I’m glad I’ve had a busy day mentoring. Because I woke up this morning with an upgrading of my intutive system going on. In other words my body was going ouch!
I always know when I’m getting an energy boost. Because I develop slight cold symptoms for 32 to 48 hours although a full blown cold doesn’t happen. I also feel rather tired and need to rest. Then I loose my appetite too and forget to eat. Usually that is followed by upgrading of my intuitive senses. So ringing or buzzing in my ears. Headache feelings across my forehead. Especially where my third eye is located. And the feeling that cobwebs are drifting across my skin. My joints can ache as well as other parts of my body where stuck energy is being pushed out.
Small upgrades happen all the time. Like regularly scheduled maintenance. Bigger upgrades happen every now and again when I have a full reboot of my system. All this means is that my intutive senses are working better, receiving clearer information and I am translating it faster. However, Inc Erin a while the upgrading is a massive blast. Something that’s necessary for a whole new level of functioning. Then my body can be full of energy surges aligning me to that new level. And I can get much more serious ouch effects. Like today. My chest hurt, my right knee throbbed and my shoulders were cramped. In other words, lots of old energy surfacing from deep down to be let go.
Upgrading can be hard. So the distraction of work was very welcome. I could forget the pain for a while and enjoy the successes of my clients. Who are also all going through an upgrade. Because the whole world is. So tonight it’s time for me to rest, reflect and let the upgrading finish. And look forward using to the new software!
Whilst I was away this weekend I took the chance to look at the stars. There are interesting things afoot in the heavens at the moment. Not least because of an energy alignment that will affect all of us.
There is a Native American Peoples tradition that the first humans came from the Dog Star – Sirius – and that we have been helped by the people of that star to develop as human beings. It’s Sirius that makes some powerful waves tomorrow in what Is called the Lions Gate. The Earth, Sun and Sirius are in alignment with galactic central. The energy of two suns will beam it’s way through to us as a double blast of Light energy. This is being helped by the Full Moon calling all of us to manifest our deepest desires. With an eclipse thrown in to get us to clear away the fog that usually clouds our vision. Stars influencing who we are once again.
Of course humanity used the stars to help us discover who we really are for thousands of years. There are some sophisticated ancient circles and monuments that reflect a deep knowledge of star lore. With lots of instances of rituals reflecting knowledge of the heavens. Sometimes it feels like modern day man is only just catching up with what our ansectors seemed to know. So why is that important right now? I know that we are at the end of a long journey. For the past ten months I have been writing about the need to get acquainted with my shadow side. How I have had to learn to value myself, love myself and trust my abilities. Because I am almost on the point of stepping into my future mission.
But it’s not only the stars that I’m watching. I have been getting regular information from my Guides to prepare myself for the spiritual shift of the coming two months.
In practical terms that has left me thinking very deeply about who I am. And what is on my shadow side. As well as working out what skills and abilities I have. Then making sure I am valuing them appropriately. I have also had to walk through the wobbles that my fears have caused. Then to put my value out into the world. In addition I have been noticing which things make my heart sing. And what I am doing that causes me pain, upset or a dragging feeling. Bit by bit I have been letting go of anything that feels like it is pulling me back. Keeping an eye on my personal stars and my numerology.
I’ve been looking for patterns and habits that need to end. Taking the time to reconnect back with people who I value and who value me. Because I will need all of these positive relationships to help me master the changes that are coming along. I’m not surprised I’m writing about the energy shift again on a master number blog. 632 adds up to 11. The master number that combines most powerfully the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine energies. The power to create and manifest. It’s time for me to bring more balance to the world in a creative energy flow represented by feminine energy. But I will also need the ‘make it so’ energy of my masculine side. The stars are reminding me, and helping me, to make the spiritual life I really want to live.
Take notice of the stars. Their influence this month is very powerful. Use the opportunity to make sure you have done all of the preparations for your new life. I wish you well on your adventure.
I’ve been doing a bit more work to finalise my book today. It needs a cover. In a muddle I started calling on my friends for assistance. Thank goodness for their support.
I know I have a tendency to get in a dither. Especially when I know what I have to decide can make a big difference to me. Bringing my first book into being has had me calling on all sorts of abilities I wasn’t sure I even possessed. My writing for a start. Believing I could do it. And sticking with it through all the tedious bits. Now I have to finalise all those little details that make it as professional as possible. Checking the spellings, comma placements and grammar. Looking at what I’ve written with a fresh pair of eyes to make sure it’s relevant to the story. Making sure that there is a flow between each section. And trying to make sure it isn’t boring or long winded.
Having got through those things I’m left with how it will look when published. What should I put on the cover? That’s where I decided calling on my friends was a good idea. And they responded to my shout out. Not so that they would make the choice. But so that I could stop my ideas going round and round. I find that is a wonderful part of friendship. My friends knew that I needed to step back from the stuck spot. So they helped me do it. And they know that I will help them to step back whenever necessary. Get some space and look at things with fresh eyes.
Calling on friends wouldn’t have occurred to me a while back. I really thought I had to manage everything all by myself.
That meant I wasn’t valuing my friends in the best way. Because they wanted to help. It was me who was stuck on not asking. Or even when I did, on not receiving the help. Nor was I valuing myself. My friends wanted to help because I had helped them. We were in relationships based on giving and receiving. Except that I was unwilling to receive. It took me a long time to recognise that I was suffering from a serious shortage of self-worth and self-belief. Fortunately my friends kept calling, sticking with me until I had figured it out, making sure I had the chance to learn to accept.
Today I thought about how much better I am at receiving help. About asking for it in the first place. And I’m writing about it because I know that many other people are also stuck about asking for help. It’s part of the difficulty that hinders that community feeling we all hope for. When everyone is focused on giving and no one is receiving we have a one sided society. And the energy of compassion is stuck. To make it flow I have to become open to receiving and passing in all the goodness that is offered to me. Fortunately my friends have helped me get into a better balance with this. Now I can help others to notice and experience the balance of giving and receiving.
I owe my friends a lot. They have improved my life by calling on me to receive as well as give. Today I showed I could ask for help. And they very generously gave it. I’m delighted to receive their inspiration once again.
The breeze was blowing as I walked along the beach today. It was hot in the sunshine. So the cool wind was very welcome. It was also clearing my head.
I’ve been doing some work on where I want to take my life in the future. Passion Planner at my side I bounced around all sorts of ideas. Because I’m getting to a point where I have to take some decisions. New inspirations keep popping up all the time. Old doubts wobble through from my Ego Mind. Blowing my thoughts all over the place. That’s the problem. The distraction of fears can keep me stuck going round in loops. Those old fears are like cobwebs catching the dust. Too many cobwebs block my clear view of what it’s best to do. That’s why a walk was really good.
I stood looking at the sea. The tide was out. I thought about when the tide turned. The beach would be covered by the waves slowly but surely. And the water would mould the sand once more. Before it retreated again. The wind was blowing the waves too. Everything was happening in an eternal cycle that had been going on for millions of years. I felt like the sand. Being modded by my feelings and the breeze of change. My life will take shape, then reshape itself again and again. I realised that I can choose what I want to do but I also have to be flexible enough to let my life reshape my intentions too. I don’t know what tides will be blown through my life tomorrow or any day after. But I can keep my mind open to all sorts of possibilities.
Accepting that the wind of change is always blowing I can recognise that my life is on shifting sands. But I have a solid foundation. I have ability, courage and determination. The tides will change but I will never drown!
I’ve always had a struggle to get my life in balance. I tend to throw myself into work and forget to play. There always seems to be more to do. Being able to step back has been one of my big lessons.
I know that I enjoy being occupied. Being busy is normal for me. But I also know that when I get focused on something stepping back and stepping out can be hard. Because I want to get things done. I want to achieve what I’ve set out to do. Part of it is my own impatience at the slow way energy manifests into the physical world. Plus the urgency of wanting to help everyone as much as I possibly can. Added to a strong work ethic that came from my parents. Quite a mix really. So I have to be careful. Because if I overdo it I find myself in a struggle to stop doing. It’s like I can’t slow down.
I’m sure I’m not the only person who deals with this challenge. There are lots of us around. We tend to keep going long past the point of exhaustion. I am connected with many business people who have the same struggle. Working out when to stop indulging one of my passions and swapping to another. But it’s important to find that balance. Keeping going isn’t sensible for my mind or body. Or my business. So I am practicing slowing down. Making it easy for myself. Giving myself opportunities to play, relax or rest. It all ties in with placing value on myself. Stepping back for a while shows me that I am worth time and energy too. It also allows me to find a balance across all aspects of my life.
There is no struggle when I am prepared to give to myself. Being at peace with time for me and time for everyone else life becomes very much easier. Today I’m taking time for me. Are you?
Today I sat down to do my first Letter From The Light Side live broadcast for August. I’m amazed that something I started rather nervously at the end of February 2017 has produced so much laughter.
And seems to have helped many people. That’s the key. My Guides kept asking me to speak on their behalf in a more public way. Of course I have worked for many years in churches and centres, done events and some radio broadcasts. I’ve also been writing this blog for over eighteen months. So I considered I was already doing a lot of speaking for Spirit. But they asked me to do more. In their usual firm way they dropped the title of the videos into my mind. It was about a weekly letter. A regular communication to anyone who wanted to listen. Full of support and information about the energy we could expect in the next week.
Thus Letters From The Light Side was born. As I did my first video I felt very exposed. My friends have always said that I was good doing video pieces. But it’s a different matter to go out into a wide world and sort of say ‘look at me’. Especially since I had no idea which Guides and Inspirers were going to step forward. I rember laughing at myself as I set off. Laughing because I was anxious when I knew I should trust my Spirit Team. Wobbling through the first few sentences. That first letter was a big step forward for me. And as I sat chatting today, passing on the words of my Guides, I remembered how stressed I felt doing that first one.
Laughing afterwards at the warmth of their message I really understood how each letter has helped me value myself. And discover more of my abilities.
Because I have found so much joy in each weekly broadcast. My Guides get me giggling, laughing, chuckling. They remind me that laughter is infectious. It spreads the sunshine. I know that spirituality can feel like a deadly serious subject. Or way of life. And I find it interesting that many people discover spirituality and then lose their ability to laugh. Each letter I do has a deeper message. Wrapped up in the loving kindness of humour. Because this is a way for the Energy Beings to boost our positivity. So here I am, five months later, enjoying each letter and ready to do more if necessary.
In fact I’ve already started to do a little more. With another push from those insistent Guides I have started a monthly email Newsletter. The Energy Beings want to help us understand the energy of each month. In the email they get me to focus on the things that can help me and every one else through the month. Hints and tips to avoid the ups and downs of the energy ocean. I find it a really positive way to share more. Of course, it is also helping me both to value myself more and recognise more of my skills. Like the broadcast I was nervous when I missed the first one. But my Guides got me laughing about my wobbles as always. Now I can’t wait to put the next one out to the subscribers.
I’m looking forward to wherever my Letter adventure is taking me next. Hoping that I will enjoy more laughter. And pass that laughter on to as many people as I can. A laughter filled life. What more could I ask for 💜
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I’ve certainly had an interesting week. And today a conversation about value for money really rounded off my thought processing. I heard myself sharing a lightbulb moment that I had forgotten.
Of course when I get under the influence of heavy energy it can get me spinning around in all directions. Like a pendulum that is struggling to give a clear yes/no answer I can’t seem to get a grip. Underneath all of the reviewing Saturn has had me doing there has been a thread about value. My worth. Or importance. Even the way people think of me. Connected with how I value myself. And what I feel I am worth as a person, with my abilities and what I contribute. Sometimes I’ve been told I’m valuing myself too highly. Other times I have told myself I’m not worth anything. The reality is somewhere between the two.
But there is another aspect to this. I charge for some of my work. I live in a material world and bills have to be paid. However I also choose, on some occasions, not to charge my full rate or to do work for free. The value I place on my work, reflected through my charges, relates to how I feel about my worth. Interestingly not everyone recognises this. They are looking for a bargain. The lowest possible price. The cheapest option. Or as much free as possible. And if you have done it once at a lower rate then the expectation is that you will continue to do so forever more. But what I’ve noticed is that the cheaper the price the less they value what I have given them.
It’s an interesting facet of human nature. A kind of perverse value system. The assumption that higher the price the better the service. But wanting to be the one who gets that excellent service at a rock bottom price.
I have to admit at this point that I love a bargain. I sometimes spend time seeking them out. Often not thinking of the cost that has gone into the item I’m after. Or the loss that someone takes from supplying something under it’s true value. Until I’m faced with someone who expects me to provide something at low cost to them. Who hasn’t considered the value to themseleves of what they want to receive. After all, if I keep telling myself that I can only spend a minimum amount on myself I’m really saying I’m not worth investing my money in. I’m reinforcing a belief that I have no value. As I’m not prepared to pay the going rate for myself. Then I go out and spend a fortune on others.
It’s also something that comes up when I’m asked to do a set piece of work. I’m given the numbers involved so I work out my cost and price on that basis. Then that work is cancelled. Often at short notice. Or I get there and find only half the people have turned up. I am expected to take the loss of trade. It’s something that I know happens a lot to small businesses and self employed people. As if our time or effort has no value either. This is one reason why I do very few events away from my Centre. At least I have other work I can be doing if I get a ‘no show’. Meaning I value my time too.
But I want to come back to this idea of the value I place on myself. We are often encouraged to give much more to others than we give to ourselves. Often in the form of money.
Money is a flow of energy. It can feel positive or it can feel negative. Because it is a flow it can feel like there is very little. Or plenty. More than enough. What it can’t be is stuck. Yet when I look for my bargains am I telling myself to hold on the the energy of money? Having an inner voice reminding me that I dont know when I will get the next wave of abundance? Is my sense of low worth fuelled by a misunderstanding about the nature of money. And am I considering that I am restricting the flow of money by only passing on a minimum amount to the person who is supplying me a service? So that I am not valuing them either?
Today as I talked about this issue of value and worth I recognised that I have to hold my boundaries. I have to give to myself in the same amount as I give to others. That way I have those things that show me I value myself. A haircut, massage or new trousers. Nourishing food, an exercise session with a personal trainer, a book I want to read. That means charging for my services at a rate that will allow someone to value what I give them. And to let them show themeselves that they matter just as much as everyone else.
It’s time for me to take a look at those boundaries again. I want to show myself that I value myself. And that I can also value others appropriately too.
Phew! What a heavy few days. Saturn has really been shaking that Leo pride about. And giving me wobbles too. Today I feel I’m getting back on track. At last!
I welcomed in the New Moon knowing that there was also some tricky energy sttached to this one. Saturn had stepped forward to play a leading role. I always struggle with Saturn. He is all about responsibility, duty and lessons. Saturn energy makes me want to run and hide. Mainly because it reinforces my sense of obligations. And the need to act like an adult. That means I have to own everything I feel, think and do. Plus Saturn makes me consider very deeply if I am creating positive energy in my life. Because he has a trick of getting me to think of all the times I’ve wallowed in negativity.
This is only to ensure that I have ‘learned my lesson’ so to speak. But I find it hard sometimes to look back. My old emotions and thoughts get triggered. And sometimes I realise I am still hanging on to things that are distorting my present life. Of course the good that comes out if this is that I redouble my efforts to let go. But before I get to that point I can be very wobbly. That’s exhausting. Taken to gather with the Leo energy, having to look at what I pride myself on, it’s been a sobering few days. An almost ‘I’m really rubbish at this or that’ few days. Even a ‘give up now’ sort of thought train in my head.
Getting through this thought-provoking energy has been my challenge. Staying grounded in myself, my abilities and the help I can call on has been a key focus for me.
After all, I know I require help sometimes. I’ve even freed up more room for me to receive it. Grabbing the chance to clear my internal clutter once more through the kind help of other people. I also realised that the process of clearing is almost at an end. The stuff that surfaced in the past week is really old, deeply stuck experiences. So I was very grateful today to feel like I am getting through this energy phase. I’m digging up the real me and starting to be very proud of her achievements and abilities. That is important. This month is all about letting in the Light. Reminding myself that I have a purpose underpinning my life. And that only by being my true self will I achieve what my Spirit desires.
August’s energy is all about re-dedicating myself to serving for my highest good. To the benefit of a greater good. However, I have to make my promises without any clear picture of what that service entails. Except that I know I will be getting a chance to use all of my skills and talents. In the best possible way. If I let myself do this. I also appreciate that there will still be fears to overcome, doubts to dismiss and uncertainty to rise above. But the Saturn energy has been showing me that I have done this before so I can certainly do it again. All I have to set my mind and heart to is doing my best in any given moment. Then to let the Universal energy take care of all the rest.
I’m getting ready for a big shift. That step into trusting myself, my life and my wisdom no matter what service comes my way. I know I can do it. Saturn has reminded me that I can. I’m ready to welcome the Light. Are you ready to join me there?
I’m often told that messages from mediums are too vague. When I read articles about Spirit connections I wonder if we all deal with the same bunch of Spirits. Facts seem hard to come by. And checking them out is vital.
When I was unaware of my own connections to Spirit I wondered how mediums got the information they did. I thought it would be as simple as having a face to face conversation with a disembodied person. It wasn’t until I started checking out how Spirit communication happened that I found such a wide variety of experiences. When I began communicating myself I was keen to have factual information. Pieces of the message that would have been difficult for me to know any other way. Simply because I felt that the person getting the message would listen to it better if it contained some sort of evidence.
Now I understand that, whatever way each individual connects, the Energy Beings can always bring factual information through to validate the messages. So sometimes I’m a bit puzzled when I read about messages, or ways of working, that seem to be less fact based and more ‘trust me’ focused. I encourage every one to approach my readings prepeared to do some checking out. Because I may say things that they don’t know or understand. Until they have checked with family members or friends. It’s the same as going to buy a designer handbag. I want to know, before I spend my money, that I am getting the genuine article. So why shouldn’t I be open to being checked out too?
There is, I also believe, a duty on me as a medium to do some fact checking too. I have to ensure that my connections are with the right Spirits.
It’s no use to someone that I give a message from a random stranger. I know that we pay less attention to what strangers say. And I also know that people get great comfort from knowing that their loved ones are still around. Any connection therefore has to be with someone who can give me the kind of factual information that a loved one would know. Vague bits of partial memories or circumstances won’t do. I expect my family in Spirit to know all about me and to bring that knowledge with them. They also know key pieces of information that mean a lot to me.
If I expect that standard of facts it’s fair that I do my best to provide it in my messages for others. Of course not every message will be perfect or as good as I would wish it. But I also choose to break the link if a basic level of factual information doesn’t appear to be there. Checking out my connection, the Spirit communicator and the evidence being brought forward is the key, I feel, to a positive and well received message. Perhaps it’s my desire to be down to Earth in my approach that has made me set things out this way. But in the service for Spirit I would rather people get informaed of how the communication process works than be mis-informed by what happens.
I have ways believed in the ‘educated sitter’. That is, the person who believes in checking things out when getting their message. Facts are a great way to do that. So make sure you ask for, and get, as much factual information as possible.
Over the last week I’ve been having deep dreams. Plenty of them. Tangled recollections of my past in this life. With elements thrown in that I don’t recognise. All seeming to take me back to other times.
Yet, at the same time, these dreams contain symbols of travel. Cars, trains, a large ship, even a bicycle. I recognise that I’m being reminded I’m on a journey. Though it seems, at this particular point, that in my outer life I feel a bit becalmed. Stalled in some way. Definitely waiting for something to happen. Perhaps feeling the weight of the World too much. Of course I’m plodding along in a way. I’m taking each day as it arrives and doing my best to do what I feel is right for that day. But the bigger picture is missing right now. My focus seems to have shifted to re-examining my past experiences.
So along come the dreams. Not necessarily bad dreams. Because they take me back doesn’t mean I’ve got problems with what has happened in my past. But I awake from each one with a slightly different understanding of what might have been happening back then. I see that I was given lots of choice. There were times when I decided things, for all the wrong reasons, that somehow turned out right. By linking back in the dreams I’m being reminded that somehow I have made progress. Each phase of my life has allowed me to travel a new path. By doing that I have learned so much about being human.
My dreams are also showing me the times when I felt overwhelmed by being in charge of my own destiny. Even the times when my dreams crashed and burned.
When I didn’t honour my needs, dreams and abilities. And when I resisted asking for, or receiving, help with my burdens. Even if they were the ones I had created for myself. Because I can always ask for help. Or take some time to work it out with the help of other people and Energy Beings. It is possible to lighten my load. If I can find a hearer, companions to share with or those who can sustain me. I can also, with loving kindness, hand back any burdens I have taken on that really belong to others.
My dreams belong to me. I can’t manifest any for someone else. When I go into these deep dreams I’m also being reminded that each of us has to follow their own path with their own purpose. So the people who pop up in my dream have to be allowed to move forward with their own dream. Shouldering their own burden. I can help by giving them loving kindness. But it will be up to them if they receive and use it to lighten their load. In the end we might find that we have do-created a shared dream. That would be a wonderful outcome. But I’m also being reminded it’s not the only option.
I am embracing these deep dreams. I am revisiting, once again, who I am and what I have to offer. Ready for that moment when the tide turns. And my ship sails again. I’m going to be navigating to a new place. A place of more dreams.