Leaping Into Darkness: Standing Steady

LeapingSometimes I feel like I’m leaping into darkness. I can’t see what’s ahead and my shadow side is doing it’s best to hold me back. That’s when I have to make the biggest effort to stay on track.

For most of this year I have been navigating my life blind. My usual sense of knowing exactly what I’m doing and where I’m going has been off line. That’s because it’s a year of big shifts, personally, globally and energetically. I’m not the only person confused, waiting and wondering ‘what next?’. As the year has gone on I’ve found myself shifting in all aspects of my life as the changes work their way through. But I’ve also noticed that whenever I’ve been leaping into the unknown my uncertainty has almost stopped me moving ahead. It’s really important for me to understand that habit. If I let it carry on into my future choices I could end up leaping – but not far enough or well enough.

That’s why I’m working hard to understand my fears. The parts of me that quake my way through change rather than striding confidently forward. I know I’m a bit of a control freak still. Change is something I’m only slowly getting comfortable with. But I have to help myself enjoy change when it happens because then I’m much more likely to make the best choices for me. And that’s the problem with my shadow side. When it gets in the way I don’t do the best for myself. Leaping forward turns into a jump backwards. As I acknowledge my fears it doesn’t remove them completely. But it makes it easier for me to ignore that ego prompt to stay in the same habits. Standing steady is my answer. I remind myself that I’m in charge, not the fear. And I remind myself of the many times I’ve leapt and succeeded.

That’s the point. Knowing that the leap will be over at some point. That I will be back on solid ground. And that everything will turn out well. Is it time to trust yourself enough to take a leap out of your comfort zone too?

Day 664 of my blogging challengeĀ 

2 thoughts on “Leaping Into Darkness: Standing Steady

  1. Yes. Yes. Yes. Lots of leaping about and going out of my comfort zone this year! Lol. I do prefer the safety and solitude of my corner space on the sofa. Cushions plumped, blanket on ha ha but once the leap of faith has happened sometimes I wonder why I made a fuss in the first place! X

  2. Thank you for commenting Sarah. I agree, it’s much more attractive to snuggle up in the corner of the sofa than to leap off that cliff edge. But it seems that we must right now. There is so much to gain. A bigger sofa, more cushions and a better blanked perhaps šŸ˜€

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