what you feel.

Outer work: There is a great deal of fear and uncertainty as the pattern set in 2008 is about to come back. Be aware of all things financial – not because there will be a crash but because that is what people fear. Stay calm and grounded about your own finances and resources. Remember that the Universe always provides exactly what is needed at exactly the right time. To the penny if necessary. Steer clear of the drama others are creating.

17/03/18 New Moon 31/03/18 Full Moon

Inner work: Review your use of words. Can you express your feelings about yourself in more helpful and kinder ways? Have you identified what you are actually feeling and do you name it to yourself? This month opportunities will arise to understand the energy of your own feelings. When people mirror them for you accept the information with gratitude and remember not to shoot the messenger. Mastery of feelings brings focus in all things.

Outer work: What a grumpy month! In all relationships we must learn boundaries and respect. However it can be hard to hold to boundaries. And to respect that every single being has a place in this wonderful creation. Notice where you are relying on stereotypes. Give everyone the permission to be who they need to be right now. And remember not to take it personally. It’s not about your behaviour. It’s about their inner challenges.

16/04/18 New Moon 30/04/18 Full Moon

Inner work: You may feel a little raw and uncertain. Change always makes us wonder if we are heading in the right direction. This is the month to make sure you are grounded and balanced. Check that you are achieving inner harmony by a careful blend of creativity and manifesting. Give room to both sides of your nature so that you can make plans. There is more clarity within you. And you are ready to acknowledge your bigger dreams.

Outer work: There is an awful lot of talk but perceptibly little action going on around you. It’s as if all the ills of the world are being identified but no one is working to deal with them. There is an absence of hope. In the best relationships we can acknowledge the point where things seem most stuck. Ask questions. Get people talking. Share your feelings and thoughts. Discussions can become inspirations. Remember stuckness can shift.

15/05/18 New Moon 29/05/18 Full Moon

Inner work: As we head into a new season it’s time to enjoy more love. Make sure you are taking time for yourself. Rest as much as possible. Be easy in letting things happen in the perfect time. You are being asked to understand that birthing the new takes time. Divine time. Be gentle with yourself when you feel you should be pushing ahead. The longer you wait the more your energy will grow. Work on your confidence. Believe in yourself and your abilities. Have everything ready to go when the moment is right.

Outer work: Everything is suddenly rush and bustle. However too much impatience actually slows manifesting down. Or stops it. Be the steady one in the relationship giving reassurance. Spread calm and peace. Refuse to engage in panic or dismay.

13/06/18 New Moon 28/06/18 Full Moon

Inner work: Let your imagination run wild. Think of all the ways you can improve your connection to others. Be brave and try them all out. All the while letting your true self be more visible. Rejections do happen but they are more about the other person than you. Look around you. There are many people on your wavelength if you are prepared to see them.

Outer work: Fear peaks again. People are being reminded of the uncertainty that is life. Dramatic events may throw you the test of being a leader to others. In all relationships there is a time when you have to lead. It’s likely to be this month. Don’t step back. Step forward. Help others to rebalance themselves. Show them how to do it.

13/07/18 New Moon 27/07/18 Full Moon

Inner work: It is time to get comfortable with all of your abilities. This month you may feel the urge to do lots of new things. Try them. Let yourself explore what you can do rather than what you believe you can’t. You are coming into blossom, ready to add more to your world than you have ever imagined.

Outer work: The debates are turning from talk to action. Don’t be surprised that others are showing you a new picture of yourself and their relationship with you. Give the energy between you time to grow. Acknowledge each other’s abilities as openly as you can. Give praise, feedback and thank you’s.

11/08/18 New Moon 26/08/18 Full Moon

Inner work: You are growing stronger in acknowledging yourself, balancing your needs against the needs of others more easily. Try not to be tempted to give endlessly to others again. Remember the balance of give and take is vital to a thriving relationship. Release any person, situation or circumstance where the only thing happening is taking.

Outer work: As people adapt more to giving and taking some old language has to be replaced with new words. Pay attention to the words you use to others. Invest them with compassion and kindness. Give your support rather than advice or instruction. Encourage them to return the give by being open to receive.

09/09/18 New Moon 25/09/18 Full Moon

Inner work: The start of a month of endings and completion. In each relationship there are many endings as the relationship thrives or falls. Be aware that you are being asked to end any relationship that no longer sustains you. Including your own relationship with yourself. Use the power of endings as a way to transform your relationship with yourself.

Outer work: All around thing seem to be ending. Uncertainty is at it’s peak. People are anxious and you may find your words falling on deaf ears. This is the time to stay quiet and composed within yourself. Give the other person room to review the relationship and be ready to help them let go of it. Remember that grief is a natural part of letting go too. Make room for that grief and sorrow to be expressed.

09/10/18 New Moon 24/10/18 Full Moon

Inner work: The energy shifts rapidly. Radical changes are happening. You feel a new freedom to be yourself. You are embracing your strengths and your ability to share yourself with others. It is time to put yourself to work sharing all of your wisdom. Talk, discuss, debate. Feel the creative Divine Feminine flow and feed your imagination.

Outer work: There is a big sigh of relief. The worst still hasn’t happened. People feel able to carry on living. There is a better ability to cope with uncertainty. Relationships that were rocky are now on firmer ground. There is a sense of community emerging. A feel of not being alone and up against it. Make connections for people whenever you can. Help them to sense the bigger picture for humanity.

07/11/18 New Moon 23/11/18 Full Moon

Inner work: It’s time to recognise your ability to make connections in a much more focused way. You can imagine and manifest positive outcomes. You are better at solving problems and moving things forward. Without noticing it you have stepped into your spiritual mission. Keep on track by continuing to love yourself.

Outer work: It is time to suggest collaborations. People are more willing to listen and understand. There are going to be new ways of doing things and you can contribute so much to this wave of energy. Show people how to live from heart centred conciseness. There are many opportunities to empower all of the people you relate to. Be creative!

07/12/18 New Moon 22/12/18 Full Moon

Inner work: Having stepped into collaborative relationships the next step is to forgive yourself for anything you feel has not gone right. Mistakes happen so that we can learn and progress. You will find lots of feedback coming your way about what went well. And what didn’t. Use this feedback to check that you are doing your best. There is no perfect. Good enough is good enough. So don’t take these messages from the Universe, whatever way they arrive, as criticism. Use them as seeds for your next period of growth.

Outer work: This is a month of reflection. A time of refocusing on what is really important in life. You will find there is a stronger sense of community, everyone pulling together and helping one another. Stay proactive. Add your voice to the reflection. Share what you feel you have learned about relationships. Suggest the ideas you have developed about making better connections with one another. Above all, let your voice be heard. Your loving, trusting, wise voice. Believe in yourself and others and the power of change. It can happen if you are prepared to make it so.

Day 817 of my blogging challenge

Birthing A New You: Pangs Of Pain

birthingI’m back in upgrade energy again. The New Moon has arrived with another blast of Divine Feminine energy. It’s time for a birthing. Time for a new me. And long past time to get real changes happening in the outer world.

Giving birth to anything new, and including babies, requires a lot of effort. As the time gets nearer to deliver the new it’s as if the birthing gets even harder. And more painful. Seeing my idea, project, body waiting to push a creation out into the world certainly feels exhausting. After all, I have carried that idea, project or creation for a long time. I’ve nourished it. Communicated with it. Worried about it. And had dreams for it. When the reality of it’s entry into the world hits I feel a mixture of impatience, fear, excitement and expectation. I can’t wait for the birthing to be over. But there is also the realisation that the last few pushes are going to be painful too.

Because I have to push myself to let go. Be ready to see what I’ve created as independent from me. No longer my closely held idea or project. Others will get involved. My creation will take on a life of it’s own. It won’t belong only to me any more. So I can’t keep it safe, or just the way I would like it to be. Birthing is also an upgrade. The pangs of pain I feel are showing me where I am still resisting letting go. They are showing me what wisdom I still need to acquire. Or what I am failing to trust. Especially if I am failing to trust myself. Each birthing involves me becoming a new you. I’m now the creator of something else. Something outside of myself. I have grown by the experience of creating.

As with all birthing times the key is to rest, conserve energy and await that last push. I am using the New Moon energy to recognise where I have expanded myself and where I have changed. That will help me to focus through the pain and get my creativity out as a material thing. I’m also looking forward to that fabulous moment when the pain recedes into the background and I finally meet the new me.

Day 814 of my blogging challenge

Competition, Collaboration and Success

competitionToday my daughter has been reviewing her progress in her chosen course. She is working mainly with men in her studies as the subject she loves is often seen as a male preference. She has noticed that there can be a lot of competition between them. But she doesn’t approach her work that way.

This morning we had a discussion about women being able to vote. It has been one hundred years since women over thirty in the UK gained the right to vote in elections. Quite a landmark. So I couldn’t help but notice the synchronicity of this review date. Nor that we have entered another phase of Divine Feminine energy asking us to view our relationships as collaborations. Rather than make it all about competition. So as I was once again chatting with her this evening about her career choices we both listened hard to a news item on Channel 4 about feminism. I introduced my daughter to the books and work of Laura Bates, the Body Image Movement and feminist writing. And I hope it will help her balance the competitiveness of her chosen field with the collaboration necessary to help everyone succeed.

I believe that we all have a streak of competition within us. I find it’s a really useful emotion to boost me past giving up. When I’m doing something I like to compete with myself to see if I can do better than I did before. Because sometimes I tell myself I can’t do something well. Yet if I tried enough and stuck at it I would improve. In fact I have proved that with my mediumship. However, I have also needed to collaborate with others, especially my Guides, to find new or different ways to develop my skills. Competing with myself, collaborating with others and sticking at it has helped me to succeed. I feel that the Suffragettes knew far better than me how to do that. After all they got women the vote. And pushed on further to gain ground in improving women’s lives.

I’m glad my daughter understands the power of competing with herself. It’s also a blessing that she prefers to collaborate with others. In the end she will be successful in anything she does. I also feel that success will be shared with all of the people she works with. Because she understands the value of doing things together. And is prepared to put aside the corrosive aspects of competition in order to push forward with change.

Day 803 of my blogging challenge

Rippling Brooks, Fairy Trees: A Walk In The Snow

RipplingIt has been snowing today. Not enough to stop me going for a walk though. I went down past the rippling brook and through the hawthorn and rowan trees watching the snow settle on the higher ground.

Listening to the rippling, tinkling sound of the water I thought about waves of energy. Of the way in which energy can hit all of a sudden. Energy that I might not welcome or want. Yet energy I have to deal with as is flows through my life. I know it’s easy to get caught up in energy that threatens to drag me into low vibrations. There is a part of me that responds to that. The shadow side I try to address and deal with whenever I find myself drifting down out of the live energy. My walk today reminded me that the new energy rippling through my life is very much of a higher vibration. Divine Feminine love and creativity is washing me and refreshing me.

I am being steadily recharged by it. Powered up to share more of the positive energy with all of those I meet. So that I also create a rippling flow of kindness, gratitude and collaboration. Standing amongst the trees, with their winter coat of lichen and moss, I thought about the skin I am in. And what I might be covered by. Am I sharing my form with delightful, abundant growth? Do we exist in a harmony of growth throughout the seasons? Or am I a bare, fallen, stunted in my progress? It was a lot for me to think about. I walked on greeting each tree as if a new friend. The water singing beside me a lively reminder of being in the flow. Because that is the purpose of living. I’m immersing myself in all of the energy that comes my way.

Yet I am also trying my best, by only holding on to the most positive of vibrations, to make the best of myself. Letting the rippling of energy empower me rather than diminish me. I am looking forward to my next walk amongst the trees. It will be another time for reflection.

Day 800 of my blogging challenge 

Blood Red Blue Super Moon: Get Ready For Clearing

blood red moonTonight there is an amazing Super Moon hanging blood red in the sky. But christened a Blue Moon too. We are able to witness an eclipse as well. Not just a regular usual Full Moon then. One that hasn’t been witnessed for 150 years.

I have to say that the weather here has been cloudy all day so my chance of actually seeing this moon is slim. However, I know it is there. And I can feel it’s energy pull. It’s a blue moon because this month there are two full moons. It is also a Super Moon because it is closer to the Earth this time round. And it’s also on the day when there is a lunar eclipse. In other words the Moon will be in Earth’s shadow. This causes the Moon to turn blood red. So what does all that do to the energy of the Moon? And, of course, as a consequence, to my energy.

The Moon creates the tides. It also creates tides in the feminine energy in and around me.  At the Full Moon I always feel charged with energy. I become a night owl. And my creativity zooms upwards. Dealing with the Moon being closer to the Earth also means that I get additional energy bursts. I am more intuitively sensitive than normal. Even though I am good at shielding myself from too much energy my dreams have been filled with other people, conversations and uncomfortable emotions. Relationships and communication with others have taken on a slight edge as we work through the impact of an increased intuitive knowing about each other.

Yet I feel the impact of the Earth’s shadow too. The red moon reminds me that strong emotions can drive fear and aggression as well as creativity.

I know that I have a shadow side. It’s also true that my actions and beliefs can cast a long shadow over others. I can choose to bring my collaborative, creative Moon energy to bear on situations. Or I can act out my shadow fears instead. The choice is up to me. This mix reminds me of the intimate experience of giving birth. Amongst the blood a baby is releasing herself from the shadow of her mother. She is emerging to take her place in the Light. The violence of birth is transformed into the gift of a life. Hopefully a life that will shine brightly with the energy of love. When I feel the pull of the Blood Moon I know that it is time to birth something new about myself.

I also know that to do that I will have to allow for other things to be cleared away. Like an afterbirth flows out and away. Perhaps painfully. Or perhaps not. Because it has served it’s purpose and is no longer sustaining life. So I will be taking the opportunity over the next few days to prepare for what I want to release. Working with my intuition to identify all the energy that has become worn out. Identifying all of my attitudes, beliefs, issues and material possessions that have stopped being life affirming. I will also be boosting the energy of my Third Eye (red and blue make purple) so that I can see clearly what also needs to shift spiritually.

For me the end point of this Blood Red Blue Super Moon is a wave of energy that enables me to approach this year of Divine Feminine energy with intention, hope and adventure. I’m being encouraged to move forward in my life. This energy combination is giving me the big push I need.

Day 797 of my blogging challenge

Relating To Self: More Divine Feminine Lessons

relatingFlashes of insight are coming through thick and fast to me at the moment. Last night’s musings, following on from my blogs about the Divine Feminine energy, were relating to all sorts of relationship connections.

It’s as if my Guide Team are taking me step by step through what I know so that I rework my understanding. It’s a really interesting process. Because every time I think I’ve got to the deepest understanding I can my Guides peel off yet another layer of certainty. I have to say I am finding this new way of relating to myself very exciting. And refreshing. Although not without the struggles that come from having to let my preconceptions and judgements go. I’m learning a lot about the focus of this cycle of Divine Feminine energy too. The first blast this year has put relationships under the spotlight.

Clearest of all is my relationship with myself. How I navigate my inner world. How I balance my masculine and feminine energies. And how I assume things about myself. Whilst carefully avoiding anything that I don’t want to have to look at. It’s brining to the surface those pressures and patterns that have kept me rushing to be the one picking up the pieces. The one taking responsibility for everyone else’s emotional states. That one sided view of the Mother that often slips me into Servant or Martyr mode. And the reminder that I have also lived a good chunk of my life in my pragmatic, practical masculine side too. Perhaps at the expense of my feminine energy.

So this time is all about relating to my inner self. Continuing the process of finding the authentic me. The whole and complete me.

To help me I have lots of relationships around me. Relationships that allow me to be me to various amounts. Some relationships bounce my sarcasm back at me. Others remind me that I enjoy a good laugh. Still others show me my dedication, passion and will to succeed.  Then there are those that remind me I still want to manage everyone’s lives. And those where I struggle to let go. Even if the relationship has actually run it’s course. I am sure that I mirror back in all of these relationships. That I represent something to each of the people involved. We are all learning about relating to our self so that we can relate to each other.

That’s the end game. The Divine Feminine energy recognises the creativity of collaboration. I believe that if we all contributed our abilities based on our authentic selves then we would experience a very different outer world. But the challenge is to get to that clear and honest state of communication. I know I have it with my Guides. They can read my energy, with my permission, easily. And they give me permission to read their energy, to know their authentic selves, in return. Of course I may choose not to see them as their authentic selves. When relating to others we assume so much. Mainly because it is easier to guess than to deal with the truth. Because the truth may involve uncomfortable emotions.

I wonder how many times I have stopped myself when relating to others? Turned away from the honesty that is available because I have been fearful of what I might find out?

Mainly because I assume that others are making judgements about me. Yet is that really true? Or are we all hiding in a pointless exercise not to be our true selves? And does that actually makes a barrier to collaboration? A barrier that prevents us from coming together, sharing and caring in a deeper way? I believe it does. This is a time of great change if we want to have a different world for our children and their children. I know that I have to show the outer world my authentic self. Relating to my inner self I have to become comfortable with being open for people to judge me if they wish.

But I have to step back from judging myself. It’s time for me to embrace the feminine, creative, collaborative energy that I have and share it to all of my relationships. It means I have to think about my relationships in a different way. And I have to create more authentic bonds between myself and others. That’s not to say that up until now I have been lying. Or hiding my true feelings and thoughts. It’s that I am more aware of more of the authentic me than I have been before. It’s that I want to share. And I want to engage with people who are finding their authentic me. Together we can shift our relationships to a higher spiritual level.

In the end, it will be a choice all of us have to make. Relating to one another has always been a challenge for human beings. I know we have all tried to search out simpler ways of ‘knowing’ the other people in our lives. The simplest one is through our intuitive, collaborative selves. I hope your journey into your beautiful, authentic self will be a great experience. It’s so you can find the truth of the Divine Feminine at the heart of who you are.

Day 796 of my blogging challenge

Opening My heart To Let Love Flow

openingLove. I’m back to that word that seems to have a thousand meanings. Opening my eyes to how tricky it is to pin down a definition for this most powerful of human emotions. And the reason why I’ve done so many wrong-headed things in my life.

In my work I often talk about unconditional love. Yet I know I have been on a life long journey to understand where I am conditional with love. Even where I have mistaken other feelings for this very elusive emotion. Or when I have loved someone or thing more than myself. Yet I keep trying to ‘find’ love of one sort or another. And all the while my Ego Mind tries to mislead or distract me away from the very feeling I want to experience. Because that is the issue. Do I love myself enough? Am I opening my heart to myself and my own beauty? And in what way do I interpret the word love when I apply it to myself?

I realise that love for myself, opening my heart and being in the flow of love all require one key ingredient. It is that I have to trust myself. I have to allow myself the recognition that I am someone who is lovable. Yet with an Ego Mind that is always ready to pull me back, put me down or undermine my intentions trust can be so very difficult. It is within myself that I learn to interpret the meaning of love. But that means opening up to the part of me that I don’t love. The bit that I have learned, been conditioned to, taken on board from life’s experiences. Because not everyone I meet has seemed to fill my world with love. Bringing me reasons to distrust the very nature of love altogether.

Understanding the nature of disappointment, conditionality and restrictions in the flow of love is a way of opening up to more love.

As is my understanding that all of us are dealing with different interpretations of the word love. Interpretations that have arisen from what we have encountered from our selves and others. My journey into understanding love had been one of stripping back these layers within me. And re-engaging with my heart. Making it once more central to all I do. Reminding myself to stay open to the opportunities that love brings. Standing my ground in the flow inwards and outwards of this life enhancing energy. Letting love find me in very many different ways. And trusting my heart to circulate all of the love that flows to and from me.

This is a very important year. The Divine Feminine energy will be flowing powerfully through all of our lives. The Divine Mother will have our back, so to speak. It will be an exercise in tough love. Be ready to learn to trust and therefore love yourself unconditionally. And also be ready to learn to trust and love others unconditionally too. The energy of love is so much required to help us draw back from the self destructive urges of the Ego Mind. To release ourselves from the control exerted by fear and hate. Opening your heart, to yourself and to others, is the way forward. It is the way to manifest harmony and peace.

I understand you may struggle, like I do, with the meaning of unconditional love. Or struggle with how to live your life in the flow of unconditional love. However, keep trying. Remind yourself every day that you are loved. That whatever others think, say or do you are a person full of love. Trust in this truth and share it with the world in whatever way you can.

Day 794 of my blogging challenge

Return Of The Divine Feminine: Embrace The Energy!

return of moonlightWhat a week of contrasts. From the sluggishness of Monday and Tuesday to the return of energy from Wednesday onwards. The New Moon making it’s presence felt. And heralding the return of the Divine Feminine. At last!

My Guides have been taking about Divine Feminine energy for some years now. Especially from 2013 onwards. They kept advising me that a big shift would happen soon. Five years – counting as soon in their terms. They helped me to recognise that we are all a blend of feminine and masculine energy. Every one of us. And that I had to understand the importance of using both sources of energy in my life. I feel it’s fair to say I had worked out how to use my masculine energy. But I found it much harder to return to using the feminine flow within me. Yet my connection with my own Spirit and all the other Energy Beings depends on it.

However, I had long been interested in Goddesses. It seemed to me that there were more powerful role models for women if we sought out and experienced Goddess energy. So I did feel excited at the idea that the Earth would be shifting position to flow with more feminine energy. Because when the Earth shifts, as a human being who is part of the Earth’s aura, so do I. I also felt strongly that it was time for a return of Divine Feminine energy to empower my daughter and her daughter’s daughter’s children. Finally that energy has begun to manifest. From a cycle of feminine energy going back two hundred years I am now hearing women once again raise their voices to say ‘Enough is enough’.

What is missed when energy is out of balance is the opportunity to create and make it so – as a collaborative effort. When everything can return to a balanced position I believe each one of us will achieve beyond anything we can yet imagine. In a collective community of Spirit.

So back to this week and the first New Moon of the year. The first push of Divine Feminine to hit all of us full on. When I am riding the energy wave it can initially feel exhausting. Because I have to adjust to a higher vibration. Just like learning to surf bigger and bigger waves. My body, mind, feelings have to get used to the demands of that new experience. So I will feel more exhausted. For three days at the beginning of the week I was wide awake all night, riding the energy, and sleeping all day. Then the New Moon was finally here. I felt energy return. I could balance in this new energy and use it.

Use it to create order in my chaos. To dream some very big dreams. And to release myself from holding onto old me’s. This return of the Divine Feminine is all about activism. Not only talking about what feminine energy represents and challenging stereotypes I hold inside of me. But also turning my intentions into action. I have asked myself to take the necessary steps to embrace the full breadth of what being feminine represents. All the aspects of the Goddess. For me to honour the power of life and death as it inspires my creativity. And to work at balancing all of these aspects with their matching masculine energy.

I want to become a whole blend. Spirit and human. Feminine and masculine. I want the return of my true nature. The underlying uniqueness of who I am. So I’m looking forward already to the return of the New Moon in February. And wondering what wave I will be riding then. I hope it’s an even higher one!

Day 785 of my blogging challenge

Travelling ever northward: in search of a new land!

I’ve been up and about since five am this morning. Taking a series of trains to get over to the Orkney isles. Further north than I’ve ever been. Heading northward to discover a new land.

Yet I also feel called to this place. Perhaps I’m about to discover one of my past lives? Before heading northward I’ve had several days of a niggling anxiety. Everything has been planned. But I couldn’t help feeling that something was going to go wrong. The fact that everything has gone so smoothly today has been a great delight. After all what could really go wrong? What was I imagining? I’m not even sure I know now I’m nearing the end off this all day journey. We have even been blessed with a calm sea. Great for someone like me who suffers sea sickness if the waves look like they are going to be higher than three inches.

So what is the journey northward about? It started when I watched a TV programme about an archeological dig on Orkney.

At a place called the Ness of Brodgar. A site that apparently pre dates the pyramids and Stonehenge. Older than Ggantija in Malta. That caught my attention. I’ve been to Malta to the temple several times. And visited the Hypogeum temple too. The sense of Divine Feminine energy was very strong in Malta. I wondered if it would be the same in Orkney. Then they suggested that the stone circles, like the one called the Ring of Brodgar, were the first known monuments of this kind in the country. The circles spread from Orkney down the rest of the UK.

Of course it made perfect sense that I wanted to see and sense for myself if there was any Goddess energy still left in these places. The waves of energy around us at the moment are returning out focus to our own feminine energy. As human beings we have both feminine and masculine energy in all of us. A part to create and a part to make that creation real. I know we have been stuck in the ‘making it real’ part for far too long. For thousands of years creativity has been hedged about with structures that hinder the intuitive leaps forward that are at the very heart of that creativity. It’s become very hard to think the unthinkable. Let alone make sure it happens.

This northward journey can help me connect back to a different point of creativity. If I can step into that ancient energy.

That is the key. If there is a past life connection of any kind I hope to release any karmic patterns that prevent me from accessing my creativity. I’d also like to tune into the background energy to understand where these more northward peoples came from. What their history and heritage was. That’s why I’m excited about going to see the dig site. And I never know what else I might be asked to do. The fact that I’m going tells me that the Spirit World will most likely have a bit of work for me to do too. Probably on myself. But I never know. I might be there for service to someone else too.

Yes it is a holiday. Some time out for me. But I love my work with my Guides. They are taking me northward because they know I will enjoy it. And if they feel they can kill two birds with one stone, so to speak, they will certainly do do. I feel like this long journey is all part of the process. We could have flown here. Or had an overnight stop. But when I was planning the trip I thought about the journey our ancestors must have made. In boats on the open and uncertain North Sea. No power but the wind in the sails and oars if becalmed. It must have been a much more epic journey than today.

Northward it is then. Adventure awaits. I’m ready to explore.

Day 598 of my blogging challenge

My Tattoo: an Infinity of Lives

img_2235Today I completed something that has taken 18 years. I got my second tattoo. Another personal reminder of my life’s achievements.

I remember my Dad’s reaction to my news that I was getting a tattoo at the age of forty. He though I was mad. Dad said to me ‘You know it’s for life’. He was so off balance at the idea of his daughter with a tattoo that I don’t think he saw the funny side of his comment. I did. My Mum was a bit calmer but also thought I was mad. They grew up in a generation where body art was only for rough, tough guys and prisoners. An ink portrait was a sign of low status. Yet I knew I wanted to commemorate the conscious start of my personal development.  The Raven I opted for celebrated my decision to become a therapeutic counsellor.

It also represented my desire to embrace the Goddess energy that I had denied for most of my life. Stepping into connection with the Divine Feminine was important for me. I needed to work out and balance who I was. In fact my journey into being a counsellor was inspired by the collapse of my corporate life. I knew it was time to make deep changes within. Exploring how to help others gave me access to lots of ideas about how to help myself. You could say that I’ve been developing aspects of myself ever since then. Now, eighteen years later, I have reached another level of development.

Today I opted to have body art representing Ouroboros – the World Snake or Infinity – on my arm. I want to acknowledge that life continues eternally in all it’s forms.

Working with the Spirits and Energy Beings I have been able to expand my understanding of why I am here as well as who I am. Alongside my passion for making sense of my past lives I look forward to the new lives I will live after this one. I also look forward to the new beginnings that will arise in this life. As I shed each snake skin and evolve it’s exciting to think about all the surprises that are in store. What new patterns will I develop? Which are the ways I will best serve myself and others? How can I help people to appreciate that we are infinite beings of Light?

The Snake and Ouroboros are ancient symbols of one of my past lives too. Having my tattoo where I can remind myself of the fluid nature of past, present, future is also about reminding me that Ego is a dead end for humanity. Spiritual progress comes only when I recognise my Spirit Within and express that in the way I live. I’m moving firmly from my phase of personal development into a new cycle that is my grown up spiritual development. Of course there has been some overlap with both. My new body art is my promise to myself that it’s time to expand and grow much more. I feel it is the culmination of the work of many lives to reach this cliff. I’m prepared to step off into a new ascension journey.

Day 337 of my blogging challenge.