Two Years Later: The Blog Challenge ….. Continues

two yearsTonight I’m going to take a moment to celebrate achieving a daily blog for two years. It’s a challenge I set myself that I wasn’t even sure I would complete. But I have.

Two years of a blog a day! Sitting down mostly last thing at night to decide what to write. Wondering if anyone was reading them. Imagining I might run out of things to say. Staring at a blank screen as the clock crept round to midnight. Wishing I hadn’t challenged myself. Yet determined to fulfil my promise to myself. I know I needed something big to break me out of a massive writers block. Because I also knew for a long time that I had at least one book in my head that needed to be written. Well it has been. And I’m now onto book two. All from asking myself to push a little bit further.

I’ve stopped worrying about whether my blog gets read or not. Because I’ve started to enjoy the words for their own sake. After one or two false starts I’ve realised that there is so much joy in expressing myself this way. My writing has become a wonderful thing to do to lift my mood. It keeps me clear of low vibrational energy. I can be me. The real me. And I know I am generally an optimistic, hopeful person. I’m so glad to have discovered that me again. In a way I think it’s sad that writing is taught in such a rigid way. Unless, like I did, you have a good teacher or two. Or even three or four. Now I encourage other people as much as I can.

Out of the same challenge four of us have written a book each. Maybe there will be more who find the power of words in the future. Of course, my challenge isn’t over yet. I set myself the total of one thousand and one blogs. Or maybe I could up it to one thousand and two. Who knows? All I know is that my writing challenge continues.

Day 730 of my blogging challenge

Beach Inspiration: Taking a Moment to Tune In

BeachI went back to my beach this weekend. The one where the words drop into my head from another time and place. Inspirations falling like a heavy rain.

It seems really appropriate that when I walk by the water I feel the swell of emotions within me. The sea has always brought that to me. Of course the tradition is that water represents the flow of emotions. So being able to walk near the water’s edge can bring me very close to my own feelings. I am grateful that I have a beach to visit when I need to deal with the ebb and flow of my feelings. A way to let the water wash away the low vibrations I have accumulated since my last trip to the sea. When I feel I am clear of those energies I also find that my mind is full of new words. Forming behind my eyes are poems or pieces that inspire me to consider more deeply than I sometimes do. Consider that nature and purpose of feelings.

For me to think about my feelings with gratitude. Even the feelings I struggle with the most. I know that is the power of the sea for me. So the beach represents solid ground I can stand on whilst I open myself up to inspiration. I accept that the thoughts may come from my Spirit self. Or they may come from my Guides. My thoughts may also be the thoughts of others carried to me by the waves as a comfort, reminder or prompt. I love to let them emerge into my every day mind. Purple strands of thoughts amongst my green, blue and pink ones. I write them down to capture them before they fade away. Little wavelets being drawn back into a bigger ocean. That way I can savour them both at the time and later. Because inspiration can fade.

Many times I’ve forgotten a notebook or pen. Rushing away to get one I have felt the ideas drain back to join the sea like the water does through the sand. The beach has reclaimed the water’s secrets. But I have practiced remembering something to write with. And the sea has rewarded me with more inspirations during my time on the beach.

I am grateful for these words this weekend:

Sea wrack as tide turns back
Shells along the shore
Ancient bones as sea moans
Waiting, wanting more
Life’s gift a calm sea
Sailing onward eternally
Life is a stormy path
Through dark skies
To the shore of death
Resting in each shell
New life begins
In sea’s roar and tumbling foam
Sun rise, sun set all the same
Is this life merely a game?

Take time to visit a place of water and let your inspirations in 💜

Day 727 of my blogging chllenge

Forest, Beach and Rainbows: Grounding and Releasing

ForestThis morning I went for a walk in the forest getting in amongst the trees. It was very quiet and peaceful. As I stood in the sunshine I looked at the abundance around me and wondered why I often forget how much Mother Earth has to offer us.

It was wonderful to see the clover, moss and mushrooms still covering the forest floor at this late point in the year. The trees proving their shelter for all this growth. And the birds swooping and circling still able to forage and survive. I love the idea of an eco-system that supports all of the varied life forms it contains. And I also thought about the way we have grouped together in human eco-systems. It seems to me that we have forgotten how to shelter each other. How to provide for and sustain each other. And how many people are left to fend for themselves in the most challenging of times. Looking at the trees that had been blown over by the recent storms many of them were still viable. Because they had been ‘caught’ by other trees and propped up.

I was fascinated that some of the roots were still in the ground and the trees had greenery. They would survive to see a new spring and summer. No longer upright. But still living as part of the forest eco-system. I left the forest and went down to the beach. The tide had washed up thousands more shells. The bay supports an abundance of life as the shells confirmed. They made a carpet under my feet. Once again I thought about a sustainable eco-system. Layer on layer of shells showing me that there was a delicate balance being played out on this part of the land too. Old shells discarded for new life to begin. The sun was setting. It has been a day of rainbows. The wet sand glimered like gold in the last of the sun. Life continues.

The forest and the beach reminded me that I can be part of a sustainable eco-system too. If I remain grounded in the present, aware of myself as part of a community and release the fear of lack. With that in my heart I know that if this is my last day I know I have wanted for nothing. I am at peace.

Day 726 of my blogging challenge 

Wilderness Escape: Heading Out Of Town

WildernessI’m back in the wilderness of a wild forest by a beach. I’ve escaped again to my creative place so that I can balance my energy. And get inspirations.

I love going into hiding. Disappearing off the Earth for a while. In fact, I like doing it so much it’s always a bit of an effort to come back. Sometimes I escape in my mind. But this time I have returned to my own little piece of wilderness to watch the sun set amid the yellow broom flowers. Setting over the sea making beautiful golden lines on the water. There is something very special about letting the wind blow the cobwebs away whilst listening to the call of the birds as they fly free. I find I have space to think. Space to feel. And most importantly, space to be. When I am empty in my head the ideas can fall in, like little prompts, reminding me that I am a creative being.

I know I can get too full up of the W energy of the world. It can be hard to hear the quiet voice of inspiration helping me to move on. Wilderness reminds me that everything blooms somewhere. What I can a wilderness isn’t really anything of the kind. It is fertile ground. All sorts of things can seed and grow. Grow in shapes untended by carefully manicured gardening. Being in the wild wood my ideas can blossom in all sorts of interesting and unexpected ways. I can reshape my life choices to better fit what I now require and desire. So long as I keep listening to that inner voice. Finding the space and time to let it emerge from the noise of the rest of the world.

That’s why I am on an escape again this weekend. It’s time for me to close out the distractions because choices have to be made soon. I love my walks into the wilderness. They are a way to discover some piece of treasure. I wonder what it might be this weekend.

Day 725 of my blogging challenge 

Moments of Peace : Stepping Away From Fear

momentsIt’s been a day of moments. Small pieces of time that create an atmosphere of peace. Little bits of memories to carry away to remind me of a peace filled day.

I’m aware that sometimes I get lost in my days. Rushing from one task to another I forget to pause and notice the moments. Chasing the next worry, ticking items off my list and trying to steady my wobbles. I know that life is a balance between happiness and fear. Fear of things to come. My fear that I won’t be good enough. The anxiety that abundance will disappear if I don’t stay hard at my work. Even the niggle that being is the wrong state of mind. That I should be doing all the time. It’s as if I have forgotten the moments. Because I’m rushing through from here to there. Almost as if the moments have all blurred into one. That is when I have to slow down, stop and take a look at my day in a different way.

In the end my day is composed of tiny moments. A sound or smell. Words I hear. Smiles I connect with. A positive post on my Facebook wall. The twitter meme that makes me laugh. Because these little packets of experience are the atoms of my solid day. I will remember Hazel’s warm welcome. Or call to mind Rosie organising my books. Then there is the car that let me out at the junction. Along with the sharing of breakfast with Lyn. In those moments I was at peace. Not stressing about clearing my Centre. Or how many bags I had to take to the tip and would they all fit in my car. Each a peaceful reflection on the joy of being alive. I know how easy it is to forget that live is good. How often I hear people talk about their tasks instead fo their lives.

As if life is only about what I do. Yet I realise it is all about how much I enjoy it. So, for me, it has been another peace filled day. I will remember it for being full of moments of love, joy, kindness and compassion. I am so glad I paused for  a while to notice it.

Day 723 of my blogging challenge.

Lightworker, Indigo, Crystal: Which One Are You?

LightworkerI’m a lightworker. I’m often asked about what that means. As well as being asked about Indigo and Crystal people. It can get confusing. So I want to set out what my Guides have helped me understand about these different energy vibrations.

I’ve written in previous blog posts about Indigo and Crystal children but not specifically about the Lightworker vibration. Before I start I want to acknowledge the work of Doreen Virtue, Meg Blackburn Losey, Lee Carroll and Jan Tober. These were the people my Guides directed me to when I was trying to make sense of the little child it seemed I had agreed to bring into the world. Their books were really helpful in getting me started with the ideas of different energy vibrations across a global population. They also made me feel much less alone in my journey.

Especially in the 3 or 4 am waking hours that my daughter insisted in keeping. Learning to understand my place as a lightworker also eased the challenges of living with an energy sensitive child. In fact, as I moved deeper into mediumship I began to understand what a gift I had been given. And to recognise that I had to stand firm for the requirements of my daughter. Even if that took me outside of the mainstream opinions about child rearing. But it seems that I was given enough strength and tenacity to do that because her upbringing has definitely been very different than mine or most of her peers.

I am especially grateful to my Mum. She said to me one day that only I would really know my child and to trust my intuition.Back then I had no idea what I had got into.Thank goodness for my Lightworker vibration!

Her words have been my sort of defence against the dark arts whenever negative energy has flooded into our lives. Although there have been several times when I thought the task I had been given would end up being too much for me, today I realise that is how many parents of Crystal children feel. Reading as much as I could was a good way to start. But, being the sceptic I was, I wanted more evidence. Proof really. Because I could see that I might have to revise my idea of what our relationship might be. And how we would interact in the world. That’s when my Guides stepped in.

I got a great deal of help by tuning into my intuition. It made my relationship with my daughter much easier. Then I started to learn about energy vibrations and the ways in which my energy and hers could influence each other.

Added to the energy of the people around us I began to see how both of us could be strongly affected too. That’s why I started to ask a lot of questions about being a Lightworker. After the Second World War, and almost fifty years of conflict, economic challenges and hate filled rhetoric the energy on the planet was extremely ‘heavy’. In other words, the vibration of the Earth was very low and operating at the negative end of the spectrum. It was decided to help humanity return to a more positive vibration. Especially since it was almost time for our world to make a big vibrational shift with an evolutionary leap forward. From about 1950 onwards a new type of Spirit incarnated into human bodies. This Lightworker Spirtit energy produced people who were willing to serve others. Almost at the cost of their own selves.

The essence of the Lightworker is of the angels. There is a connection to Divine Healing and Unconditional Love that makes us prone to gather up all sorts of waifs and strays in order to serve them.

Lightworkers don’t rebel. Except against being here in the first place. Because a lightworker has been human very many times. And I know I was hoping for a bit longer off planet than I actually got. If you are like me you will have conformed in school and at home, in your community and in your work. You will have been anxious to follow all the rules in case of upsetting anyone. Like me you will have wanted people to like you a little bit more than is good for you. Lightworkers can’t resist a rescue so I know I spent a lot of my time putting the needs of other before my own. All so I could see them happy.

Of course Lightworkers have had to get used to a lot of disappointment. I know that it is really hard for people to raise their vibration and live a positive life. Especially when most of the energy around is feeding fears. But by 1970, or thereabouts, enough of us had done our work and a new vibration of Spirit began to come in. I’ve met many, many Indigo people. Unlike a lightworker beavering away behind the scenes Indigos know they are here to make changes. Big changes. Indigos struggle in any system that restricts their ability to be free. I love talking to Indigos. They are so focused on competing their mission. And they don’t mind who knows it. But they are hampered by a lack of direct orders.

Indigos are very energy sensitive. So much so that many of them have found it almost impossible to live on the planet. They want to go home. But they also want to carry out their mission.

If only they knew what it was supposed to be. I look for Indigo vibrations in all those people who change jobs quite a bit. Who are restless. They are the people pushing things forward, full of innovative ideas, and frustration that no one will take the ideas on board. Many Indigos work for themselves. They love the planet and feel more comfortable with animals than people. Ask any Indigo to complete a task and it’s done. So long as they feel that what you have asked is a worthy task. Because they don’t like wasting time. I love watching a group of Indigos dream up several ways of doing something. Then decide to shoot off in all directions to try each solution.

Yet I’ve also seen the loyalty that Indigos share with one another. They are aware how sensitive the world makes them feel. So they protect one another as much as possible. Think Marines, or a troop of peace loving, planet hugging soldiers ready to stand their ground for what they believe in. They reject aggression and violence. But suffer a lot sometimes when the world hasn’t changed. I know that giving an Indigo a purpose, some intuitive protection and peaceful surroundings is the best way to keep them strong. Being strong is important because I also know that their combined vibration is what has made it possible for the Crystal Spirits to come in.

There are at least three blogs about Crystal children where I explain about their loving vibration. Living with a crystal is both a challenge and a blessing. For that reason I’m very glad I am a Lightworker.

The Spirits who carry a Crystal vibration started coming in about 2000 and until about 2005 they found the vibration we live in very hard to deal with. If the Indigos are sensitive to energy the Crystals are over-sensitive. They struggle with low vibrational emotions including their own. They are a battery of positive, unconditional love. So I know they find it hard to live here. They often say they want to leave. They collect up other peoples negative emotions like it is water. Then they pour it out all over their parent(s). Many times I’ve had to help my daughter find a way to shield herself from the impact of other people. And show her how to release stuck energy.

Crystals are often classified when they get to school. There are a number of labels used to account for their sensory, mental and emotional differences. However, these children and teenagers are intelligent, spiritual and peaceful. Those born after 2005 can also handle the energy here much better than the earliest ones. They are also old souls. And have been off the planet for a long time, so may take quite a while to adjust to being back in a flesh and blood body. Crystals are fearless. mainly because death has no meaning for them. They tend not to tire because they can pull energy from the people around them. Their aim is to do well and share love. But struggle when their love is rejected.

People are finally waking up to their spiritual purpose. It’s time to embrace being a Lightworker, Indigo or Crystal. I feel that there is so much more we can all achieve when we understand our individual and family vibrations. Do you know your energy vibration yet?

Day 722 of my blogging challenge

Hopefully Exploring Past, Present And Future

hopefullyHopefully I can return to my past lives again in the future. Yet today was the last workshop I will be doing for a while. On any subject. It was perfect that it was about the karmic threads of our past lives.

I have spent most of my life exploring my own, and then other people’s, past lives. It’s a subject that fascinates me. Whilst doing it I’ve understood a lot of my own karmic threads and patterns. Hopefully I have balanced them off enough that the karmic ripples have now settled and I will have future lives that address different learning. Looking into the causes of my life patterns I have also learned to pay attention to what I’m doing now. To help myself understand I can’t possibly judge whether something will work out as i plan or not. It’s been a valuable lesson in trust and letting go of control. So much so that the changes I am making are happening very early. Because I’m not thinking about the outcomes.

I’m staying focused on what I feel, what attracts me about the things I do and whether I get a strong positive energy from what I’m putting into practice. Like today. I had the perfect group of people for my workshop. There were endless synchronicities. And much laughter. Hopefully my future work will contain the same magical ingredients too. That’s my point to the Universe. I would like to follow a future path that puts me in the right place at the right time for all of the best reasons. I’m feeling good about the work I see in front of me for the next six or twelve months. But I also know that if something has not worked as it should the Universe will correct it. Knowing this I have high hopes.

Getting to a state of hopefulness has taken me some time and effort. I’ve had to recognise when I drift away from seeing my past, present and future in a positive light. And I’ve had to understand my reasons for those moments of drift. So that I can release what may be holding me back. And return myself to feeling and thinking hopefully about my future. Are you looking ahead hopefully? It really does help if you can.

Day 720 of my blogging challenge

Mix Up The Ingredients To Bake With Love

cake mixToday I baked a cake. Something I have missed doing for a long while. Whilst adding ingredients into the mix I thought about the impact of this year in my life.

Like a recipe my year has had many ingredients. A dash of fizz, a huge dollop of change, some scrapings of hurt and a whole lot of love. There were moments when I thought it wouldn’t rise. Or that I would end up burned. As I continued to mix and match parts of my life I was testing it’s flavour. Did I need a dash more excitement? A little bit of structure? Maybe something more to chew on? I feel that, overall, I’ve baked a good recipe this year. And I’m enjoying the benefits of eating a ‘cake’ made with love. Yes, I know there are still a few sour tastes left in my mouth. But the mix wouldn’t be right if it was too sweet. Now I need to research my recipe for the next twelve months. It’s time to gather more ingredients.

Of course I want to be sure that anything I add boosts the love built into my cake of life. That means weighing things very carefully. Even leaving out a few things. Some of the sweet things are being replaced by my passions. Out go the Centre, Spiritualist churches & groups, my psychic art (for a while) and my groups. Also being left out are my workshops and teaching. Finally, next January my readings will be going too. They all have to make way for writing and mentoring. Not to mention book events, radio and video broadcasts and public speaking. The next twelve months is a mix to bake a fresh new cake for me. I’m sure it will be choc full of love, adventure and excitement. Knowing it will taste good I am happy to mix and blend in the perfect proportions.

Because that’s what matters. Improving the recipe. Moving the tried and tested into a make over that brings about a wonderful new surprise. How is your life cake baking? Is it full of love and magical ingredients? Do you need to find a new cook book to add more adventure to the next year? Aim to mix things up well and see what you can achieve.

Day 719 of my blogging challenge

Travelling Light: Time To Move On

travellingFor several months I’ve kept hearing the same words from my Guides. They keep telling me it’s time to be travelling light. In other words, time to release everything that I no longer need.

Today I sent another two bags of my possessions to the charity shop. It felt really good to tidy out some more cupboards and make space. I’ve been doing that quite a bit. Making space for new things to come in. Looking forward to a new direction and fresh opportunities. Yet I still have a pile of ‘maybe I’ll keep this’ items waiting for me to really get my head around travelling light. Like going on a holiday with only hand luggage and hoping to have enough clothes to last the week. That’s when packing can be a nightmare. Do I squeeze in the extra pair of shoes or a jumper just in case? Can I really strip done my needs to the contents of a suitcase? Do I play the ‘putting on extra layers’ game or stick with what is in the bag?

Travelling is a result of change. I’m going from one me to the next me. I want to enjoy myself when I get there but I also want to make sure I have all the usual requirements. But what do really require? I feel it’s easy to get lost in all sorts of stuff that might never come out of the suitcase, Just because … That’s how I get overburdened. And exhausted with carrying too much stuff. The changes I want to make will only succeed if I clear my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual things. So as well as sending items to charity I have had to consider the emotional and memory reasons why I’m holding onto each piece. And remind myself that I only want to keep good and positive thoughts and feelings.

Travelling light is much easier to achieve when I remind myself that I will always have the positive energy of anything I’ve had in my life. As I accept this I can let go of anything that isn’t positive. Then I can work on letting go of the actual thing that creates the positive energy. It doesn’t have to be packed in my bag for me to carry it’s positivity with me. I hope to be travelling even lighter soon!

Day 718 of my blogging challenge