It’s certainly been an interesting week! So much new info has come in from my Guides. I’m finally a lot clearer about the actions I have to take to deliver on my spiritual goals. They have been helping me to notice the milestones in my progress so far. Then signposting new milestones, lol.
They have also been highlighting one of the most important aspects of any action. Loyalty is required to achieve anything in life. Loyalty to yourself, to others and to your purpose. Loyalty that will be tested at every turn. Noticing the milestones helps me to check if I am being loyal in my thoughts, feelings and actions. Because I know what an ego trap these different strands of loyalty can create if not considered carefully enough. Only seven months ago I went through a big test in loyalty which ended with me stepping away from a person and situations that person created. It was the right decision. It was also a milestone in learning to put my needs first. I also learned that I could survive disloyalty and do things all by myself if I needed to.
The Universe never stops testing us. Looking at my milestones I know that I can fall back into old habits far to easily. I have always struggled to accept that the world is not full of fair minded, loving, peaceful people. I have tended to trust first and ask questions second. This week I feel that I have passed several milestones. And I won’t be back to old habits either.
I know that trust has to be earned. So I set tests for myself and others. Challenges to see if I am really doing what I say I will. Am I authentic? Do I present the ‘real’ me to the world. To do so means I have to love and trust that me. Even when others don’t. If I trust myself then I can also be loyal to myself. I can express my feelings, make my decisions and move my life on. Then I also look to see if the people around me are authentic. Am I seeing in their actions the true nature of the person? Do their actions lead me to trust them? Not the words they speak. Words are easy. I have learned the very hard way that not every word spoken is trustworthy. Including my own words.
That’s where the ego traps lie. In a distorted loyalty and breach of trust. Leading to actions that suit the ego purpose above the spiritual purpose. In my past I have been loyal to myself, to causes and to people based on a false understanding of the nature of loyalty. Many Lightworkers are drawn into declaring loyalty to someone or something because of emotional manipulation, faulty logic and a misunderstanding of energy exchanges. We all hope that we can find a way to be of help – the drive to altruism. Yet we often forget to help ourselves or stay loyal to our truth. I understand this need for a compassionate purpose. For milestones showing my achievements. Progress. Evolution.
So how do I progress? Step by step is the first answer. Slowly is the second. Staying focused on trusting myself to do what I feel is the right thing. Noticing my ego moments, how they arise and when.
I also have to be aware of other people’s ego moments. Asking myself if there is trust and loyalty if those ego moments keep happening. Going back to my Guides for support in how to deal with a lack of authenticity in others. Check out what test I’m being set. Considering where I’m not being authentic with myself or others. There is a lovely poem by Marianne Williamson that also helps me remember to stay aware of my progress. It reminds me to keep shining my Light so that others caught in tangled webs can be encouraged to break free of the ego mind too.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
The answer to my challenges is to trust in my ability, stay loyal to my purpose and weed out the ego voice that tries to tempt me to ignore the prompting of my own intuition.
That means I have to be prepared to remove from my life those people and situations where there is absence of trust or loyalty. Half measures won’t do. My energy vibration is too precious to me to let it be distorted by the games ego plays. Being spiritual isn’t about me ignoring the ego actions of others. Or of me letting it pass time after time. I know this might seem harsh. However, if I am to help the people I’m here to help I can’t clutter up my energy until I’m unable to shine my unique Light.
I feel I have passed another milestone. I’m not here to p,ease myself or other people. My purpose in being here is to be exactly who I am. Love me or hate me, its not important. I will help whoever and wherever I am sent on my spiritual journey. That is what I intend to trust and stay loyal to. How about you?
Day 250 of my blogging challenge.